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his neck and tried to sleep. When he became drowsy
and closed his eyes, he raised a hand and with it

groped about in the darkness. "I have missed some-
thing. I have missed something Kate Swift was try-

ing to tell me," he muttered sleepily. Then he slept
and in all Winesburg he was the last soul on that

winter night to go to sleep.
LONELINESS

HE WAS THE son of Mrs. Al Robinson who once
owned a farm on a side road leading off Trunion

Pike, east of Winesburg and two miles beyond the
town limits. The farmhouse was painted brown and

the blinds to all of the windows facing the road were
kept closed. In the road before the house a flock of

chickens, accompanied by two guinea hens, lay in
the deep dust. Enoch lived in the house with his

mother in those days and when he was a young boy
went to school at the Winesburg High School. Old

citizens remembered him as a quiet, smiling youth
inclined to silence. He walked in the middle of the

road when he came into town and sometimes read
a book. Drivers of teams had to shout and swear to

make him realize where he was so that he would
turn out of the beaten track and let them pass.

When he was twenty-one years old Enoch went
to New York City and was a city man for fifteen

years. He studied French and went to an art school,
hoping to develop a faculty he had for drawing. In

his own mind he planned to go to Paris and to finish
his art education among the masters there, but that

never turned out.
Nothing ever turned out for Enoch Robinson. He

could draw well enough and he had many odd deli-
cate thoughts hidden away in his brain that might

have expressed themselves through the brush of a
painter, but he was always a child and that was a

handicap to his worldly development. He never
grew up and of course he couldn't understand peo-

ple and he couldn't make people understand him.
The child in him kept bumping against things,

against actualities like money and sex and opinions.
Once he was hit by a street car and thrown against

an iron post. That made him lame. It was one of the
many things that kept things from turning out for

Enoch Robinson
In New York City, when he first went there to live

and before he became confused and disconcerted by
the facts of life, Enoch went about a good deal with

young men. He got into a group of other young
artists, both men and women, and in the evenings

they sometimes came to visit him in his room. Once
he got drunk and was taken to a police station

where a police magistrate frightened him horribly,
and once he tried to have an affair with a woman

of the town met on the sidewalk before his lodging
house. The woman and Enoch walked together

three blocks and then the young man grew afraid
and ran away. The woman had been drinking and

the incident amused her. She leaned against the wall
of a building and laughed so heartily that another

man stopped and laughed with her. The two went
away together, still laughing, and Enoch crept off to

his room trembling and vexed.
The room in which young Robinson lived in New

York faced Washington Square and was long and
narrow like a hallway. It is important to get that

fixed in your mind. The story of Enoch is in fact the
story of a room almost more than it is the story of

a man.
And so into the room in the evening came young

Enoch's friends. There was nothing particularly
striking about them except that they were artists of

the kind that talk. Everyone knows of the talking
artists. Throughout all of the known history of the

world they have gathered in rooms and talked. They
talk of art and are passionately, almost feverishly,

in earnest about it. They think it matters much more
than it does.

And so these people gathered and smoked ciga-
rettes and talked and Enoch Robinson, the boy from

the farm near Winesburg, was there. He stayed in
a corner and for the most part said nothing. How

his big blue childlike eyes stared about! On the walls
were pictures he had made, crude things, half fin-

ished. His friends talked of these. Leaning back in
their chairs, they talked and talked with their heads

rocking from side to side. Words were said about
line and values and composition, lots of words, such

as are always being said.
Enoch wanted to talk too but he didn't know how.

He was too excited to talk coherently. When he tried
he sputtered and stammered and his voice sounded

strange and squeaky to him. That made him stop
talking. He knew what he wanted to say, but he

knew also that he could never by any possibility
say it. When a picture he had painted was under

discussion, he wanted to burst out with something
like this: "You don't get the point," he wanted to

explain; "the picture you see doesn't consist of the
things you see and say words about. There is some-

thing else, something you don't see at all, something
you aren't intended to see. Look at this one over

here, by the door here, where the light from the
window falls on it. The dark spot by the road that

you might not notice at all is, you see, the beginning
of everything. There is a clump of elders there such

as used to grow beside the road before our house
back in Winesburg, Ohio, and in among the elders

there is something hidden. It is a woman, that's
what it is. She has been thrown from a horse and

the horse has run away out of sight. Do you not see
how the old man who drives a cart looks anxiously

about? That is Thad Grayback who has a farm up
the road. He is taking corn to Winesburg to be

ground into meal at Comstock's mill. He knows
there is something in the elders, something hidden

away, and yet he doesn't quite know.
"It's a woman you see, that's what it is! It's a

woman and, oh, she is lovely! She is hurt and is
suffering but she makes no sound. Don't you see

how it is? She lies quite still, white and still, and
the beauty comes out from her and spreads over

everything. It is in the sky back there and all around
everywhere. I didn't try to paint the woman, of

course. She is too beautiful to be painted. How dull
to talk of composition and such things! Why do you

not look at the sky and then run away as I used
to do when I was a boy back there in Winesburg,

Ohio?"
That is the kind of thing young Enoch Robinson

trembled to say to the guests who came into his
room when he was a young fellow in New York

City, but he always ended by saying nothing. Then
he began to doubt his own mind. He was afraid

the things he felt were not getting expressed in the
pictures he painted. In a half indignant mood he

stopped inviting people into his room and presently
got into the habit of locking the door. He began to

think that enough people had visited him, that he
did not need people any more. With quick imagina-

tion he began to invent his own people to whom he
could really talk and to whom he explained the

things he had been unable to explain to living peo-
ple. His room began to be inhabited by the spirits

of men and women among whom he went, in his
turn saying words. It was as though everyone Enoch

Robinson had ever seen had left with him some es-
sence of himself, something he could mould and

change to suit his own fancy, something that under-
stood all about such things as the wounded woman

behind the elders in the pictures.
The mild, blue-eyed young Ohio boy was a com-

plete egotist, as all children are egotists. He did not
want friends for the quite simple reason that no

child wants friends. He wanted most of all the peo-
ple of his own mind, people with whom he could

really talk, people he could harangue and scold by
the hour, servants, you see, to his fancy. Among

these people he was always self-confident and bold.
They might talk, to be sure, and even have opinions

of their own, but always he talked last and best. He
was like a writer busy among the figures of his

brain, a kind of tiny blue-eyed king he was, in a six-
dollar room facing Washington Square in the city of

New York.
Then Enoch Robinson got married. He began to

get lonely and to want to touch actual flesh-and-
bone people with his hands. Days passed when his

room seemed empty. Lust visited his body and de-
sire grew in his mind. At night strange fevers, burn-

ing within, kept him awake. He married a girl who
sat in a chair next to his own in the art school and

went to live in an apartment house in Brooklyn. Two
children were born to the woman he married, and

Enoch got a job in a place where illustrations are
made for advertisements.

That began another phase of Enoch's life. He
began to play at a new game. For a while he was

very proud of himself in the role of producing citi-
zen of the world. He dismissed the essence of things

and played with realities. In the fall he voted at an
election and he had a newspaper thrown on his

porch each morning. When in the evening he came
home from work he got off a streetcar and walked

sedately along behind some business man, striving
to look very substantial and important. As a payer

of taxes he thought he should post himself on how
things are run. "I'm getting to be of some moment,

a real part of things, of the state and the city and
all that," he told himself with an amusing miniature

air of dignity. Once, coming home from Philadel-
phia, he had a discussion with a man met on a train.

Enoch talked about the advisability of the govern-
ment's owning and operating the railroads and the

man gave him a cigar. It was Enoch's notion that
such a move on the part of the government would

be a good thing, and he grew quite excited as he
talked. Later he remembered his own words with

pleasure. "I gave him something to think about, that
fellow," he muttered to himself as he climbed the

stairs to his Brooklyn apartment.


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