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Bingen, on the Rhine, May 19.--Letters from Devonshire at last,

which relieve my wretchedness in some small degree. The frightful



misfortune at Brussels will at least be kept secret, so far as I

am concerned. Beaupark House is shut up, and the servants are



dismissed, "in consequence of my residenceabroad." To Father

Newbliss I have privately written. Not daring to tell him the



truth, I leave him to infer that my marriage engagement has been

broken off, he writes back a kind and comforting letter. Time



will, I suppose, help me to bear my sad lot. Perhaps a day may

come when Stella and her friends will know how cruelly they have



wronged me.

London, November 18,1860.--The old wound has been opened again. I



met her accidentally in a picture gallery. She turned deadly

pale, and left the place. Oh, Stella! Stella!



London, August 12, 1861.--Another meeting with her. And another

shock to endure, which I might not have suffered if I had been a



reader of the marriage announcements in the newspapers. Like

other men, I am in the habit of leaving the marriage



announcements to the women.

I went to visit an agreeable new acquaintance, Mr. Romayne. His



wife drove up to the house while I was looking out of window. I

recognized Stella! After two years, she has made use of the



freedom which the law has given to her. I must not complain of

that, or of her treating me like a stranger, when her husband



innocently introduced us. But when are were afterward left

together for a few minutes--no! I cannot write down the merciless



words she said to me. Why am I fool enough to be as fond of her

as ever?



Beaupark, November 16.--Stella's married life is not likely to be

a happy one. To-day's newspaper announces the conversion of her



husband to the Roman Catholic Faith. I can honestly say I am

sorry for her, knowing how she has suffered, among her own



relatives, by these conversions. But I so hate him, that this

proof of his weakness is a downrightconsolation to me.



Beaupark, January 27, 1862.--A letter from Stella, so startling

and deplorable that I cannot remain away from her after reading



it. Her husband has deliberately deserted her. He has gone to

Rome, to serve his term of probation for the priesthood. I travel



to London by to-day's train.

London, January 27.--Short as it is, I looked at Stella's letter



again and again on the journey. The tone of the closing sentences

is still studiously cold. After informing me that she is staying



with her mother in London, she concludes her letter in these

terms:



"Be under no fear that the burden of my troubles will be laid on

your shoulders. Since the fatal day when we met at Ten Acres, you



have shown forbearance and compassion toward me. I don't stop to

inquire if you are sincere--it rests with you to prove that. But



I have some questions to ask, which no person but you can answer.

For the rest, my friendless position will perhaps plead with you



not to misunderstand me. May I write again?"

Inveterate distrust in every sentence! If any other woman had



treated me in this way, I should have put her letter into the

fire, and should not have stirred from my comfortable house.



January 29.--A day missed out of my Diary. The events of

yesterday unnerved me for the time.



Arriving at Derwent's Hotel on the evening of the 27th, I sent a

line to Stella by messenger, to ask when she could receive me.



It is strange how the merest trifles seem to touch women! Her

note in reply contains the first expression of friendly feeling



toward me which has escaped her since we parted at Brussels. And

this expression proceeds from her ungovernable surprise and



gratitude at my taking the trouble to travel from Devonshire to

London on her account!



For the rest, she proposed to call on me at the hotel the next

morning. She and her mother, it appeared, differed in opinion on



the subject of Mr. Romayne's behavior to her; and she wished to

see me, in the first instance, unrestrained by Mrs. Eyrecourt's



interference.

• dismay [dis´mei] n.惊慌 vt.使惊慌 (初中英语单词)


• priest [pri:st] n.教士；牧师；神父 (初中英语单词)


• conscience [´kɔnʃəns] n.良心；道德心 (初中英语单词)


• catholic [´kæθəlik] a.天主教 n.天主教徒 (初中英语单词)


• triumph [´traiəmf] n.胜利 vi.得胜，战胜 (初中英语单词)


• domestic [də´mestik] a.家庭的；本国的 (初中英语单词)


• restore [ri´stɔ:] vt.(使)恢复；修复 (初中英语单词)


• miserable [´mizərəbəl] a.悲惨的；可怜的 (初中英语单词)


• spoken [´spəukən] speak的过去分词 (初中英语单词)


• estate [i´steit] n.财产；庄园；等级 (初中英语单词)


• promptly [´prɔmptli] ad.敏捷地；即时地 (初中英语单词)


• sympathy [´simpəθi] n.同情，怜悯 (初中英语单词)


• impression [im´preʃən] n.印刷；印象；效果 (初中英语单词)


• unhappy [ʌn´hæpi] a.不幸的；不快乐的 (初中英语单词)


• restless [´restləs] a.没有休息的 (初中英语单词)


• useless [´ju:sləs] a.无用的，无价值的 (初中英语单词)


• lawyer [´lɔ:jə] n.律师；法学家 (初中英语单词)


• professional [prə´feʃənəl] a.职业的 n.自由职业 (初中英语单词)


• patience [´peiʃəns] n.忍耐(力)；耐心；坚韧 (初中英语单词)


• continent [´kɔntinənt] n.大陆，陆地 (初中英语单词)


• abroad [ə´brɔ:d] ad.海外；到处；广泛 (初中英语单词)


• blessing [´blesiŋ] n.祝福 (初中英语单词)


• wedding [´wediŋ] n.婚礼，结婚 (初中英语单词)


• celebrated [´selibreitid] a.著名的 (初中英语单词)


• relieve [ri´li:v] v.救济，援救；减轻 (初中英语单词)


• consequence [´kɔnsikwəns] n.结果；后果；推断 (初中英语单词)


• residence [´rezidəns] n.居住(期间)；住宅 (初中英语单词)


• engagement [in´geidʒmənt] n.婚约；雇用；受聘 (初中英语单词)


• gallery [´gæləri] n.画廊；美术馆；长廊 (初中英语单词)


• endure [in´djuə] vt.忍耐，忍受；坚持 (初中英语单词)


• agreeable [ə´gri:əbəl] a.适合的；符合的 (初中英语单词)


• acquaintance [ə´kweintəns] n.相识；熟人，相识的人 (初中英语单词)


• complain [kəm´plein] vi.抱怨，叫屈；控诉 (初中英语单词)


• honestly [´ɔnistli] ad.诚实地，老实地 (初中英语单词)


• knowing [´nəuiŋ] a.会意的，心照不宣的 (初中英语单词)


• weakness [´wi:knis] n.虚弱；弱点，缺点 (初中英语单词)


• messenger [´mesindʒə] n.使者；送信人 (初中英语单词)


• instance [´instəns] n.例子，实例，例证 (初中英语单词)


• misfortune [mis´fɔ:tʃən] n.不幸；灾祸 (高中英语单词)


• obstacle [´ɔbstəkl] n.障碍(物)；妨碍 (高中英语单词)


• separation [,sepə´reiʃən] n.分离；分开；分居 (高中英语单词)


• regarding [ri´gɑ:diŋ] prep.关于 (高中英语单词)


• boldly [´bəuldli] ad.大胆地；醒目地 (高中英语单词)


• hitherto [,hiðə´tu:] ad.至今，迄今 (高中英语单词)


• perfectly [´pə:fiktli] ad.理想地；完美地 (高中英语单词)


• critical [´kritikəl] a.批评的；关键性的 (高中英语单词)


• hearing [´hiəriŋ] n.听力；听证会；审讯 (高中英语单词)


• attraction [ə´trækʃən] n.吸引(力)；引力 (高中英语单词)


• perpetual [pə´petʃuəl] a.永恒的；终身的 (高中英语单词)


• confession [kən´feʃən] n.招供；认错；交待 (高中英语单词)


• related [ri´leitid] a.叙述的；有联系的 (高中英语单词)


• concerned [kən´sə:nd] a.有关的；担心的 (高中英语单词)


• deliberately [di´libərətli] ad.故意地；慎重地 (高中英语单词)


• distrust [dis´trʌst] n.&vt.不信任，怀疑 (高中英语单词)


• behavior [bi´heiviə] n.举止，行为 (高中英语单词)


• conversion [kən´və:ʃən] n.转化；变换；皈依 (英语四级单词)


• voluntary [´vɔləntəri] a.自愿的；义务的 (英语四级单词)


• scrape [skreip] v.&n.刮，削，擦；搔 (英语四级单词)


• mischievous [´mistʃivəs] a.有害的；淘气的 (英语四级单词)


• slander [´slɑ:ndə] vt.&n.诽谤(罪) (英语四级单词)


• desirous [di´zaiərəs] a.渴望的；想往的 (英语四级单词)


• belgian [´beldʒən] n.&a.比利时人(的) (英语四级单词)


• brussels [´brʌslz] n.布鲁塞尔 (英语四级单词)


• daring [´deəriŋ] a.&n.勇敢(的) (英语四级单词)


• cruelly [´kruəli] ad.残酷地；极，非常 (英语四级单词)


• consolation [,kɔnsə´leiʃən] n.安慰，慰问 (英语四级单词)


• compassion [kəm´pæʃən] n.同情；怜悯 (英语四级单词)


• foreseen [fɔ:´si:n] foresee的过去分词 (英语六级单词)


• modestly [´mɔdistli] ad.谦虚地；有节制地 (英语六级单词)


• vocation [vəu´keiʃən] n.职业；使命；天职 (英语六级单词)


• dissatisfied [´dis,sætis´fækʃən] a.不满的；显出不满的 (英语六级单词)


• enumerate [i´nju:məreit] vt.列举；清点，数 (英语六级单词)


• sorely [´sɔ:li] ad.痛苦地；剧烈地 (英语六级单词)


• rector [´rektə] n.校长；主任；负责人 (英语六级单词)


• privately [´praivitli] ad.秘密，一个人 (英语六级单词)


• accidentally [,æksi´dentəli] ad.偶然地 (英语六级单词)


• august [ɔ:´gʌst] a.尊严的；威严的 (英语六级单词)


• downright [´daunrait] a.直率的 ad.彻底 (英语六级单词)


• deplorable [di´plɔ:rəb(ə)l] a.可悲的，悲惨的 (英语六级单词)


• forbearance [fɔ:´beərəns] n.忍耐，克制 (英语六级单词)


• misunderstand [,misʌndə´stænd] vt.误会 (英语六级单词)


• taking [´teikiŋ] a.迷人的 n.捕获物 (英语六级单词)