Don't be
impatient with her! Put away from you that besetting
temptation to speak in irony--it is so easy to take that tone,
and sometimes so cruel. I am only a looker-on, I know. Domestic
happiness can never be the happiness of _my_ life. But I have
observed my fellow-creatures of all degrees--and this, I tell
you, is the result. The largest number of happy men are the
husbands and fathers. Yes; I admit that they have terrible
anxieties--but they are fortified by unfailing compensations and
encouragements. Only the other day I met with a man who had
suffered the loss of fortune and, worse still, the loss of
health. He endured those afflictions so
calmly that he surprised
me. 'What is the secret of your philosophy?' I asked. He
answered, 'I can bear anything while I have my wife and my
children.' Think of that, and judge for yourself how much
happiness you may have left yet ungathered in your married life."
(Those words touched Stella's higher nature, as the dew touches
the thirsty ground. Surely they were nobly spoken! How would her
husband receive them?)
"I must think with your mind, Penrose, before I can do what you
ask of me. Is there any method of
transformation by which I can
change natures with you?" That was all he said--and he said it
despondingly.
Penrose understood, and felt for him.
"If there is anything in my nature,
worthy to be set as an
example to you," he replied, "you know to what
blessed influence
I owe self-discipline and serenity of mind. Remember what I said
when I left you in London, to go back to my friendless life. I
told you that I found, in the Faith I held, the one sufficient
consolation which helped me to bear my lot. And--if there came a
time of sorrow in the future--I entreated you to remember what I
had said. Have you remembered it?"
"Look at the book here on my desk--look at the other books,
within easy reach, on that table--are you satisfied?"
"More than satisfied. Tell me--do you feel nearer to an
under
standing of the Faith to which I have tried to
convert you?"
There was a pause. "Say that I do feel nearer," Romayne
resumed--"say that some of my objections are removed--are you
really as eager as ever to make a Catholic of me, now that I am a
married man?"
"I am even more eager," Penrose answered. "I have always believed
that your one sure way to happiness lay through your
conversion.
Now, when I know, from what I have seen and heard in this room,
that you are not reconciled, as you should be, to your new life,
I am
doubly confined in my
belief. As God is my
witness, I speak
sincerely. Hesitate no longer! Be
converted, and be happy."
"Have you not forgotten something, Penrose?"
"What have I forgotten?"
"A serious
consideration, perhaps. I have a Protestant wife."
"I have borne that in mind, Romayne, throughout our
conversation."
"And you still say--what you have just said?"
"With my whole heart, I say it! Be
converted, and be happy. Be
happy, and you will be a good husband. I speak in your wife 's
interest as well as in yours. People who are happy in each
other's society, will yield a little on either side, even on
questions of religious
belief. And perhaps there may follow a
more
profitable result still. So far as I have observed, a good
husband's example is
gladly followed by his wife. Don't think
that I am
trying to
persuade you against your will! I am only
telling you, in my own
justification, from what motives of love
for yourself, and of true interest in your
welfare, I speak. You
implied just now that you had still some objections left. If I
can remove them--well and good. If I fail--if you cannot act on
purely
conscientiousconviction--I not only
advise, I entreat
you, to remain as you are. I shall be the first to acknowledge
that you have done right."
(This
moderation of tone would
appeal irresistibly, as Stella
well knew, to her husband's ready
appreciation of those good
qualities in others which he did not himself possess. Once more
her
suspicion wronged Penrose. Had he his own interested motives
for pleading her cause? At the bare thought of it, she left her
chair and,
standing under the window,
boldly interrupted the
conversation by
calling to Romayne.)
"Lewis!" she cried, "why do you stay
indoors on this beautiful
day? I am sure Mr. Penrose would like a walk in the grounds."
Penrose appeared alone at the window. "You are quite right, Mrs.
Romayne," he said; "we will join you directly."
In a few minutes he turned the corner of the house, and met
Stella on the lawn. Romayne was not with him. "Is my husband not
coming with us?" she asked. "He will follow us," Penrose
answered. "I believe he has some letters to write."
Stella looked at him, suspecting some underhand exercise of
influence on her husband.
If she had been able to
estimate the noble qualities in the
nature of Penrose, she might have done him the justice to arrive
at a truer
conclusion. It was he who had asked leave (when Stella
had interrupted them) to take the opportunity of
speaking alone
with Mrs. Romayne. He had said to his friend, "If I am wrong in
my
anticipation of the effect of your change of religion on your
wife, let me find it out from herself. My one object is to act
justly toward you and toward her. I should never
forgive myself
if I made
mischief between you, no matter how
innocent of any
evil
intention I might be." Romayne had understood him. It was
Stella's
misfortuneignorantly to misinterpret everything that
Penrose said or did, for the all-sufficient reason that he was a
Catholic
priest. She had drawn the
conclusion that her husband
had
deliberately left her alone with Penrose, to be
persuaded or
deluded into giving her
sanction to aid the influence of the
priest. "They shall find they are mistaken," she thought to
herself.
"Have I interrupted an interesting conversation?" she inquired
abruptly. "When I asked you to come out, were you talking to my
husband about his
historical work?"
"No, Mrs. Romayne; we were not
speaking at that time of the
book."
"May I ask an odd question, Mr. Penrose?"
"Certainly!"
"Are you a very
zealous Catholic?"
"Pardon me. I am a
priest. Surely my
profession speaks for me?"
"I hope you are not
trying to
convert my husband?"
Penrose stopped and looked at her attentively.
"Are you
strongly opposed to your husband's
conversion?" he
asked.
"As
strongly," she answered, "as a woman can be."
"By religious
conviction, Mrs. Romayne?"
"No. By experience."
Penrose started. "Is it indiscreet," he said
gently, "to inquire
what your experience may have been?"
"I will tell you what my experience has been," Stella replied. "I
am
ignorant of
theological subtleties, and questions of doctrine
are quite beyond me. But this I do know. A well-meaning and
zealous Catholic shortened my father's life, and separated me
from an only sister whom I
dearly loved. I see I shock you--and I
daresay you think I am exaggerating?"
"I hear what you say, Mrs. Romayne, with very great pain--I don't
presume to form any opinion thus far."
"My sad story can be told in a few words," Stella proceeded.
"When my elder sister was still a young girl, an aunt of ours (my