commonplace.
"QUEER"
FROM HIS SEAT on a box in the rough board shed that
stuck like a burr on the rear of Cowley & Son's store
in Winesburg, Elmer Cowley, the
junior member of
the firm, could see through a dirty window into the
printshop of the Winesburg Eagle. Elmer was putting
new shoelaces in his shoes. They did not go in
readily and he had to take the shoes off. With the
shoes in his hand he sat looking at a large hole in
the heel of one of his stockings. Then looking
quickly up he saw George Willard, the only newspa-
per
reporter in Winesburg,
standing at the back door
of the Eagle printshop and staring absentmindedly
about. "Well, well, what next!" exclaimed the young
man with the shoes in his hand, jumping to his feet
and creeping away from the window.
A flush crept into Elmer Cowley's face and his
hands began to tremble. In Cowley & Son's store a
Jewish traveling
salesman stood by the
counter talk-
ing to his father. He imagined the
reporter could
hear what was being said and the thought made him
furious. With one of the shoes still held in his hand
he stood in a corner of the shed and stamped with
a stockinged foot upon the board floor.
Cowley & Son's store did not face the main street
of Winesburg. The front was on Maumee Street and
beyond it was Voight's wagon shop and a shed for
the sheltering of farmers' horses. Beside the store an
alleyway ran behind the main street stores and all
day drays and
delivery wagons,
intent on bringing
in and
taking out goods, passed up and down. The
store itself was
indescribable. Will Henderson once
said of it that it sold everything and nothing. In the
window facing Maumee Street stood a chunk of coal
as large as an apple
barrel, to indicate that orders
for coal were taken, and beside the black mass of
the coal stood three combs of honey grown brown
and dirty in their
wooden frames.
The honey had stood in the store window for six
months. It was for sale as were also the coat hang-
ers,
patent suspender buttons, cans of roof paint,
bottles of
rheumatism cure, and a
substitute for cof-
fee that companioned the honey in its patient will-
ingness to serve the public.
Ebenezer Cowley, the man who stood in the store
listening to the eager
patter of words that fell from
the lips of the traveling man, was tall and lean and
looked unwashed. On his scrawny neck was a large
wen
partially covered by a grey beard. He wore a
long Prince Albert coat. The coat had been pur-
chased to serve as a
weddinggarment. Before he
became a merchant Ebenezer was a farmer and after
his marriage he wore the Prince Albert coat to
church on Sundays and on Saturday afternoons
when he came into town to trade. When he sold
the farm to become a merchant he wore the coat
constantly. It had become brown with age and was
covered with
grease spots, but in it Ebenezer always
felt dressed up and ready for the day in town.
As a merchant Ebenezer was not happily placed
in life and he had not been happily placed as a
farmer. Still he existed. His family, consisting of a
daughter named Mabel and the son, lived with him
in rooms above the store and it did not cost them
much to live. His troubles were not
financial. His
unhappiness as a merchant lay in the fact that when
a traveling man with wares to be sold came in at
the front door he was afraid. Behind the
counterhe stood shaking his head. He was afraid, first that
he would
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stubbornly refuse to buy and thus lose the
opportunity to sell again; second that he would not
be
stubborn enough and would in a moment of
weakness buy what could not be sold.
In the store on the morning when Elmer Cowley
saw George Willard
standing and
apparently lis-
tening at the back door of the Eagle printshop, a
situation had
arisen that always stirred the son's
wrath. The traveling man talked and Ebenezer lis-
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uncertainty. "You
see how quickly it is done," said the traveling man,
who had for sale a small flat metal
substitute for
collar buttons. With one hand he quickly unfastened
a
collar from his shirt and then fastened it on again.
He assumed a
flattering wheedling tone. "I tell you
what, men have come to the end of all this fooling
with
collar buttons and you are the man to make
money out of the change that is coming. I am offer-
ing you the
exclusiveagency for this town. Take
twenty dozen of these fasteners and I'll not visit any
other store. I'll leave the field to you."
The traveling man leaned over the
counter and
tapped with his finger on Ebenezer's breast. "It's an
opportunity and I want you to take it," he urged.
"A friend of mine told me about you. 'See that man
Cowley,' he said. 'He's a live one.'"
The traveling man paused and waited. Taking a
book from his pocket he began
writing out the
order. Still
holding the shoe in his hand Elmer Cow-
ley went through the store, past the two absorbed
men, to a glass showcase near the front door. He
took a cheap
revolver from the case and began to
wave it about. "You get out of here!" he shrieked.
"We don't want any
collar fasteners here." An idea
came to him. "Mind, I'm not making any threat,"
he added. "I don't say I'll shoot. Maybe I just took
this gun out of the case to look at it. But you better
get out. Yes sir, I'll say that. You better grab up
your things and get out."
The young storekeeper's voice rose to a scream
and going behind the
counter he began to advance
upon the two men. "We're through being fools
here!" he cried. "We ain't going to buy any more
stuff until we begin to sell. We ain't going to keep
on being queer and have folks staring and listening.
You get out of here!"
The traveling man left. Raking the samples of col-
lar fasteners off the
counter into a black leather bag,
he ran. He was a small man and very bow-legged
and he ran
awkwardly. The black bag caught against
the door and he stumbled and fell. "Crazy, that's
what he is--crazy!" he sputtered as he arose from
the
sidewalk and
hurried away.
In the store Elmer Cowley and his father stared at
each other. Now that the immediate object of his
wrath had fled, the younger man was embarrassed.
"Well, I meant it. I think we've been queer long
enough," he declared, going to the showcase and
replacing the
revolver. Sitting on a
barrel he pulled
on and fastened the shoe he had been
holding in
his hand. He was
waiting for some word of under-
standing from his father but when Ebenezer spoke
his words only served to reawaken the wrath in the
son and the young man ran out of the store without
replying. Scratching his grey beard with his long
dirty fingers, the merchant looked at his son with
the same wavering
uncertain stare with which he
had confronted the traveling man. "I'll be starched,"
he said
softly. "Well, well, I'll be washed and ironed
and starched!"
Elmer Cowley went out of Winesburg and along
a country road that paralleled the railroad track. He
did not know where he was going or what he was
going to do. In the shelter of a deep cut where the
road, after turning
sharply to the right, dipped
under the tracks he stopped and the
passion that
had been the cause of his
outburst in the store began
to again find expression. "I will not be queer--one
to be looked at and listened to," he declared aloud.
"I'll be like other people. I'll show that George Wil-
lard. He'll find out. I'll show him!"
The distraught young man stood in the middle of
the road and glared back at the town. He did not
know the
reporter George Willard and had no spe-
cial feeling
concerning the tall boy who ran about
town
gathering the town news. The
reporter had
merely come, by his presence in the office and in
the printshop of the Winesburg Eagle, to stand for
something in the young merchant's mind. He thought
the boy who passed and repassed Cowley & Son's
store and who stopped to talk to people in the street
must be thinking of him and perhaps laughing at
him. George Willard, he felt, belonged to the town,
typified the town, represented in his person the
spirit of the town. Elmer Cowley could not have
believed that George Willard had also his days of
unhappiness, that vague hungers and secret unnam-
able desires visited also his mind. Did he not repre-
sent public opinion and had not the public opinion
of Winesburg condemned the Cowleys to queerness?
Did he not walk whistling and laughing through
Main Street? Might not one by
striking his person
strike also the greater enemy--the thing that
smiled and went its own way--the judgment of
Winesburg?
Elmer Cowley was
extraordinarily tall and his
arms were long and powerful. His hair, his eye-
brows, and the downy beard that had begun to
grow upon his chin, were pale almost to whiteness.
His teeth protruded from between his lips and his
eyes were blue with the colorless blueness of the
marbles called "aggies" that the boys of Winesburg
carried in their pockets. Elmer had lived in Wines-
burg for a year and had made no friends. He was,
he felt, one condemned to go through life without
friends and he hated the thought.
Sullenly the tall young man tramped along the
road with his hands stuffed into his trouser pockets.
The day was cold with a raw wind, but presently
the sun began to shine and the road became soft
and muddy. The tops of the ridges of
frozen mud
that formed the road began to melt and the mud
clung to Elmer's shoes. His feet became cold. When
he had gone several miles he turned off the road,
crossed a field and entered a wood. In the wood he
gathered sticks to build a fire, by which he sat trying
to warm himself,
miserable in body and in mind.
For two hours he sat on the log by the fire and
then, arising and creeping
cautiously through a
mass of
underbrush, he went to a fence and looked
across fields to a small
farmhouse surrounded by