On
nameless sorrow's
churchyard pillow.
O hearts that break and give no sign
Save whitening lip and fading tresses,
Till Death pours out his
cordial wine
Slow-dropped from Misery's crushing presses, -
If singing
breath or echoing chord
To every
hidden pang were given,
What endless melodies were poured,
As sad as earth, as sweet as heaven!
I hope that our
landlady's daughter is not so badly off, after all.
That young man from another city who made the remark which you
remember about Boston State-house and Boston folks, has appeared at
our table
repeatedly of late, and has seemed to me rather
attentiveto this young lady. Only last evening I saw him leaning over her
while she was playing the accordion, - indeed, I
undertook to join
them in a song, and got as far as "Come rest in this boo-oo," when,
my voice getting
tremulous, I turned off, as one steps out of a
procession, and left the basso and soprano to finish it. I see no
reason why this young woman should not be a very proper match for a
man that laughs about Boston State-house. He can't be very
particular.
The young fellow whom I have so often mentioned was a little free
in his remarks, but very
good-natured. - Sorry to have you go, - he
said. - School-ma'am made a mistake not to wait for me. Haven't
taken anything but mournin' fruit at breakfast since I heard of it.
- MOURNING fruit, - said I, - what's that? - Huckleberries and
blackberries, - said he; - couldn't eat in colors, raspberries,
currants, and such, after a
solemn thing like this
happening. - The
conceit seemed to please the young fellow. If you will believe it,
when we came down to breakfast the next morning, he had carried it
out as follows. You know those
odious little "saas-plates" that
figure so largely at boarding-houses, and especially at taverns,
into which a
strenuousattendantfemale trowels little dabs, sombre
of tint and heterogeneous of
composition, which it makes you feel
homesick to look at, and into which you poke the
elasticcoppery
tea-spoon with the air of a cat dipping her foot into a wash-tub, -
(not that I mean to say anything against them, for, when they are
of tinted
porcelain or
starry many-faceted
crystal, and hold clean
bright berries, or pale
virgin honey, or "lucent syrups tinct with
cinnamon," and the
teaspoon is of white silver, with the Tower-
stamp, solid, but not brutally heavy, - as people in the green
stage of millionism will have them, - I can dally with their amber
semi-fluids or
glossy spherules without a shiver,) - you know these
small, deep dishes, I say. When we came down the next morning,
each of these (two only excepted) was covered with a broad leaf.
On lifting this, each
boarder found a small heap of
solemn black
huckleberries. But one of those plates held red currants, and was
covered with a red rose; the other held white currants, and was
covered with a white rose. There was a laugh at this at first, and
then a short silence, and I noticed that her lip trembled, and the
old gentleman opposite was in trouble to get at his bandanna
handkerchief
- "What was the use in
waiting? We should be too late for
Switzerland, that season, if we waited much longer." - The hand I
held trembled in mine, and the eyes fell
meekly, as Esther bowed
herself before the feet of Ahasuerus. - She had been
reading that
chapter, for she looked up, - if there was a film of
moisture over
her eyes there was also the faintest shadow of a distant smile
skirting her lips, but not enough to
accent the dimples, - and
said, in her pretty, still way, - "If it please the king, and if I
have found favor in his sight, and the thing seem right before the
king, and I be
pleasing in his eyes" -
I don't remember what King Ahasuerus did or said when Esther got
just to that point of her soft,
humble words, - but I know what I
did. That
quotation from Scripture was cut short, anyhow. We came
to a
compromise on the great question, and the time was settled for
the last day of summer.
In the mean time, I talked on with our
boarders, much as usual, as
you may see by what I have reported. I must say, I was pleased
with a certain
tenderness they all showed toward us, after the
first
excitement of the news was over. It came out in trivial
matters, - but each one, in his or her way, manifested kindness.
Our
landlady, for
instance, when we had chickens, sent the LIVER
instead of the GIZZARD, with the wing, for the schoolmistress.
This was not an accident; the two are never
mistaken, though some
landladies APPEAR as if they did not know the difference. The
whole of the company were even more
respectfullyattentive to my
remarks than usual. There was no idle punning, and very little
winking on the part of that
lively young gentleman who, as the
reader may remember,
occasionally interposed some
playful question
or remark, which could hardly be considered
relevant, - except when
the least
allusion was made to matrimony, when he would look at the
landlady's daughter, and wink with both sides of his face, until
she would ask what he was pokin' his fun at her for, and if he
wasn't
ashamed of himself. In fact, they all behaved very
handsomely, so that I really felt sorry at the thought of leaving
my boarding-house.
I suppose you think, that, because I lived at a plain widow-woman's
plain table, I was of course more or less infirm in point of
worldly fortune. You may not be sorry to learn, that, though not
what GREAT MERCHANTS call very rich, I was comfortable, -
comfortable, - so that most of those
moderate luxuries I described
in my verses on CONTENTMENT - MOST of them, I say - were within our
reach, if we chose to have them. But I found out that the
schoolmistress had a vein of
charity about her, which had hitherto
been worked on a small silver and
copper basis, which made her
think less, perhaps, of luxuries than even I did, -
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modestly as I
have expressed my wishes.
It is a rather pleasant thing to tell a poor young woman, whom one
has contrived to win without showing his rent-roll, that she has
found what the world values so highly, in following the lead of her
affections. That was an
enjoyment I was now ready for.
I began abruptly:- Do you know that you are a rich young person?
I know that I am very rich, - she said. - Heaven has given me more
than I ever asked; for I had not thought love was ever meant for
me.
It was a woman's
confession, and her voice fell to a
whisper as it
threaded the last words.
I don't mean that, - I said, - you
blessed little saint and seraph!
- if there's an angel
missing in the New Jerusalem, inquire for her
at this boarding house! - I don't mean that! I mean that I - that
is, you - am - are -
confound it! - I mean that you'll be what most
people call a lady of fortune. And I looked full in her eyes for
the effect of the announcement.
There wasn't any. She said she was
thankful that I had what would
save me from
drudgery, and that some other time I should tell her
about it. - I never made a greater
failure in an attempt to produce
a sensation.
So the last day of summer came. It was our choice to go to the
church, but we had a kind of
reception at the boarding-house. The
presents were all arranged, and among them none gave more pleasure
than the
modest tributes of our fellow-
boarders, - for there was
not one, I believe, who did not send something. The
landlady would
insist on making an
elegant bride-cake, with her own hands; to
which Master Benjamin Franklin wished to add certain embellishments
out of his private funds, -
namely, a Cupid in a mouse-trap, done
in white sugar, and two
miniature flags with the stars and stripes,
which had a very
pleasing effect, I assure you. The
landlady's
daughter sent a
richly bound copy of Tupper's Poems. On a blank
leaf was the following, written in a very
delicate and careful
hand:-
Presented to . . . by . . .