in Mr. Winterfield's life have connected him with a young lady
named Miss Stella Eyrecourt. If this proves to be the case it is
essential that I should be made acquainted with the whole of the
circumstances.
I have now informed you of all that I want to know. Whatever the
information may be, it is most important that it shall be
information which I can implicitly trust. Please address to me,
when you write, under cover to the friend whose letter I
inclose.
I beg your acceptance--as time is of importance--of a check for
preliminary expenses, and remain, sir, your
faithful servant,
AMBROSE BENWELL.
II.
_To the Secretary, Society of Jesus, Rome._
I
inclose a
receipt for the remittance which your last letter
confides to my care. Some of the money has been already used in
prosecuting inquiries, the result of which will, as I hope and
believe,
enable me to
effectually protect Romayne from the
advances of the woman who is bent on marrying him.
You tell me that our Reverend Fathers,
lately sitting in council
on the Vange Abbey affair, are
anxious to hear if any
positivesteps have yet been taken toward the
conversion of Romayne. I am
happily able to
gratify their wishes, as you shall now see.
Yesterday, I called at Romayne's hotel to pay one of those
occasional visits which help to keep up our
acquaintance. He was
out, and Penrose (for whom I asked next) was with him. Most
fortunately, as the event proved, I had not seen Penrose, or
heard from him, for some little time; and I thought it desirable
to judge for myself of the progress that he was making in the
confidence of his
employer. I said I would wait. The hotel
servant knows me by sight. I was shown into Romayne's
waiting-room.
This room is so small as to be a mere
cupboard. It is lighted by
a glass fanlight over the door which opens from the passage, and
is supplied with air (in the
absence of a fireplace) by a
ventilator in a second door, which communicates with Romayne's
study. Looking about me, so far, I crossed to the other end of
the study, and discovered a dining-room and two bedrooms
beyond--the set of apartments being secluded, by means of a door
at the end of the passage, from the other parts of the hotel. I
trouble you with these details in order that you may understand
the events that followed.
I returned to the waiting-room, not forgetting of course to close
the door of communication.
Nearly an hour must have passed before I heard footsteps in the
passage. The study door was opened,
and the voices of persons entering the room reached me through
the ventilator. I recognized Romayne, Penrose--and Lord Loring.
The first words exchanged among them informed me that Romayne and
his secretary had overtaken Lord Loring in the street, as he was
approaching the hotel door. The three had entered the house
together--at a time, probably, when the servant who had admitted
me was out of the way. However it may have happened, there I was,
forgotten in the waiting-room!
Could I
intrude myself (on a private conversation perhaps) as an
unannounced and
unwelcomevisitor? And could I help it, if the
talk found its way to me through the ventilator, along with the
air that I breathed? If our Reverend Fathers think I was to
blame, I bow to any
reproof which their
strict sense of propriety
may
inflict on me. In the
meantime, I beg to repeat the
interesting passages in the conversation, as nearly word for word
as I can remember them.
His
lordship, as the
principalpersonage in social rank, shall be
reported first. He said: "More than a week has passed, Romayne,
and we have neither seen you nor heard from you. Why have you
neglected us?"
Here, judging by certain sounds that followed, Penrose got up
discreetly, and left the room. Lord Loring went on.
He said to Romayne: "Now we are alone, I may speak to you more
freely. You and Stella seemed to get on together
admirably that
evening when you dined with us. Have you forgotten what you told
me of her influence over you? Or have you altered your
opinion--and is that the reason why you keep away from us?"
Romayne answered: "My opinion remains
unchanged. All that I said
to you of Miss Eyrecourt, I believe as
firmly as ever."
His
lordship remonstrated, naturally enough. "Then why remain
away from the good influence? Why--if it really _can_ be
controlled--risk another return of that
dreadful nervous
delusion?"
"I have had another return."
"Which, as you yourself believe, might have been prevented!
Romayne, you
astonish me."
There was a time of silence, before Romayne answered this. He was
a little
mysterious when he did reply. "You know the old saying,
my good friend--of two evils, choose the least. I bear my
sufferings as one of two evils, and the least of the two."
Lord Loring appeared to feel the necessity of
touching a delicate
subject with a light hand. He said, in his pleasant way: "Stella
isn't the other evil, I suppose?"
"Most
assuredly not."
"Then what is it?"
Romayne answered, almost
passionately: "My own
weakness and
selfishness! Faults which I must
resist, or become a mean and
heartless man. For me, the worst of the two evils is there. I
respect and admire Miss Eyrecourt--I believe her to be a woman in
a thousand--don't ask me to see her again! Where is Penrose? Let
us talk of something else."
Whether this wild way of
speaking offended Lord Loring, or only
discouraged him, I cannot say. I heard him take his leave in
these words: "You have disappointed me, Romayne. We will talk of
something else the next time we meet." The study door was opened
and closed. Romayne was left by himself.
Solitude was
apparently not to his taste just then. I heard him
call to Penrose. I heard Penrose ask: "Do you want me?"
Romayne answered: "God knows I want a friend--and I have no
friend near me but you! Major Hynd is away, and Lord Loring is
offended with me."
Penrose asked why.
Romayne,
thereupon, entered on the necessary
explanation. As a
priest
writing to priests, I pass over details utterly
uninteresting to us. The substance of what he said amounted to
this: Miss Eyrecourt had produced an
impression on him which was
new to him in his experience of women. If he saw more of her, it
might end--I ask your
pardon for repeating the ridiculous
expression--in his "falling in love with her." In this condition
of mind or body,
whichever it may be, he would probably be
incapable of the
self-control which he had
hithertopracticed. If
she consented to devote her life to him, he might accept the
cruel sacrifice. Rather than do this, he would keep away from
her, for her dear sake--no matter what he might suffer, or whom
he might offend.
Imagine any human being, out of a
lunaticasylum, talking in this
way. Shall I own to you, my
reverendcolleague, how this curious
self-exposure struck me? As I listened to Romayne, I felt
grateful to the famous Council which
definitelyforbade the
priests of the Catholic Church to marry. _We_ might otherwise
have been morally enervated by the
weakness which degrades
Romayne--and priests might have become instruments in the hands
of women.
But you will be
anxious to hear what Penrose did under the
circumstances. For the moment, I can tell you this, he startled
me.