describing the
conclusion of the
medical proceedings. That it was
the
conclusion, however, he could not
honestly deny.
"As long as I am right," said Romayne, "nothing else appears to
be of much importance. As I told you at the time, the second
physician appeared to me to be the only one of the three
authorities who really understood my case. Do you mind giving me,
in few words, your own
impression of what he said?"
"Are you sure that I shall not
distress you?"
"On the
contrary, you may help me to hope."
"As I remember it," said Lord Loring, "the doctor did not deny
the influence of the body over the mind. He was quite
willing to
admit that the state of your
nervoussystem might be one, among
other predisposing causes, which led you--I really hardly like to
go on."
"Which led me," Romayne continued, finishing the
sentence for his
friend, "to feel that I never shall
forgive myself--accident or
no accident--for having taken that man's life. Now go on."
"The
delusion that you still hear the voice," Lord Loring
proceeded, "is, in the doctor's opinion, the moral result of the
morbid state of your mind at the time when you really heard the
voice on the scene of the duel. The influence acts
physically, of
course, by means of certain nerves. But it is
essentially a moral
influence; and its power over you is greatly maintained by the
self-accusing view of the circumstances which you
persist in
taking. That, in substance, is my
recollection of what the doctor
said."
"And when he was asked what remedies he proposed to try," Romayne
inquired, "do you remember his answer? 'The
mischief which moral
influences have caused, moral influences alone can remedy.' "
"I remember," said Lord Loring. "And he mentioned, as examples of
what he meant, the
occurrence of some new and absorbing interest
in your life, or the
working of some complete change in your
habits of thought--or perhaps some influence exercised over you
by a person
previously unknown, appearing under unforeseen
circumstances, or in scenes quite new to you."
Romayne's eyes sparkled.
"Now you are coming to it!" he cried. "Now I feel sure that I
recall
correctly the last words the doctor said: 'If my view is
the right one, I should not be surprised to hear that the
recovery which we all wish to see had found its
beginning in such
apparently
trifling circumstances as the tone of some other
person's voice or the influence of some other person's look.'
That plain expression of his opinion only occurred to my memory
after I had written my foolish letter of excuse. I spare you the
course of other
recollections that followed, to come at once to
the result. For the first time I have the hope, the faint hope,
that the voice which haunts me has been once already controlled
by one of the influences of which the doctor spoke--the influence
of a look."
If he had said this to Lady Loring, instead of to her husband,
she would have understood him at once. Lord Loring asked for a
word more of explanation.
"I told you yesterday," Romayne answered, "that a dread of the
return of the voice had been present to me all the morning, and
that I had come to see the picture with an idea of
trying if
change would
relieve me. While I was in the
gallery I was free
from the dread, and free from the voice. When I returned to the
hotel it tortured me--and Mr. Penrose, I
grieve to say, saw what
I suffered. You and I attributed the remission to the change of
scene. I now believe we were both wrong. Where was the change? In
seeing you and Lady Loring, I saw the two oldest friends I have.
In visiting your
gallery, I only revived the familiar
associations of hundreds of other visits. To what in fluence was
I really
indebted for my
respite? Don't try to
dismiss the
question by laughing at my morbid fancies. Morbid fancies are
realities to a man like me. Remember the doctor's words, Loring.
Think of a new face, seen in your house! Think of a look that
searched my heart for the first time!"
Lord Loring glanced once more at the clock on the mantel-piece.
The hands
pointed to the dinner hour.
"Miss Eyrecourt?" he whispered.
"Yes; Miss Eyrecourt."