her. "I remember the time, Lewis," she said, "when you would have
been more indulgent toward my errors--even if I am wrong."
That simple
appeal touched his better nature. "I don't mean to be
hard on you, Stella," he answered. "It is a little irritating to
hear you say that you
distrust the most
devoted and most
affectionate friend that man ever had. Why can't I love my wife,
and love my friend, too? You don't know, when I am
trying to get
on with my book, how I miss the help and
sympathy of Penrose. The
very sound of his voice used to
encourage me. Come, Stella, give
me a kiss--and let us, as the children say, make it up!"
He rose from his
writing-table. She met him more than half way,
and pressed all her love--and perhaps a little of her fear--on
his lips. He returned the kiss as warmly as it was given; and
then, unhappily for both of them, he went back to the subject.
"My own love," he said, "try to like my friend for my sake; and
be
tolerant of other forms of Christianity besides the form which
happens to be yours."
Her smiling lips closed; she turned from him. With the sensitive
selfishness of a woman's love, she looked on Penrose as a robber
who had
stolen the sympathies which should have been
wholly hers.
As she moved away, her quick
observation noticed the open book on
the desk, with notes and lines in pencil on the
margin of the
page. What had Romayne been
reading which interested him in
_that_ way? If he had remained silent, she would have addressed
the
inquiry to him
openly. But he was hurt on his side by the
sudden manner of her withdrawal from him. He spoke--and his tone
was colder than ever.
"I won't attempt to
combat your prejudices," he said. "But one
thing I must
seriously ask of you. When my friend Penrose comes
here to-morrow, don't treat him as you treated Mr. Winterfield."
There was a
momentary paleness in her face which looked like
fear, but it passed away again. She confronted him
firmly with
steady eyes.
"Why do you refer again to that?" she asked. "Is--" (she
hesitated and recovered herself)--"Is Mr. Winterfield another
devoted friend of yours?"
He walked to the door, as if he could hardly trust his
temper if
he answered her--stopped--and, thinking better of it, turned
toward her again.
"We won't quarrel, Stella," he rejoined; "I will only say I am
sorry you don't
appreciate my
forbearance. Your
reception of Mr.
Winterfield has lost me the friendship of a man whom I sincerely
liked, and who might have assisted my
literary labors. You were
ill at the time, and
anxious about Mrs. Eyrecourt. I respected
your
devotion to your mother. I remembered your telling me, when
you first went away to nurse her, that your
conscience accused
you of having sometimes thoughtlessly neglected your mother in
her days of health and good spirits, and I admired the
motive of
atonement which took you to her
bedside. For those reasons I
shrank from
saying a word that might wound you. But, because I
was silent, it is not the less true that you surprised and
disappointed me. Don't do it again! Whatever you may privately
think of Catholic
priests, I once more
seriously request you not
to let Penrose see it."
He left the room.
She stood, looking after him as he closed the door, like a woman
thunderstruck. Never yet had he looked at her as he looked when
he spoke his last
warning words. With a heavy sigh she roused
herself. The vague dread with which his tone rather than his
words had inspired her,
strangely associated itself with the
momentarycuriosity which she had felt on noticing the annotated
book that lay on his desk.
She snatched up the
volume and looked at the open page. It
contained the closing paragraphs of an
eloquent attack on
Protestantism, from the Roman Catholic point of view. With
trembling hands she turned back to the title-page. It presented
this written
inscription: "To Lewis Romayne from his attached
friend and servant, Arthur Penrose."
"God help me!" she said to herself; "the
priest has got between
us already!"
CHAPTER II.
A CHRISTIAN JESUIT.
ON the next day Penrose arrived on his visit to Romayne.
The
affectionate meeting between the two men tested Stella's
self-control as it had never been tried yet. She submitted to the
ordeal with the courage of a woman whose happiness depended on
her
outward graciousness of manner toward her husband's friend.
Her
reception of Penrose, viewed as an act of
refined courtesy,
was beyond
reproach. When she found her opportunity of leaving
the room, Romayne
gratefully opened the door for her. "Thank
you!" he whispered, with a look which was intended to
reward her.
She only bowed to him, and took
refuge in her own room.
Even in trifles, a woman's nature is degraded by the falsities of
language and manner which the
artificial condition of modern
society exacts from her. When she yields herself to more serious
deceptions, intended to protect her dearest
domestic interests,
the
mischief is increased in
proportion. Deceit, which is the
natural
weapon of defense used by the weak creature against the
strong, then ceases to be confined within the limits assigned by
the sense of self-respect and by the restraints of education. A
woman in this position will
descend, self- blinded, to acts of
meanness which would be revolting to her if they were
related of
another person.
Stella had already begun the process of self-degradation by
writingsecretly to Winterfield. It was only to warn him of the
danger of
trusting Father Benwell--but it was a letter, claiming
him as her accomplice in an act of
deception. That morning she
had received Penrose with the
outward cordialities of welcome
which are offered to an old and dear friend. And now, in the safe
solitude of her room, she had fallen to a lower depth still. She
was
deliberatelyconsidering the safest means of acquainting
herself with the
confidential conversation which Romayne and
Penrose would certainly hold when she left them together. "He
will try to set my husband against me; and I have a right to know
what means he uses, in my own defense." With that thought she
reconciled herself to an action which she would have despised if
she had heard of it as the action of another woman.
It was a beauti ful autumn day, brightened by clear sunshine,
enlivened by crisp air. Stella put on her hat and went out for a
stroll in the grounds.
While she was within view from the windows of the servants'
offices she walked away from the house. Turning the corner of a
shrubbery, she entered a winding path, on the other side, which
led back to the lawn under Romayne's study window. Garden chairs
were placed here and there. She took one of them, and seated
herself--after a last moment of honorable
hesitation--where she
could hear the men's voices through the open window above her.
Penrose was
speaking at the time.
"Yes. Father Benwell has granted me a holiday," he said; "but I
don't come here to be an idle man. You must allow me to employ my
term of leave in the pleasantest of all ways. I mean to be your
secretary again."
Romayne sighed. "Ah, if you knew how I have missed you!"
(Stella waited, in
breathlessexpectation, for what Penrose would
say to this. Would he speak of _her?_ No. There was a natural
tact and
delicacy in him which waited for the husband to
introduce the subject.)
Penrose only said, "How is the great work getting on?"
The answer was
sternlyspoken in one word--"Badly!"
"I am surprised to hear that, Romayne."
"Why? Were you as
innocentlyhopeful as I was? Did you expect my
experience of married life to help me in
writing my book?"
Penrose replied after a pause,
speaking a little sadly. "I
expected your married life to
encourage you in all your highest
aspirations," he said.