not almost rather the penalties paid for exuberance of health, and of
faculty for living and
working;
criminal forfeitures, incurred by
excess of self-exertion and such irrepressible over-rapidity of
movement: and the vague hope was
habitual with us, that increase of
years, as it deadened this over-
energy, would first make the man
secure of life, and a sober
prosperous
worker among his fellows. It
was always as if with a kind of blame that one heard of his being ill
again! Poor Sterling;--no man knows another's burden: these things
were not, and were not to be, in the way we had fancied them!
Summer went along in its usual quiet tenor at Clifton; health good, as
usual while the warm weather lasted, and activity
abundant; the scene
as still as the busiest could wish. "You
metropolitan signors,"
writes Sterling to his Father, "cannot
conceive the dulness and
scantiness of our
provincial chronicle." Here is a little excursion
to the seaside; the lady of the family being again,--for good
reasons,--in a weakly state:--
"_To Edward Sterling, Esq., Knightsbridge, London_.
"PORTSHEAD, BRISTOL, 1st Sept., 1840.
"MY DEAR FATHER,--This place is a southern
headland at the mouth of
the Avon. Susan, and the Children too, were all
suffering from
languor; and as she is quite unfit to travel in a
carriage, we were
obliged to move, if at all, to some place
accessible by water; and
this is the nearest where we could get the fresher air of the Bristol
Channel. We sent to take a house, for a week; and came down here in a
steamer
yesterday morning. It seems likely to do every one good. We
have a comfortable house, with eight rather small bedrooms, for which
we pay four guineas and a half for the week. We have brought three of
our own maids, and leave one to take care of the house at Clifton.
"A week ago my horse fell with me, but did not hurt
seriously either
himself or me: it was, however, rather hard that, as there were six
legs to be damaged, the one that did
scratch itself should belong to
the part of the machine possessing only two, instead of the
quadrupedal
portion. I grazed about the size of a halfpenny on my
left knee; and for a couple of days walked about as if nothing had
happened. I found, however, that the skin was not returning
correctly; and so sent for a doctor: he treated the thing as quite
insignificant, but said I must keep my leg quiet for a few days. It
is still not quite healed; and I lie all day on a sofa, much to my
discomposure; but the thing is now rapidly disappearing; and I hope,
in a day or two more, I shall be free again. I find I can do no work,
while thus crippled in my leg. The man in Horace who made verses
_stans pede in uno_ had the
advantage of me.
"The Great Western came in last night about eleven, and has just been
making a
flourish past our windows; looking very grand, with four
streamers of
bunting, and one of smoke. Of course I do not yet know
whether I have Letters by her, as if so they will have gone to Clifton
first. This place is quiet, green and pleasant; and will suit us very
well, if we have good weather, of which there seems every appearance.
"Milnes spent last Sunday with me at Clifton; and was very
amusing and
cordial. It is impossible for those who know him well not to like
him.--I send this to Knightsbridge, not
knowing where else to hit you.
Love to my Mother.
"Your affectionate,
"JOHN STERLING."
The expected "Letters by the Great Western" are from Anthony, now in
Canada, doing military duties there. The "Milnes" is our excellent
Richard, whom all men know, and truly whom none can know well without
even doing as Sterling says.--In a week the family had returned to
Clifton; and Sterling was at his poetizings and equitations again.
His grand business was now Poetry; all effort,
outlook and aim
exclusively directed
thither, this good while.
Of the published Volume Moxon gave the worst
tidings; no man had
hailed it with
welcome; unsold it lay, under the leaden seal of
general
neglect; the public when asked what it thought, had answered
hitherto by a lazy stare. It shall answer
otherwise, thought
Sterling; by no means
taking that as the final
response. It was in
this same September that he announced to me and other friends, under
seal of
secrecy as usual, the
completion, or complete first-draught,
of "a new Poem reaching to two thousand verses." By
working "three