Mr. Farebrother, and this, in relation to a man who is much honored,
is always dangerous to the
firmness of a
grateful woman.
To have a reason for going home the next day was a
relief, for Mary
earnestly desired to be always clear that she loved Fred best.
When a tender
affection has been storing itself in us through many
of our years, the idea that we could accept any exchange for it
seems to be a cheapening of our lives. And we can set a watch over
our
affections and our
constancy as we can over other treasures.
"Fred has lost all his other expectations; he must keep this,"
Mary said to herself, with a smile curling her lips. It was
impossible to help
fleeting visions of another kind--new dignities
and an acknowledged value of which she had often felt the
absence.
But these things with Fred outside them, Fred
forsaken and looking
sad for the want of her, could never tempt her
deliberate thought.
CHAPTER LVIII.
"For there can live no
hatred in thine eye,
Therefore in that I cannot know thy change:
In many's looks the false heart's history
Is writ in moods and frowns and wrinkles strange:
But Heaven in thy
creation did decree
That in thy face sweet love should ever dwell:
Whate'er thy thoughts or thy heart's workings be
Thy looks should nothing
thence but
sweetness tell."
--SHAKESPEARE: Sonnets.
At the time when Mr. Vincy uttered that presentiment about Rosamond,
she herself had never had the idea that she should be
driven to make
the sort of
appeal which he foresaw. She had not yet had any
anxiety about ways and means, although her
domestic life had been
expensive as well as eventful. Her baby had been born prematurely,
and all the embroidered robes and caps had to be laid by in darkness.
This
misfortune was attributed entirely to her having persisted
in going out on
horseback one day when her husband had desired her
not to do so; but it must not be
supposed that she had shown temper
on the occasion, or
rudely told him that she would do as she liked.
What led her particularly to desire horse-exercise was a visit from
Captain Lydgate, the baronet's third son, who, I am sorry to say,
was detested by our Tertius of that name as a vapid fop "parting
his hair from brow to nape in a despicable fashion" (not followed
by Tertius himself), and showing an
ignorantsecurity that he knew
the proper thing to say on every topic. Lydgate
inwardly cursed his
own folly that he had drawn down this visit by consenting to go to his
uncle's on the wedding-tour, and he made himself rather dis
agreeableto Rosamond by
saying so in private. For to Rosamond this visit
was a source of
unprecedented but
gracefully concealed exultation.
She was so
intenselyconscious of having a cousin who was a baronet's
son staying in the house, that she imagined the knowledge of what
was implied by his presence to be diffused through all other minds;
and when she introduced Captain Lydgate to her guests, she had
a
placid sense that his rank penetrated them as if it had been
an odor. The
satisfaction was enough for the time to melt away
some
disappointment in the conditions of marriage with a
medical man
even of good birth: it seemed now that her marriage was visibly
as well as ideally floating her above the Middlemarch level, and the
future looked bright with letters and visits to and from Quallingham,
and vague
advancement in
consequence for Tertius. Especially as,
probably at the Captain's
suggestion, his married sister, Mrs. Mengan,
had come with her maid, and stayed two nights on her way from town.
Hence it was clearly worth while for Rosamond to take pains with
her music and the careful
selection of her lace.
As to Captain Lydgate himself, his low brow, his aquiline nose
bent on one side, and his rather heavy
utterance, might have been
disadvantageous in any young gentleman who had not a military
bearingand
mustache to give him what is doted on by some flower-like blond
heads as "style." He had,
moreover, that sort of high-breeding
which consists in being free from the petty solicitudes of
middle-class gentility, and he was a great
critic of
feminine charms.
Rosamond
delighted in his
admiration now even more than she had
done at Quallingham, and he found it easy to spend several hours
of the day in flirting with her. The visit
altogether was one
of the pleasantest larks he had ever had, not the less so perhaps
because he suspected that his queer cousin Tertius wished him away:
though Lydgate, who would rather (hyperbolically speaking) have died
than have failed in
politehospitality, suppressed his dislike,
and only pretended generally not to hear what the
gallant officer said,
consigning the task of answering him to Rosamond. For he was not
at all a
jealous husband, and preferred leaving a feather-headed
young gentleman alone with his wife to
bearing him company.
"I wish you would talk more to the Captain at dinner, Tertius,"
said Rosamond, one evening when the important guest was gone
to Loamford to see some brother officers stationed there.
"You really look so
absent sometimes--you seem to be seeing
through his head into something behind it, instead of looking at him."
"My dear Rosy, you don't expect me to talk much to such a conceited
ass as that, I hope," said Lydgate, brusquely. "If he got his
head broken, I might look at it with interest, not before."
"I cannot
conceive why you should speak of your cousin so contemptuously,"
said Rosamond, her fingers moving at her work while she spoke
with a mild
gravity which had a touch of
disdain in it.
"Ask Ladislaw if he doesn't think your Captain the greatest bore he
ever met with. Ladislaw has almost
forsaken the house since he came."
Rosamond thought she knew
perfectly well why Mr. Ladislaw disliked
the Captain: he was
jealous, and she liked his being
jealous.
"It is impossible to say what will suit
eccentric persons,"
she answered, "but in my opinion Captain Lydgate is a
thoroughgentleman, and I think you ought not, out of respect to Sir Godwin,
to treat him with neglect."
"No, dear; but we have had dinners for him. And he comes in and
goes out as he likes. He doesn't want me"
"Still, when he is in the room, you might show him more attention.
He may not be a phoenix of cleverness in your sense; his profession
is different; but it would be all the better for you to talk a little
on his subjects. _I_ think his conversation is quite
agreeable.
And he is anything but an unprincipled man."
"The fact is, you would wish me to be a little more like him,
Rosy," said Lydgate, in a sort of resigned murmur, with a
smile which was not exactly tender, and certainly not merry.
Rosamond was silent and did not smile again; but the lovely
curves of her face looked good-tempered enough without smiling.
Those words of Lydgate's were like a sad milestone marking how far
he had travelled from his old dreamland, in which Rosamond Vincy
appeared to be that perfect piece of womanhood who would reverence
her husband's mind after the fashion of an
accomplished mermaid,
using her comb and looking-glass and singing her song for the
relaxation of his adored
wisdom alone. He had begun to distinguish
between that imagined
adoration and the
attraction towards a man's
talent because it gives him
prestige, and is like an order in his
button-hole or an Honorable before his name.
It might have been
supposed that Rosamond had travelled too,
since she had found the pointless conversation of Mr. Ned Plymdale
perfectly wearisome; but to most mortals there is a stupidity
which is unendurable and a stupidity which is
altogether acceptable--
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delicately scented, carried itself with "style,"
talked with a good
accent, and was closely
related to Sir Godwin.
Rosamond found it quite
agreeable and caught many of its phrases.
Therefore since Rosamond, as we know, was fond of
horseback,
there were plenty of reasons why she should be tempted to resume
her riding when Captain Lydgate, who had ordered his man with
two horses to follow him and put up at the "Green Dragon,"
begged her to go out on the gray which he warranted to be gentle
and trained to carry a lady--indeed, he had bought it for his sister,
and was
taking it to Quallingham. Rosamond went out the first time
without telling her husband, and came back before his return;