matter home and, if necessary, interfere.
The next day came, the wind had blown itself out, and there was
nothing to
remind me of the business of the night. Felipe came to
my
bedside with
obviouscheerfulness; as I passed through the
court, the Senora was sunning herself with her accustomed
immobility; and when I issued from the
gateway, I found the whole
face of nature
austerely smiling, the heavens of a cold blue, and
sown with great cloud islands, and the mountain-sides mapped forth
into provinces of light and shadow. A short walk restored me to
myself, and renewed within me the
resolve to plumb this mystery;
and when, from the
vantage of my knoll, I had seen Felipe pass
forth to his labours in the garden, I returned at once to the
residencia to put my design in practice. The Senora appeared
plunged in
slumber; I stood
awhile and marked her, but she did not
stir; even if my design were indiscreet, I had little to fear from
such a
guardian; and turning away, I mounted to the
gallery and
began my
exploration of the house.
All morning I went from one door to another, and entered spacious
and faded
chambers, some
rudely shuttered, some receiving their
full
charge of
daylight, all empty and unhomely. It was a rich
house, on which Time had breathed his tarnish and dust had
scattered
disillusion. The
spider swung there; the bloated
tarantula scampered on the cornices; ants had their crowded
highways on the floor of halls of
audience; the big and foul fly,
that lives on carrion and is often the
messenger of death, had set
up his nest in the
rottenwoodwork, and buzzed heavily about the
rooms. Here and there a stool or two, a couch, a bed, or a great
carved chair remained behind, like islets on the bare floors, to
testify of man's bygone
habitation; and everywhere the walls were
set with the portraits of the dead. I could judge, by these
decaying effigies, in the house of what a great and what a handsome
race I was then wandering. Many of the men wore orders on their
breasts and had the port of noble offices; the women were all
richly attired; the canvases most of them by famous hands. But it
was not so much these evidences of
greatness that took hold upon my
mind, even contrasted, as they were, with the present depopulation
and decay of that great house. It was rather the parable of family
life that I read in this
succession of fair faces and shapely
bodies. Never before had I so realised the
miracle of the
continued race, the
creation and re
creation, the weaving and
changing and handing down of fleshly elements. That a child should
be born of its mother, that it should grow and clothe itself (we
know not how) with
humanity, and put on inherited looks, and turn
its head with the manner of one ascendant, and offer its hand with
the
gesture of another, are wonders dulled for us by repetition.
But in the
singular unity of look, in the common features and
common
bearing, of all these painted generations on the walls of
the residencia, the
miracle started out and looked me in the face.
And an ancient mirror falling opportunely in my way, I stood and
read my own features a long while, tracing out on either hand the
filaments of
descent and the bonds that knit me with my family.
At last, in the course of these investigations, I opened the door
of a
chamber that bore the marks of
habitation. It was of large
proportions and faced to the north, where the mountains were most
wildly figured. The embers of a fire smouldered and smoked upon
the
hearth, to which a chair had been drawn close. And yet the
aspect of the
chamber was ascetic to the degree of sternness; the
chair was uncushioned; the floor and walls were naked; and beyond
the books which lay here and there in some
confusion, there was no
instrument of either work or pleasure. The sight of books in the
house of such a family
exceedingly amazed me; and I began with a
great hurry, and in
momentary fear of
interruption, to go from one
to another and
hastilyinspect their
character. They were of all
sorts,
devotional,
historical, and
scientific, but
mostly of a
great age and in the Latin tongue. Some I could see to bear the
marks of
constant study; others had been torn across and tossed
aside as if in petulance or
disapproval. Lastly, as I cruised
about that empty
chamber, I espied some papers written upon with
pencil on a table near the window. An unthinking
curiosity led me
to take one up. It bore a copy of verses, very
roughly metred in
the original Spanish, and which I may render somewhat thus -
Pleasure approached with pain and shame,
Grief with a
wreath of lilies came.
Pleasure showed the lovely sun;
Jesu dear, how sweet it shone!
Grief with her worn hand
pointed on,
Jesu dear, to thee!
Shame and
confusion at once fell on me; and, laying down the paper,
I beat an immediate
retreat from the
apartment. Neither Felipe nor
his mother could have read the books nor written these rough but
feeling verses. It was plain I had stumbled with sacrilegious feet
into the room of the daughter of the house. God knows, my own
heart most
sharply punished me for my indiscretion. The thought
that I had thus
secretly pushed my way into the confidence of a
girl so
strangelysituated, and the fear that she might somehow
come to hear of it, oppressed me like guilt. I blamed myself
besides for my suspicions of the night before; wondered that I
should ever have attributed those
shocking cries to one of whom I
now conceived as of a saint, spectral of mien, wasted with
maceration, bound up in the practices of a
mechanicaldevotion, and
dwelling in a great
isolation of soul with her incongruous
relatives; and as I leaned on the balustrade of the
gallery and
looked down into the bright close of pomegranates and at the gaily
dressed and somnolent woman, who just then stretched herself and
delicately licked her lips as in the very sensuality of sloth, my
mind
swiftly compared the scene with the cold
chamber looking
northward on the mountains, where the daughter dwelt.
That same afternoon, as I sat upon my knoll, I saw the Padre enter
the gates of the residencia. The
revelation of the daughter's
character had struck home to my fancy, and almost blotted out the
horrors of the night before; but at sight of this
worthy man the
memory revived. I descended, then, from the knoll, and making a
circuit among the woods, posted myself by the
wayside to await his
passage. As soon as he appeared I stepped forth and introduced
myself as the lodger of the residencia. He had a very strong,
honest
countenance, on which it was easy to read the mingled
emotions with which he regarded me, as a
foreigner, a
heretic, and
yet one who had been wounded for the good cause. Of the family at
the residencia he spoke with reserve, and yet with respect. I
mentioned that I had not yet seen the daughter,
whereupon he
remarked that that was as it should be, and looked at me a little
askance. Lastly, I plucked up courage to refer to the cries that
had disturbed me in the night. He heard me out in silence, and
then stopped and
partly turned about, as though to mark beyond
doubt that he was dismissing me.
'Do you take
tobacco powder?' said he,
offering his snuff-box; and
then, when I had refused, 'I am an old man,' he added, 'and I may
be allowed to
remind you that you are a guest.'
'I have, then, your authority,' I returned,
firmly enough, although
I flushed at the implied
reproof, 'to let things take their course,
and not to interfere?'
He said 'yes,' and with a somewhat
uneasysalute turned and left me
where I was. But he had done two things: he had set my conscience
at rest, and he had awakened my
delicacy. I made a great effort,
once more dismissed the recollections of the night, and fell once
more to brooding on my saintly poetess. At the same time, I could
not quite forget that I had been locked in, and that night when
Felipe brought me my supper I attacked him warily on both points of
interest.
'I never see your sister,' said I casually.
'Oh, no,' said he; 'she is a good, good girl,' and his mind
instantly veered to something else.
'Your sister is pious, I suppose?' I asked in the next pause.
'Oh!' he cried, joining his hands with
extreme fervour, 'a saint;
it is she that keeps me up.'
'You are very fortunate,' said I, 'for the most of us, I am afraid,
and myself among the number, are better at going down.'
'Senor,' said Felipe
earnestly, 'I would not say that. You should