contemporary light upon the
journal, and Pepys was plunged
for ever in social and political
disgrace. We can trace the
growth of his terrors by two facts. In 1660, while the Diary
was still in its youth, he tells about it, as a matter of
course, to a
lieutenant in the navy; but in 1669, when it was
already near an end, he could have
bitten his tongue out, as
the
saying is, because he had let slip his secret to one so
grave and friendly as Sir William Coventry. And from two
other facts I think we may infer that he had entertained,
even if he had not acquiesced in, the thought of a far-
distant publicity. The first is of capital importance: the
Diary was not destroyed. The second - that he took unusual
precautions to
confound the cipher in "rogueish" passages -
proves, beyond question, that he was thinking of some other
reader besides himself. Perhaps while his friends were
admiring the "
greatness of his behaviour" at the approach of
death, he may have had a twinkling hope of
immortality. MENS
CUJUSQUE IS EST QUISQUE, said his chosen motto; and, as he
had stamped his mind with every crook and foible in the pages
of the Diary, he might feel that what he left behind him was
indeed himself. There is perhaps no other
instance so
remarkable of the desire of man for publicity and an enduring
name. The
greatness of his life was open, yet he longed to
communicate its smallness also; and, while contemporaries
bowed before him, he must buttonhole
posterity with the news
that his periwig was once alive with nits. But this thought,
although I cannot doubt he had it, was neither his first nor
his deepest; it did not colour one word that he wrote; and
the Diary, for as long as he kept it, remained what it was
when he began, a private pleasure for himself. It was his
bosom secret; it added a zest to all his pleasures; he lived
in and for it, and might well write these
solemn words, when
he closed that confidant for ever: "And so I betake myself to
that course which is almost as much as to see myself go into
the grave; for which, and all the discomforts that will
accompany my being blind, the good God prepare me."
A LIBERAL GENIUS.
Pepys spent part of a certain winter Sunday, when he had
taken physic, composing "a song in praise of a
liberal genius
(such as I take my own to be) to all studies and pleasures."
The song was
unsuccessful, but the Diary is, in a sense, the
very song that he was seeking; and his
portrait by Hales, so
admirably reproduced in Mynors Bright's
edition, is a
confirmation of the Diary. Hales, it would appear, had known
his business; and though he put his sitter to a deal of
trouble, almost breaking his neck "to have the
portrait full
of shadows," and draping him in an Indian gown hired
expressly for the purpose, he was
preoccupied about no merely
picturesque effects, but to
portray the
essence of the man.
Whether we read the picture by the Diary or the Diary by the
picture, we shall at least agree that Hales was among the
number of those who can "surprise the manners in the face."
Here we have a mouth pouting, moist with desires; eyes
greedy, protuberant, and yet apt for
weeping too; a nose
great alike in
character and dimensions; and
altogether a
most fleshly, melting
countenance. The face is
attractive by
its promise of reciprocity. I have used the word GREEDY, but
the reader must not suppose that he can change it for that
closely
kindred one of HUNGRY, for there is here no
aspiration, no
waiting for better things, but an animal joy
in all that comes. It could never be the face of an artist;
it is the face of a VIVEUR - kindly, pleased and pleasing,
protected from
excess and upheld in
contentment by the
shifting versatility of his desires. For a single desire is
more
rightly to be called a lust; but there is health in a
variety, where one may balance and control another.
The whole world, town or country, was to Pepys a garden of
Armida. Wherever he went, his steps were
winged with the
most eager
expectation;
whatever he did, it was done with the
most
lively pleasure. An insatiable
curiosity in all the
shows of the world and all the secrets of knowledge, filled
him brimful of the
longing to travel, and supported him in
the toils of study. Rome was the dream of his life; he was
never happier than when he read or talked of the Eternal
City. When he was in Holland, he was "with child" to see any
strange thing. Meeting some friends and singing with them in
a palace near the Hague, his pen fails him to express his
passion of delight, "the more so because in a heaven of
pleasure and in a strange country." He must go to see all
famous executions. He must needs visit the body of a
murdered man, defaced "with a broad wound," he says, "that
makes my hand now shake to write of it." He
learned to
dance, and was "like to make a dancer." He
learned to sing,
and walked about Gray's Inn Fields "humming to myself (which
is now my
constant practice) the trillo." He
learned to play
the lute, the flute, the flageolet, and the theorbo, and it
was not the fault of his
intention if he did not learn the
harpsichord or the spinet. He
learned to
compose songs, and
burned to give forth "a
scheme and theory of music not yet
ever made in the world." When he heard "a fellow whistle
like a bird
exceeding well," he promised to return another
day and give an angel for a lesson in the art. Once, he
writes, "I took the Bezan back with me, and with a brave gale
and tide reached up that night to the Hope,
taking great
pleasure in
learning the seamen's manner of singing when they
sound the depths." If he found himself rusty in his Latin
grammar, he must fall to it like a schoolboy. He was a
member of Harrington's Club till its
dissolution, and of the
Royal Society before it had received the name. Boyle's
HYDROSTATICS was "of
infinite delight" to him, walking in
Barnes Elms. We find him comparing Bible concordances, a
captious judge of
sermons, deep in Descartes and Aristotle.
We find him, in a single year, studying
timber and the
measurement of
timber; tar and oil, hemp, and the process of
preparing cordage;
mathematics and accounting; the hull and
the rigging of ships from a model; and "looking and improving
himself of the (naval) stores with" - hark to the fellow! -
"great delight." His familiar spirit of delight was not the
same with Shelley's; but how true it was to him through life!
He is only copying something, and behold, he "takes great
pleasure to rule the lines, and have the capital words wrote
with red ink;" he has only had his coal-cellar emptied and
cleaned, and behold, "it do please him
exceedingly." A hog's
harslett is "a piece of meat he loves." He cannot ride home
in my Lord Sandwich's coach, but he must exclaim, with
breathless gusto, "his noble, rich coach." When he is bound
for a supper party, he anticipates a "glut of pleasure."
When he has a new watch, "to see my childishness," says he,
"I could not
forbear carrying it in my hand and
seeing what
o'clock it was an hundred times." To go to Vauxhall, he
says, and "to hear the nightingales and other birds, hear
fiddles, and there a harp and here a Jew's trump, and here
laughing, and there fine people walking, is mighty
divertising." And the nightingales, I take it, were
particularly dear to him; and it was again "with great
pleasure that he paused to hear them as he walked to
Woolwich, while the fog was rising and the April sun broke
through.
He must always be doing something
agreeable, and, by
preference, two
agreeable things at once. In his house he
had a box of carpenter's tools, two dogs, an eagle, a canary,
and a
blackbird that whistled tunes, lest, even in that full
life, he should chance upon an empty moment. If he had to