She looked frightened. "What will it tell me?" she asked.
"It will tell you, Stella, that false appearances once led you
into wronging an
innocent man."
Having said this, I walked away to a window behind her, at the
further end of the room, so that she might not see me while she
read.
After a time--how much longer it seemed to be than it really
was!--I heard her move. As I turned from the window, she ran to
me, and fell on her knees at my feet. I tried to raise her; I
entreated her to believe that she was
forgiven. She seized my
hands, and held them over her face--they were wet with her tears.
"I am
ashamed to look at you," she said. "Oh, Bernard, what a
wretch I have been!"
I never was so distressed in my life. I don't know what I should
have said, what I should have done, if my dear old dog had not
helped me out of it. He, too, ran up to me, with the loving
jealousy of his race, and tried to lick my hands, still fast in
Stella's hold. His paws were on her shoulder; he attempted to
push himself between us. I think I
successfully assumed a
tranquillity which I was far from really feeling. "Come, come!" I
said, "you mustn't make Traveler jealous." She let me raise her.
Ah, if she could have kissed _me_--but that was not to be done;
she kissed the dog's head, and then she spoke to me. I shall not
set down what she said in these pages. While I live, there is no
fear of my forgetting those words.
I led her back to her chair. The letter addressed to me by the
Rector of Belhaven still lay on the table, unread. It was of some
importance to Stella's complete enlightenment, as containing
evidence that the
confession was
genuine. But I hesitated, for
her sake, to speak of it just yet.
"Now you know that you have a friend to help and
advise you--" I
began.
"No," she interposed; "more than a friend; say a brother."
I said it. "You had something to ask of me," I resumed, "and you
never put the question."
She understood me.
"I meant to tell you," she said, "that I had written a letter of
refusal to Mr. Romayne's lawyers. I have left Ten Acres, never to
return; and I refuse to accept a
farthing of Mr. Romayne's money.
My mother--though she knows that we have enough to live on--tells
me I have acted with inexcusable pride and folly. I wanted to ask
if you blame me, Bernard, as she does?"
I daresay I was inexcusably proud and foolish too. It was the
second time she had called me by my Christian name since the
happy bygone time, never to come again. Under
whatever influence
I acted, I respected and admired her for that
refusal, and I
owned it in so many words. This little
encouragement seemed to
relieve her. She was so much calmer that I ventured to speak of
the Rector's letter.
She wouldn't hear of it. "Oh, Bernard, have I not
learned to
trust you yet? Put away those papers. There is only one thing I
want to know. Who gave them to you? The Rector?"
"No."
"How did they reach you, then?"
"Through Father Benwell."
She started at that name like a woman electrified.
"I knew it!" she cried. "It _is_ the
priest who has wrecked my
married life--and he got his information from those letters,
before he put them into your hands." She waited a while, and
recovered herself. "That was the first of the questions I wanted
to put to you," she said. "I am answered. I ask no more."
She was surely wrong about Father Benwell? I tried to show her
why.
I told her that my
reverend friend had put the letters into my
hand, with the seal which protected them
unbroken. She laughed
disdainfully. Did I know him so little as to doubt for a moment
that he could break a seal and
replace it again? This view was
entirely new to me; I was startled, but not convinced. I never
desert my friends--even when they are friends of no very long
standing--and I still tried to defend Father Benwell. The only
result was to make her alter her
intention of asking me no more
questions. I
innocently roused in her a ne w
curiosity. She was
eager to know how I had first become acquainted with the
priest,
and how he had contrived to possess himself of papers which were
intended for my
reading only.