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itself without conscious effort--a common experience, agreeable as
a completed sneeze, even if the name remembered is of no value.

Raffles immediately took out his pocket-book, and wrote down the name,
not because he expected to use it, but merely for the sake of not

being at a loss if he ever did happen to want it. He was not going
to tell Bulstrode: there was no actual good in telling, and to

a mind like that of Mr. Raffles there is always probable good in a secret.
He was satisfied with his present success, and by three o'clock that day

he had taken up his portmanteau at the turnpike and mounted the coach,
relieving Mr. Bulstrode's eyes of an ugly black spot on the landscape

at Stone Court, but not relieving him of the dread that the black spot
might reappear and become inseparable even from the vision of his hearth.

BOOK VI.
THE WIDOW AND THE WIFE.

CHAPTER LIV.
"Negli occhi porta la mia donna Amore;

Per che si fa gentil eio ch'ella mira:
Ov'ella passa, ogni uom ver lei si gira,

E cui saluta fa tremar lo core.
Sicche, bassando il viso, tutto smore,

E d'ogni suo difetto allor sospira:
Fuggon dinanzi a lei Superbia ed Ira:

Aiutatemi, donne, a farle onore.
Ogni dolcezza, ogni pensiero umile

Nasee nel core a chi parlar la sente;
Ond' e beato chi prima la vide.

Quel ch'ella par quand' un poco sorride,
Non si pub dicer, ne tener a mente,

Si e nuovo miracolo gentile."
--DANTE: la Vita Nuova.

By that delightful morning when the hay-ricks at Stone Court were
scenting the air quite impartially, as if Mr. Raffles had been

a guest worthy of finest incense, Dorothea had again taken up
her abode at Lowick Manor. After three months Freshitt had become

rather oppressive: to sit like a model for Saint Catherine looking
rapturously at Celia's baby would not do for many hours in the day,

and to remain in that momentous babe's presence with persistent
disregard was a course that could not have been tolerated in a

childless sister. Dorothea would have been capable of carrying
baby joyfully for a mile if there had been need, and of loving

it the more tenderly for that labor; but to an aunt who does not
recognize her infantnephew as Bouddha, and has nothing to do for him but

to admire, his behavior is apt to appear monotonous, and the interest
of watching him exhaustible. This possibility was quite hidden

from Celia, who felt that Dorothea's childless widowhood fell in quite
prettily with the birth of little Arthur (baby was named after Mr. Brooke).

"Dodo is just the creature not to mind about having anything of her own--
children or anything!" said Celia to her husband. "And if she

had had a baby, it never could have been such a dear as Arthur.
Could it, James?

"Not if it had been like Casaubon," said Sir James, conscious of
some indirectness in his answer, and of holding a strictly private

opinion as to the perfections of his first-born.
"No! just imagine! Really it was a mercy," said Celia; "and I think

it is very nice for Dodo to be a widow. She can be just as fond
of our baby as if it were her own, and she can have as many notions

of her own as she likes."
"It is a pity she was not a queen," said the devout Sir James.

"But what should we have been then? We must have been something else,"
said Celia, objecting to so laborious a flight of imagination.

"I like her better as she is."
Hence, when she found that Dorothea was making arrangements for her final

departure to Lowick, Celia raised her eyebrows with disappointment,
and in her quiet unemphatic way shot a needle-arrow of sarcasm.

"What will you do at Lowick, Dodo? You say yourself there is
nothing to be done there: everybody is so clean and well off,

it makes you quite melancholy. And here you have been so happy
going all about Tipton with Mr. Garth into the worst backyards.

And now uncle is abroad, you and Mr. Garth can have it all your own way;
and I am sure James does everything you tell him."

"I shall often come here, and I shall see how baby grows all
the better," said Dorothea.

"But you will never see him washed," said Celia; "and that is quite
the best part of the day." She was almost pouting: it did seem

to her very hard in Dodo to go away from the baby when she might stay.
"Dear Kitty, I will come and stay all night on purpose,"

said Dorothea; "but I want to be alone now, and in my own home.
I wish to know the Farebrothers better, and to talk to Mr. Farebrother

about what there is to be done in Middlemarch."
Dorothea's native strength of will was no longer all converted into

resolute submission. She had a great yearning to be at Lowick,
and was simply determined to go, not feeling bound to tell all

her reasons. But every one around her disapproved. Sir James was
much pained, and offered that they should all migrate to Cheltenham

for a few months with the sacred ark, otherwise called a cradle:
at that period a man could hardly know what to propose if Cheltenham

were rejected.
The Dowager Lady Chettam, just returned from a visit to her daughter

in town, wished, at least, that Mrs. Vigo should be written to,
and invited to accept the office of companion to Mrs. Casaubon:

it was not credible that Dorothea as a young widow would think
of living alone in the house at Lowick. Mrs. Vigo had been reader

and secretary to royal personages, and in point of knowledge and
sentiments even Dorothea could have nothing to object to her.

Mrs. Cadwallader said, privately, "You will certainly go mad in
that house alone, my dear. You will see visions. We have all got

to exert ourselves a little to keep sane, and call things by the same
names as other people call them by. To be sure, for younger sons

and women who have no money, it is a sort of provision to go mad:
they are taken care of then. But you must not run into that.

I dare say you are a little bored here with our good dowager;
but think what a bore you might become yourself to your fellow-creatures

if you were always playing tragedy queen and taking things sublimely.
Sitting alone in that library at Lowick you may fancy yourself

ruling the weather; you must get a few people round you who wouldn't
believe you if you told them. That is a good lowering medicine."

"I never called everything by the same name that all the people
about me did," said Dorothea, stoutly.

"But I suppose you have found out your mistake, my dear,"
said Mrs. Cadwallader, "and that is a proof of sanity."

Dorothea was aware of the sting, but it did not hurt her.
"No," she said, "I still think that the greater part of the world

is mistaken about many things. Surely one may be sane and yet
think so, since the greater part of the world has often had to come

round from its opinion."
Mrs. Cadwallader said no more on that point to Dorothea, but to her

husband she remarked, "It will be well for her to marry again as soon
as it is proper, if one could get her among the right people.

Of course the Chettams would not wish it. But I see clearly
a husband is the best thing to keep her in order. If we were not

so poor I would invite Lord Triton. He will be marquis some day,
and there is no denying that she would make a good marchioness:

she looks handsomer than ever in her mourning."
"My dear Elinor, do let the poor woman alone. Such contrivances

are of no use," said the easy Rector.
"No use? How are matches made, except by bringing men and

women together? And it is a shame that her uncle should have run
away and shut up the Grange just now. There ought to be plenty

of eligible matches invited to Freshitt and the Grange. Lord Triton
is precisely the man: full of plans for making the people happy

in a soft-headed sort of way. That would just suit Mrs. Casaubon."
"Let Mrs. Casaubon choose for herself, Elinor."

"That is the nonsense you wise men talk! How can she choose
if she has no variety to choose from? A woman's choice usually

means taking the only man she can get. Mark my words, Humphrey.
If her friends don't exert themselves, there will be a worse

business than the Casaubon business yet."
"For heaven's sake don't touch on that topic, Elinor! It is a

very sore point with Sir James He would be deeply offended if you
entered on it to him unnecessarily."

"I have never entered on it," said Mrs Cadwallader, opening her hands.
"Celia told me all about the will at the beginning, without any

asking of mine."
"Yes, yes; but they want the thing hushed up, and I understand

that the young fellow is going out of the neighborhood."
Mrs. Cadwallader said nothing, but gave her husband three

significant nods, with a very sarcastic expression in her dark eyes.
Dorothea quietly persisted in spite of remonstrance and persuasion.

So by the end of June the shutters were all opened at Lowick Manor,
and the morning gazed calmly into the library, shining on the rows

of note-books as it shines on the weary waste planted with huge
stones, the mute memorial of a forgotten faith; and the evening

laden with roses entered silently into the blue-green boudoir
where Dorothea chose oftenest to sit. At first she walked into

every room, questioning the eighteen months of her married life,
and carrying on her thoughts as if they were a speech to be heard

by her husband. Then, she lingered in the library and could not
be at rest till she had carefully ranged all the note-books as she

imagined that he would wish to see them, in orderly sequence.
The pity which had been the restraining compelling motive in her life

with him still clung about his image, even while she remonstrated
with him in indignant thought and told him that he was unjust.

One little act of hers may perhaps be smiled at as superstitious.
The Synoptical Tabulation for the use of Mrs. Casaubon, she

carefully enclosed and sealed, writing within the envelope,
"I could not use it. Do you not see now that I could not submit

my soul to yours, by workinghopelessly at what I have no belief
in--Dorothea?" Then she deposited the paper in her own desk.

That silent colloquy was perhaps only the more earnest because underneath
and through it all there was always the deep longing which had really

determined her to come to Lowick. The longing was to see Will Ladislaw.
She did not know any good that could come of their meeting:

she was helpless; her hands had been tied from making up to him
for any unfairness in his lot. But her soul thirsted to see him.

How could it be otherwise? If a princess in the days of enchantment
had seen a four-footed creature from among those which live in herds

come to her once and again with a human gaze which rested upon her
with choice and beseeching, what would she think of in her journeying,

what would she look for when the herds passed her? Surely for
the gaze which had found her, and which she would know again.

Life would be no better than candle-light tinsel and daylight
rubbish if our spirits were not touched by what has been, to issues

of longing and constancy. It was true that Dorothea wanted to know
the Farebrothers better, and especially to talk to the new rector,

but also true that remembering what Lydgate had told her about
Will Ladislaw and little Miss Noble, she counted on Will's coming

to Lowick to see the Farebrother family. The very first Sunday,
BEFORE she entered the church, she saw him as she had seen

him the last time she was there, alone in the clergyman's pew;
but WHEN she entered his figure was gone.

In the week-days when she went to see the ladies at the Rectory,
she listened in vain for some word that they might let fall about Will;

but it seemed to her that Mrs. Farebrother talked of every one else
in the neighborhood and out of it.

"Probably some of Mr. Farebrother's Middlemarch hearers may follow
him to Lowick sometimes. Do you not think so?" said Dorothea,

rather despising herself for having a secret motive in asking
the question.

"If they are wise they will, Mrs. Casaubon," said the old lady.
"I see that you set a right value on my son's preaching. His grandfather

on my side was an excellent clergyman, but his father was in the law:--



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