soldier. He has also the soldier's cross of St.
George. He is well built,
swarthy and black-
haired. To look at him, you might say he was
a man of twenty-five, although he is scarcely
twenty-one. He tosses his head when he speaks,
and keeps
continually twirling his moustache
with his left hand, his right hand being occupied
with the
crutch on which he leans. He speaks
rapidly and affectedly; he is one of those people
who have a high-sounding
phrase ready for every
occasion in life, who remain
untouched by simple
beauty, and who drape themselves majestically
in
extraordinary sentiments, exalted
passions
and
exceptional sufferings. To produce an effect
is their delight; they have an almost insensate
fondness for
romanticprovincial ladies. When
old age approaches they become either peaceful
landed-gentry or drunkards -- sometimes both.
Frequently they have many good qualities, but
they have not a grain of
poetry in their com-
position. Grushnitski's
passion was declamation.
He would
deluge you with words so soon as the
conversation went beyond the
sphere of ordinary
ideas. I have never been able to
dispute with him.
He neither answers your questions nor listens to
you. So soon as you stop, he begins a lengthy
tirade, which has the appearance of being in some
sort connected with what you have been saying,
but which is, in fact, only a
continuation of his
own harangue.
He is witty enough; his epigrams are fre-
quently
amusing, but never
malicious, nor to the
point. He slays nobody with a single word; he
has no knowledge of men and of their foibles,
because all his life he has been interested in
nobody but himself. His aim is to make himself
the hero of a novel. He has so often endeavoured
to
convince others that he is a being created not
for this world and doomed to certain mysterious
sufferings, that he has almost
convinced himself
that such he is in
reality. Hence the pride with
which he wears his thick soldier's cloak. I have
seen through him, and he
dislikes me for that
reason, although to
outward appearance we are
on the friendliest of terms. Grushnitski is looked
upon as a man of
distinguished courage. I
have seen him in action. He waves his sabre,
shouts, and hurls himself forward with his eyes
shut. That is not what I should call Russian
courage! . . .
I reciprocate Grushnitski's
dislike. I feel
that some time or other we shall come into
collision upon a narrow road, and that one of us
will fare badly.
His
arrival in the Caucasus is also the result
of his
romantic fanaticism. I am
convinced
that on the eve of his
departure from his paternal
village he said with an air of gloom to some pretty
neighbour that he was going away, not so much
for the simple purpose of serving in the army as of
seeking death, because . . . and hereupon, I am
sure, he covered his eyes with his hand and
continued thus, "No, you -- or thou -- must not
know! Your pure soul would shudder! And
what would be the good? What am I to
you? Could you understand me?" . . . and
so on.
He has himself told me that the
motive which
induced him to enter the K----
regiment must
remain an
everlasting secret between him and
Heaven.
However, in moments when he casts aside the
tragic
mantle, Grushnitski is
charming and
entertaining enough. I am always interested
to see him with women -- it is then that he puts