sea, my love brought into direct
contact with the situation: all
that was enough to make one
shudder - not at the chance, but at the
design.
For it was my love that was called upon to act here, and nothing
else. And love which elevates us above all safeguards, above
restraining principles, above all littlenesses of self-possession,
yet keeps its feet always
firmly on earth, remains marvellously
practical in its suggestions.
I discovered that however much I had imagined I had given up Rita,
that
whatever agonies I had gone through, my hope of her had never
been lost. Plucked out, stamped down, torn to shreds, it had
remained with me secret,
intact, invincible. Before the danger of
the situation it
sprang, full of life, up in arms - the undying
child of
immortal love. What incited me was independent of honour
and
compassion; it was the prompting of a love
supreme, practical,
remorseless in its aim; it was the practical thought that no woman
need be counted as lost for ever, unless she be dead!
This excluded for the moment all considerations of ways and means
and risks and difficulties. Its
tremendousintensity robbed it of
all direction and left me adrift in the big black-and-white hall as
on a silent sea. It was not,
properlyspeaking, irresolution. It
was merely
hesitation as to the next immediate step, and that step
even of no great importance:
hesitation merely as to the best way
I could spend the rest of the night. I didn't think further
forward for many reasons, more or less optimistic, but mainly
because I have no homicidal vein in my
composition. The
disposition to gloat over homicide was in that
miserable creature
in the
studio, the
potential Jacobin; in that confounded buyer of
agricultural produce, the
punctualemploye of Hernandez Brothers,
the
jealouswretch with an obscene tongue and an
imagination of the
same kind to drive him mad. I thought of him without pity but also
without
contempt. I reflected that there were no means of sending
a
warning to Dona Rita in Tolosa; for of course no postal
communication existed with the Headquarters. And
moreover what
would a
warning be worth in this particular case, supposing it
would reach her, that she would believe it, and that she would know
what to do? How could I
communicate to another that certitude
which was in my mind, the more
absolute because without proofs that
one could produce?
The last expression of Rose's
distress rang again in my ears:
"Madame has no friends. Not one!" and I saw Dona Rita's complete
loneliness beset by all sorts of insincerities, surrounded by
pitfalls; her greatest dangers within herself, in her generosity,
in her fears, in her courage, too. What I had to do first of all
was to stop that
wretch at all costs. I became aware of a great
mistrust of Therese. I didn't want her to find me in the hall, but
I was
reluctant to go
upstairs to my rooms from an unreasonable
feeling that there I would be too much out of the way; not
sufficiently on the spot. There was the
alternative of a live-long
night of watching outside, before the dark front of the house. It
was a most
distastefulprospect. And then it occurred to me that
Blunt's former room would be an
extremely good place to keep a
watch from. I knew that room. When Henry Allegre gave the house
to Rita in the early days (long before he made his will) he had
planned a complete renovation and this room had been meant for the
drawing-room. Furniture had been made for it specially,
upholstered in beautiful
ribbed stuff, made to order, of dull gold
colour with a pale blue tracery of arabesques and oval medallions
enclosing Rita's monogram,
repeated on the backs of chairs and
sofas, and on the heavy curtains reaching from ceiling to floor.
To the same time belonged the ebony and
bronze doors, the silver
statuette at the foot of the stairs, the forged iron balustrade
reproducing right up the
marblestaircase Rita's decorative
monogram in its
complicated design. Afterwards the work was
stopped and the house had fallen into disrepair. When Rita devoted
it to the Carlist cause a bed was put into that drawing-room, just
simply the bed. The room next to that yellow salon had been in
Allegre's young days fitted as a fencing-room containing also a
bath, and a
complicatedsystem of all sorts of
shower and jet
arrangements, then quite up to date. That room was very large,
lighted from the top, and one wall of it was covered by trophies of
arms of all sorts, a choice
collection of cold steel disposed on a
background of Indian mats and rugs Blunt used it as a dressing-
room. It
communicated by a small door with the
studio.
I had only to extend my hand and make one step to reach the
magnificent
bronze handle of the ebony door, and if I didn't want
to be caught by Therese there was no time to lose. I made the step
and
extended the hand, thinking that it would be just like my luck
to find the door locked. But the door came open to my push. In
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unexpectedly dazzling
to my eyes, as if illuminated a giorno for a
reception. No voice
came from it, but nothing could have stopped me now. As I turned
round to shut the door behind me
noiselessly I caught sight of a
woman's dress on a chair, of other articles of
apparel scattered
about. The
mahogany bed with a piece of light silk which Therese
found somewhere and used for a counterpane was a magnificent
combination of white and
crimson between the gleaming surfaces of
dark wood; and the whole room had an air of splendour with
marbleconsoles, gilt carvings, long mirrors and a
sumptuous Venetian
lustre depending from the ceiling: a darkling mass of icy pendants
catching a spark here and there from the candles of an eight-
branched candelabra
standing on a little table near the head of a
sofa which had been dragged round to face the
fireplace. The
faintest possible whiff of a familiar
perfume made my head swim
with its suggestion.
I grabbed the back of the nearest piece of furniture and the
splendour of
marbles and mirrors, of cut crystals and carvings,
swung before my eyes in the golden mist of walls and draperies
round an
extremelyconspicuous pair of black stockings thrown over
a music stool which remained
motionless. The silence was profound.
It was like being in an enchanted place. Suddenly a voice began to
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infinitelytouching in its calm weariness.
"Haven't you
tormented me enough to-day?" it said. . . . My head
was steady now but my heart began to beat
violently. I listened to
the end without moving, "Can't you make up your mind to leave me
alone for to-night?" It pleaded with an
accent of charitable
scorn.
The penetrating quality of these tones which I had not heard for so
many, many days made my eyes run full of tears. I guessed easily
that the
appeal was addressed to the atrocious Therese. The
speaker was concealed from me by the high back of the sofa, but her
apprehension was
perfectly justified. For was it not I who had
turned back Therese the pious, the insatiable, coming
downstairs in
her nightgown to
torment her sister some more? Mere surprise at
Dona Rita's presence in the house was enough to
paralyze me; but I
was also
overcome by an
enormous sense of
relief, by the assurance
of
security for her and for myself. I didn't even ask myself how
she came there. It was enough for me that she was not in Tolosa.
I could have smiled at the thought that all I had to do now was to
hasten the
departure of that
abominablelunatic - for Tolosa: an
easy task, almost no task at all. Yes, I would have smiled, had
not I felt outraged by the presence of Senor Ortega under the same
roof with Dona Rita. The mere fact was repugnant to me, morally
revolting; so that I should have liked to rush at him and throw him
out into the street. But that was not to be done for various
reasons. One of them was pity. I was suddenly at peace with all
mankind, with all nature. I felt as if I couldn't hurt a fly. The
intensity of my
emotion sealed my lips. With a
fearful joy tugging
at my heart I moved round the head of the couch without a word.
In the wide
fireplace on a pile of white ashes the logs had a deep
crimson glow; and turned towards them Dona Rita reclined on her
side enveloped in the skins of wild beasts like a
charming and
savage young
chieftain before a camp fire. She never even raised
her eyes, giving me the opportunity to
contemplate mutely that
adolescent,
delicatelymasculine head, so
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the power of
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infinitely suave in its firm
design, almost childlike in the
freshness of detail: altogether
ravishing in the inspired strength of the modelling. That precious
head reposed in the palm of her hand; the face was
slightly flushed
(with anger perhaps). She kept her eyes obstinately fixed on the