But he was now so pulled about by different alarms that, while one
portion of his mind was still alert and
cunning, another trembled
on the brink of lunacy. One hallucination in particular took a
strong hold on his
credulity. The neighbour hearkening with white
face beside his window, the passer-by arrested by a horrible
surmise on the
pavement - these could at worst
suspect, they could
not know; through the brick walls and shuttered windows only sounds
could
penetrate. But here, within the house, was he alone? He
knew he was; he had watched the servant set forth sweet-hearting,
in her poor best, 'out for the day' written in every
ribbon and
smile. Yes, he was alone, of course; and yet, in the bulk of empty
house above him, he could surely hear a stir of
delicatefooting -
he was surely
conscious, inexplicably
conscious of some presence.
Ay, surely; to every room and corner of the house his imagination
followed it; and now it was a faceless thing, and yet had eyes to
see with; and again it was a shadow of himself; and yet again
behold the image of the dead
dealer, reinspired with
cunning and
hatred.
At times, with a strong effort, he would glance at the open door
which still seemed to repel his eyes. The house was tall, the
skylight small and dirty, the day blind with fog; and the light
that filtered down to the ground story was
exceedingly faint, and
showed dimly on the
threshold of the shop. And yet, in that strip
of
doubtfulbrightness, did there not hang wavering a shadow?
Suddenly, from the street outside, a very jovial gentleman began to
beat with a staff on the shop-door, accompanying his blows with
shouts and railleries in which the
dealer was
continually called
upon by name. Markheim,
smitten into ice, glanced at the dead man.
But no! he lay quite still; he was fled away far beyond earshot of
these blows and shoutings; he was sunk beneath seas of silence; and
his name, which would once have caught his notice above the howling
of a storm, had become an empty sound. And
presently the jovial
gentleman desisted from his knocking, and
departed.
Here was a broad hint to hurry what remained to be done, to get
forth from this accusing neighbourhood, to
plunge into a bath of
London multitudes, and to reach, on the other side of day, that
haven of safety and
apparentinnocence - his bed. One
visitor had
come: at any moment another might follow and be more
obstinate. To
have done the deed, and yet not to reap the profit, would be too
abhorrent a
failure. The money, that was now Markheim's concern;
and as a means to that, the keys.
He glanced over his shoulder at the open door, where the shadow was
still lingering and shivering; and with no
conscious repugnance of
the mind, yet with a tremor of the belly, he drew near the body of
his
victim. The human
character had quite
departed. Like a suit
half-stuffed with bran, the limbs lay scattered, the trunk doubled,
on the floor; and yet the thing repelled him. Although so dingy
and inconsiderable to the eye, he feared it might have more
significance to the touch. He took the body by the shoulders, and
turned it on its back. It was
strangely light and supple, and the
limbs, as if they had been broken, fell into the oddest postures.
The face was robbed of all expression; but it was as pale as wax,
and shockingly smeared with blood about one
temple. That was, for
Markheim, the one displeasing circumstance. It carried him back,
upon the
instant, to a certain fair-day in a fishers' village: a
gray day, a piping wind, a crowd upon the street, the blare of
brasses, the booming of drums, the nasal voice of a
ballad singer;
and a boy going to and fro, buried over head in the crowd and
divided between interest and fear, until, coming out upon the chief
place of concourse, he
beheld a booth and a great
screen with
pictures, dismally designed, garishly coloured: Brown-rigg with her
apprentice; the Mannings with their murdered guest; Weare in the
death-grip of Thurtell; and a score besides of famous crimes. The
thing was as clear as an
illusion; he was once again that little
boy; he was looking once again, and with the same sense of physical
revolt, at these vile pictures; he was still stunned by the
thumping of the drums. A bar of that day's music returned upon his
memory; and at that, for the first time, a qualm came over him, a
breath of nausea, a sudden
weakness of the joints, which he must
instantly
resist and conquer.
He judged it more
prudent to
confront than to flee from these
considerations; looking the more hardily in the dead face, bending
his mind to realise the nature and
greatness of his crime. So
little a while ago that face had moved with every change of
sentiment, that pale mouth had
spoken, that body had been all on
fire with governable energies; and now, and by his act, that piece
of life had been arrested, as the horologist, with interjected
finger, arrests the
beating of the clock. So he reasoned in vain;
he could rise to no more remorseful
consciousness; the same heart
which had shuddered before the painted effigies of crime, looked on
its
realityunmoved. At best, he felt a gleam of pity for one who
had been endowed in vain with all those faculties that can make the
world a garden of
enchantment, one who had never lived and who was
now dead. But of penitence, no, not a tremor.
With that, shaking himself clear of these considerations, he found
the keys and
advanced towards the open door of the shop. Outside,
it had begun to rain smartly; and the sound of the
shower upon the
roof had banished silence. Like some dripping
cavern, the chambers
of the house were
haunted by an
incessant echoing, which filled the
ear and
mingled with the ticking of the clocks. And, as Markheim
approached the door, he seemed to hear, in answer to his own
cautious tread, the steps of another foot withdrawing up the stair.
The shadow still palpitated
loosely on the
threshold. He threw a
ton's weight of
resolve upon his muscles, and drew back the door.
The faint, foggy
daylight glimmered dimly on the bare floor and
stairs; on the bright suit of
armour posted, halbert in hand, upon
the
landing; and on the dark wood-carvings, and framed pictures
that hung against the yellow panels of the wainscot. So loud was
the
beating of the rain through all the house that, in Markheim's
ears, it began to be
distinguished into many different sounds.
Footsteps and sighs, the tread of regiments marching in the
distance, the chink of money in the counting, and the creaking of
doors held
stealthily ajar, appeared to
mingle with the
patter of
the drops upon the cupola and the gushing of the water in the
pipes. The sense that he was not alone grew upon him to the verge
of
madness. On every side he was
haunted and begirt by presences.
He heard them moving in the upper chambers; from the shop, he heard
the dead man getting to his legs; and as he began with a great
effort to mount the stairs, feet fled quietly before him and
followed
stealthily behind. If he were but deaf, he thought, how
tranquilly he would possess his soul! And then again, and
hearkening with ever fresh attention, he
blessed himself for that
unresting sense which held the outposts and stood a
trusty sentinel
upon his life. His head turned
continually on his neck; his eyes,
which seemed starting from their orbits, scouted on every side, and
on every side were half-rewarded as with the tail of something
nameless vanishing. The four-and-twenty steps to the first floor
were four-and-twenty agonies.
On that first storey, the doors stood ajar, three of them like
three ambushes, shaking his nerves like the throats of
cannon. He
could never again, he felt, be
sufficiently immured and fortified
from men's observing eyes, he longed to be home, girt in by walls,
buried among bedclothes, and
invisible to all but God. And at that
thought he wondered a little, recollecting tales of other murderers
and the fear they were said to
entertain of
heavenly avengers. It
was not so, at least, with him. He feared the laws of nature,
lest, in their callous and immutable
procedure, they should
preserve some damning evidence of his crime. He feared tenfold
more, with a slavish, superstitions
terror, some scission in the
continuity of man's experience, some wilful illegality of nature.
He played a game of skill, depending on the rules, calculating
consequence from cause; and what if nature, as the defeated tyrant
overthrew the chess-board, should break the mould of their
succession? The like had
befallen Napoleon (so writers said) when
the winter changed the time of its appearance. The like might
befall Markheim: the solid walls might become
transparent and
reveal his
doings like those of bees in a glass hive; the stout