"If but the shirt upon my body knew it
I'd tear it off and throw it in the fire.'
That speech was all that the town knew, but he
Seemed for a while to have grown young again;
Seemed so on purpose, muttered Jaffer's friends,
That none might know that he was conscience-struck --
But that s a traitor's thought. Enough for me
That in the early summer of the year
The mightiest of the
princes of the world
Came to the least considered of his courtiers;
Sat down upon the fountain's
marble edge,
One hand amid the goldfish in the pool;
And
thereupon a colloquy took place
That I
commend to all the chroniclers
To show how
violent great hearts can lose
Their
bitterness and find the honeycomb.
"I have brought a
slender bride into the house;
You know the
saying, ""Change the bride with spring.''
And she and I, being sunk in happiness,
Cannot
endure to think you tread these paths,
When evening stirs the jasmine bough, and yet
Are brideless.'
"I am falling into years.'
"But such as you and I do not seem old
Like men who live by habit. Every day
I ride with
falcon to the river's edge
Or carry the
ringed mail upon my back,
Or court a woman; neither enemy,
Game-bird, nor woman does the same thing twice;
And so a
hunter carries in the eye
A mimic of youth. Can poet's thought
That springs from body and in body falls
Like this pure jet, now lost amid blue sky,
Now bathing lily leaf and fish's scale,
Be mimicry?'
"What matter if our souls
Are nearer to the surface of the body
Than souls that start no game and turn no rhyme!
The soul's own youth and not the body's youth
Shows through our lineaments. My candle's bright,
My
lantern is too loyal not to show
That it was made in your great father's reign,
And yet the jasmine season warms our blood.'
"Great
prince,
forgive the freedom of my speech:
You think that love has seasons, and you think
That if the spring bear off what the spring gave
The heart need suffer no defeat; but I
Who have accepted the Byzantine faith,
That seems
unnatural to Arabian minds,
Think when I choose a bride I choose for ever;
And if her eye should not grow bright for mine
Or
brighten only for some younger eye,
My heart could never turn from daily ruin,
Nor find a remedy.'
"But what if I
Have lit upon a woman who so shares
Your
thirst for those old crabbed mysteries,
So
strains to look beyond Our life, an eye
That never knew that
strain would
scarce seem bright,
And yet herself can seem youth's very fountain,
Being all brimmed with life?'
"Were it but true
I would have found the best that life can give,
Companionship in those
mysterious things
That make a man's soul or a woman's soul
Itself and not some other soul.'
"That love
Must needs be in this life and in what follows
Unchanging and at peace, and it is right
Every
philosopher should praise that love.
But I being none can praise its opposite.
It makes my
passion stronger but to think
Like
passion stirs the
peacock and his mate,
The wild stag and the doe; that mouth to mouth
Is a man's
mockery of the changeless soul.'
And
thereupon his
bounty gave what now
Can shake more
blossom from autumnal chill
Than all my bursting
springtime knew. A girl
Perched in some window of her mother's housc
Had watched my daily passage to and fro;
Had heard impossible history of my past;
Imagined some impossible history
Lived at my side; thought time's disfiguring touch
Gave but more reason for a woman's care.
Yet was it love of me, or was it love
Of the stark
mystery that has dazed my sight,
perplexed her
fantasy and planned her care?
Or did the torchlight of that
mysteryPick out my features in such light and shade
Two contemplating
passions chose one theme
Through sheer
bewilderment? She had not paced
The garden paths, nor counted up the rooms,
Before she had spread a book upon her knees
And asked about the pictures or the text;
And often those first days I saw her stare
On old dry
writing in a
learned tongue,
On old dry faggots that could never please
The
extravagance of spring; or move a hand
As if that
writing or the figured page
Were some dear cheek.
Upon a moonless night
I sat where I could watch her
sleeping form,
And wrote by candle-light; but her form moved.
And fearing that my light disturbed her sleep
I rose that I might
screen it with a cloth.
I heard her voice, "Turn that I may expound
What's bowed your shoulder and made pale your cheek
And saw her sitting
upright on the bed;
Or was it she that spoke or some great Djinn?
I say that a Djinn spoke. A livelong hour
She seemed the
learned man and I the child;
Truths without father came, truths that no book
Of all the uncounted books that I have read,
Nor thought out of her mind or mine begot,
Self-born, high-born, and
solitary truths,
Those terrible implacable straight lines
Drawn through the wandering vegetative dream,
Even those truths that when my bones are dust
Must drive the Arabian host.
The voice grew still,
And she lay down upon her bed and slept,
But woke at the first gleam of day, rose up
And swept the house and sang about her work
In
childishignorance of all that passed.
A dozen nights of natural sleep, and then
When the full moon swam to its greatest height
She rose, and with her eyes shut fast in sleep
Walked through the house. Unnoticed and unfelt
I wrapped her in a hooded cloak, and she,
Half
running, dropped at the first ridge of the desert
And there marked out those emblems on the sand
That day by day I study and
marvel at,
With her white finger. I led her home asleep
And once again she rose and swept the house
In
childishignorance of all that passed.
Even to-day, after some seven years
When maybe
thrice in every moon her mouth
Murmured the
wisdom of the desert Djinns,
She keeps that
ignorance, nor has she now
That first
unnatural interest in my books.
It seems enough that I am there; and yet,
Old fellow-student, whose most patient ear
Heard all the
anxiety of my
passionate youth,
It seems I must buy knowledge with my peace.
What if she lose her
ignorance and so
Dream that I love her only for the voice,
That every gift and every word of praise
Is but a
payment for that
midnight voice
That is to age what milk is to a child?
Were she to lose her love, because she had lost
Her confidence in mine, or even lose
Its first
simplicity, love, voice and all,
All my fine feathers would be plucked away
And I left shivering. The voice has drawn
A quality of
wisdom from her love's
Particular quality. The signs and shapes;
All those abstractions that you fancied were
From the great Treatise of parmenides;
All, all those gyres and cubes and
midnight things
Are but a new expression of her body
Drunk with the bitter
sweetness of her youth.
And now my
utmostmystery is out.
A woman's beauty is a storm-tossed banner;
Under it
wisdom stands, and I alone --
Of all Arabia's lovers I alone --
Nor dazzled by the
embroidery, nor lost
In the
confusion of its night-dark folds,
Can hear the armed man speak.
STREAM AND SUN AT GLENDALOUGH
THROUGH
intricatemotions ran
Stream and gliding sun
And all my heart seemed gay:
Some
stupid thing that I had done
Made my attention stray.
Repentance keeps my heart impure;
But what am I that dare
Fancy that I can
Better conduct myself or have more
Sense than a common man?
What
motion of the sun or stream
Or
eyelid shot the gleam
That pierced my body through?
What made me live like these that seem
Self-born, born anew?
THE SONG OF THE HAPPY SHEPHERD
THE woods of Arcady are dead,
And over is their
antique joy;
Of old the world on dreaming fed;
Grey Truth is now her painted toy;
Yet still she turns her
restless head:
But O, sick children of the world,
Of all the many changing things
In
dreary dancing past us whirled,
To the
cracked tune that Chronos sings,
Words alone are certain good.
Where are now the warring kings,
Word be-mockers? -- By the Rood,
Where are now the watring kings?
An idle word is now their glory,
By the stammering schoolboy said,
Reading some entangled story: