of
performance; and, after long thought and much perplexity,
to be very brief was all that she could determine on with any
confidence of safety. The money
therefore which Eleanor had
advanced was enclosed with little more than
grateful thanks,
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affectionate heart.
"This has been a strange
acquaintance,"
observed Mrs. Morland, as the letter was finished;
"soon made and soon ended. I am sorry it happens so,
for Mrs. Allen thought them very pretty kind of young people;
and you were sadly out of luck too in your Isabella.
Ah! Poor James! Well, we must live and learn; and the next
new friends you make I hope will be better worth keeping."
Catherine coloured as she warmly answered, "No friend
can be better worth keeping than Eleanor."
"If so, my dear, I dare say you will meet again some
time or other; do not be
uneasy. It is ten to one but you
are thrown together again in the course of a few years;
and then what a pleasure it will be!"
Mrs. Morland was not happy in her attempt at consolation.
The hope of meeting again in the course of a few years
could only put into Catherine's head what might happen
within that time to make a meeting
dreadful to her.
She could never forget Henry Tilney, or think of him with
less
tenderness than she did at that moment; but he might
forget her; and in that case, to meet--! Her eyes filled
with tears as she pictured her
acquaintance so renewed;
and her mother, perceiving her comfortable suggestions
to have had no good effect, proposed, as another expedient
for restoring her spirits, that they should call on
Mrs. Allen.
The two houses were only a quarter of a mile apart;
and, as they walked, Mrs. Morland quickly dispatched all
that she felt on the score of James's disappointment.
"We are sorry for him," said she; "but
otherwise there
is no harm done in the match going off; for it could not
be a
desirable thing to have him engaged to a girl whom
we had not the smallest
acquaintance with, and who was so
entirely without fortune; and now, after such behaviour,
we cannot think at all well of her. Just at present it
comes hard to poor James; but that will not last forever;
and I dare say he will be a discreeter man all his life,
for the
foolishness of his first choice."
This was just such a
summary view of the affair
as Catherine could listen to; another
sentence might have
endangered her complaisance, and made her reply less rational;
for soon were all her thinking powers swallowed up in
the
reflection of her own change of feelings and spirits
since last she had trodden that
well-known road. It was
not three months ago since, wild with
joyful expectation,
she had there run
backwards and forwards some ten times
a day, with an heart light, gay, and independent;
looking forward to pleasures untasted and unalloyed,
and free from the
apprehension of evil as from the knowledge
of it. Three months ago had seen her all this; and now,
how altered a being did she return!
She was received by the Allens with all the kindness
which her unlooked-for appearance,
acting on a steady
affection,
would naturally call forth; and great was their surprise,
and warm their
displeasure, on
hearing how she had been
treated--though Mrs. Morland's
account of it was no
inflated
representation, no
studiedappeal to their passions.
"Catherine took us quite by surprise
yesterday evening,"
said she. "She travelled all the way post by herself, and knew
nothing of coming till Saturday night; for General Tilney,
from some odd fancy or other, all of a sudden grew tired
of having her there, and almost turned her out of the house.
Very unfriendly, certainly; and he must be a very odd man;
but we are so glad to have her
amongst us again! And
it is a great comfort to find that she is not a poor
helpless creature, but can shift very well for herself."
Mr. Allen expressed himself on the occasion with the
reasonable
resentment of a
sensible friend; and Mrs. Allen
thought his expressions quite good enough to be immediately
made use of again by herself. His wonder, his conjectures,
and his explanations became in
succession hers, with the
addition of this single remark--"I really have not
patiencewith the general"--to fill up every
accidental pause.
And, "I really have not
patience with the general,"
was uttered twice after Mr. Allen left the room,
without any relaxation of anger, or any material digression
of thought. A more
considerable degree of wandering
attended the third
repetition; and, after completing
the fourth, she immediately added, "Only think, my dear,
of my having got that
frightful great rent in my best
Mechlin so charmingly mended, before I left Bath, that one
can hardly see where it was. I must show it you some day
or other. Bath is a nice place, Catherine, after all.
I assure you I did not above half like coming away.
Mrs. Thorpe's being there was such a comfort to us,
was not it? You know, you and I were quite
forlorn at first."
"Yes, but that did not last long," said Catherine,
her eyes brightening at the
recollection of what had first
given spirit to her
existence there.
"Very true: we soon met with Mrs. Thorpe, and then we
wanted for nothing. My dear, do not you think these silk
gloves wear very well? I put them on new the first time
of our going to the Lower Rooms, you know, and I have worn
them a great deal since. Do you remember that evening?"
"Do I! Oh! Perfectly."
"It was very
agreeable, was not it? Mr. Tilney drank
tea with us, and I always thought him a great addition,
he is so very
agreeable. I have a notion you danced with him,
but am not quite sure. I remember I had my favourite
gown on."
Catherine could not answer; and, after a short trial
of other subjects, Mrs. Allen again returned to--"I really
have not
patience with the general! Such an
agreeable,
worthy man as he seemed to be! I do not suppose,
Mrs. Morland, you ever saw a better-bred man in your life.
His lodgings were taken the very day after he left
them, Catherine. But no wonder; Milsom Street, you know."
As they walked home again, Mrs. Morland
endeavoured
to
impress on her daughter's mind the happiness of
having such steady well-wishers as Mr. and Mrs. Allen,
and the very little
consideration which the neglect
or unkindness of slight
acquaintance like the Tilneys
ought to have with her, while she could
preserve the
good opinion and
affection of her earliest friends.
There was a great deal of good sense in all this;
but there are some situations of the human mind in which
good sense has very little power; and Catherine's feelings
contradicted almost every position her mother advanced.
It was upon the behaviour of these very slight
acquaintancethat all her present happiness depended; and while
Mrs. Morland was
successfully confirming her own opinions
by the justness of her own
representations, Catherine was
silently reflecting that now Henry must have arrived