Seth stumbled forward through the half-darkness,
feeling himself an outcast in his own town. He
began to pity himself, but a sense of the absurdity
of his thoughts made him smile. In the end he de-
cided that he was simply old beyond his years and
not at all a subject for self-pity. "I'm made to go to
work. I may be able to make a place for myself by
steady
working, and I might as well be at it," he
decided.
Seth went to the house of Banker White and stood
in the darkness by the front door. On the door hung
a heavy brass knocker, an
innovation introduced
into the village by Helen White's mother, who had
also organized a women's club for the study of po-
etry. Seth raised the knocker and let it fall. Its heavy
clatter sounded like a report from distant guns.
"How
awkward and foolish I am," he thought. "If
Mrs. White comes to the door, I won't know what
to say."
It was Helen White who came to the door and
found Seth
standing at the edge of the porch. Blush-
ing with pleasure, she stepped forward, closing the
door
softly. "I'm going to get out of town. I don't
know what I'll do, but I'm going to get out of here
and go to work. I think I'll go to Columbus," he
said. "Perhaps I'll get into the State University down
there. Anyway, I'm going. I'll tell mother tonight."
He hesitated and looked
doubtfully about. "Perhaps
you wouldn't mind coming to walk with me?"
Seth and Helen walked through the streets be-
neath the trees. Heavy clouds had drifted across the
face of the moon, and before them in the deep twi-
light went a man with a short
ladder upon his shoul-
der. Hurrying forward, the man stopped at the
street crossing and, putting the
ladder against the
wooden lamp-post, lighted the village lights so that
their way was half lighted, half darkened, by the
lamps and by the deepening shadows cast by the
low-branched trees. In the tops of the trees the wind
began to play, disturbing the
sleeping birds so that
they flew about
calling plaintively. In the lighted
space before one of the lamps, two bats wheeled
and circled, pursuing the
gathering swarm of night
flies.
Since Seth had been a boy in knee
trousers there
had been a half expressed
intimacy between him
and the
maiden who now for the first time walked
beside him. For a time she had been beset with a
madness for
writing notes which she addressed to
Seth. He had found them concealed in his books at
school and one had been given him by a child met
in the street, while several had been delivered
through the village post office.
The notes had been written in a round,
boyishhand and had reflected a mind inflamed by novel
reading. Seth had not answered them, although he
had been moved and flattered by some of the sen-
tences scrawled in pencil upon the stationery of the
banker's wife. Putting them into the pocket of his
coat, he went through the street or stood by the
fence in the school yard with something burning at
his side. He thought it fine that he should be thus
selected as the favorite of the richest and most at-
tractive girl in town.
Helen and Seth stopped by a fence near where a
low dark building faced the street. The building had
once been a factory for the making of
barrel staves
but was now
vacant. Across the street upon the
porch of a house a man and woman talked of their
childhood, their voices coming
dearly across to the
half-embarrassed youth and
maiden. There was the
sound of scraping chairs and the man and woman
came down the
gravel path to a
wooden gate. Stand-
ing outside the gate, the man leaned over and kissed
the woman. "For old times' sake," he said and,
turning, walked rapidly away along the sidewalk.
"That's Belle Turner," whispered Helen, and put
her hand
boldly into Seth's hand. "I didn't know
she had a fellow. I thought she was too old for
that." Seth laughed
uneasily. The hand of the girl
was warm and a strange, dizzy feeling crept over
him. Into his mind came a desire to tell her some-
thing he had been determined not to tell. "George
Willard's in love with you," he said, and in spite of
his
agitation his voice was low and quiet. "He's writ-
ing a story, and he wants to be in love. He wants
to know how it feels. He wanted me to tell you and
see what you said."
Again Helen and Seth walked in silence. They
came to the garden
surrounding the old Richmond
place and going through a gap in the hedge sat on
a
wooden bench beneath a bush.
On the street as he walked beside the girl new
and
daring thoughts had come into Seth Richmond's
mind. He began to regret his decision to get out of
town. "It would be something new and altogether
delightful to remain and walk often through the
streets with Helen White," he thought. In imagina-
tion he saw himself putting his arm about her waist
and feeling her arms clasped
tightly about his neck.
One of those odd combinations of events and places
made him connect the idea of love-making with this
girl and a spot he had visited some days before. He
had gone on an
errand to the house of a farmer who
lived on a
hillside beyond the Fair Ground and had
returned by a path through a field. At the foot of
the hill below the farmer's house Seth had stopped
beneath a
sycamore tree and looked about him. A
soft humming noise had greeted his ears. For a mo-
ment he had thought the tree must be the home of
a swarm of bees.
And then, looking down, Seth had seen the bees
everywhere all about him in the long grass. He
stood in a mass of weeds that grew waist-high in
the field that ran away from the
hillside. The weeds
were abloom with tiny
purple blossoms and gave
forth an overpowering
fragrance. Upon the weeds
the bees were gathered in armies, singing as they
worked.
Seth imagined himself lying on a summer eve-
ning, buried deep among the weeds beneath the
tree. Beside him, in the scene built in his fancy, lay
Helen White, her hand lying in his hand. A peculiar
reluctance kept him from kissing her lips, but he felt
he might have done that if he wished. Instead, he
lay
perfectly still, looking at her and listening to the
army of bees that sang the sustained masterful song
of labor above his head.
On the bench in the garden Seth stirred
uneasily.
Releasing the hand of the girl, he
thrust his hands
into his trouser pockets. A desire to
impress the
mind of his
companion with the importance of the
resolution he had made came over him and he nod-
ded his head toward the house. "Mother'll make a
fuss, I suppose," he whispered. "She hasn't thought
at all about what I'm going to do in life. She thinks
I'm going to stay on here forever just being a boy."
Seth's voice became charged with
boyish earnest-
ness. "You see, I've got to strike out. I've got to get
to work. It's what I'm good for."
Helen White was
impressed. She nodded her
head and a feeling of
admiration swept over her.
"This is as it should be," she thought. "This boy is
not a boy at all, but a strong, purposeful man." Cer-
tain vague desires that had been invading her body
were swept away and she sat up very straight on
the bench. The
thunder continued to
rumble and
flashes of heat
lightning lit up the eastern sky. The
garden that had been so
mysterious and vast, a
place that with Seth beside her might have become
the
background for strange and wonderful adven-
tures, now seemed no more than an ordinary Wines-
burg back yard, quite
definite and
limited in its
outlines.
"What will you do up there?" she whispered.
Seth turned half around on the bench, striving to
see her face in the darkness. He thought her infi-
nitely more
sensible and straightforward than George
Willard, and was glad he had come away from his
friend. A feeling of
impatience with the town that
had been in his mind returned, and he tried to tell
her of it. "Everyone talks and talks," he began. "I'm
sick of it. I'll do something, get into some kind of
work where talk don't count. Maybe I'll just be a
mechanic in a shop. I don't know. I guess I don't
care much. I just want to work and keep quiet.
That's all I've got in my mind."
Seth arose from the bench and put out his hand.
He did not want to bring the meeting to an end but
could not think of anything more to say. "It's the
last time we'll see each other," he whispered.
A wave of
sentiment swept over Helen. Putting
her hand upon Seth's shoulder, she started to draw
his face down toward her own upturned face. The
act was one of pure
affection and cutting regret that
some vague adventure that had been present in the
spirit of the night would now never be realized. "I
think I'd better be going along," she said, letting her
hand fall heavily to her side. A thought came to her.
"Don't you go with me; I want to be alone," she
said. "You go and talk with your mother. You'd
better do that now."
Seth hesitated and, as he stood
waiting, the girl
turned and ran away through the hedge. A desire
to run after her came to him, but he only stood
staring, perplexed and puzzled by her action as he
had been perplexed and puzzled by all of the life of
the town out of which she had come. Walking
slowly toward the house, he stopped in the shadow
of a large tree and looked at his mother sitting by a
lighted window
busilysewing. The feeling of loneli-
ness that had visited him earlier in the evening re-
turned and colored his thoughts of the adventure
through which he had just passed. "Huh!" he ex-
claimed, turning and staring in the direction taken
by Helen White. "That's how things'll turn out.
She'll be like the rest. I suppose she'll begin now to
look at me in a funny way." He looked at the
ground and pondered this thought. "She'll be em-
barrassed and feel strange when I'm around," he
whispered to himself. "That's how it'll be. That's