And, after heaven, on our dull side of death,
What should be best, if not so pure a love
Clothed in so pure a
loveliness? yet thee
She failed to bind, though being, as I think,
Unbound as yet, and gentle, as I know.'
And Lancelot answered nothing, but he went,
And at the inrunning of a little brook
Sat by the river in a cove, and watched
The high reed wave, and lifted up his eyes
And saw the barge that brought her moving down,
Far-off, a blot upon the
stream, and said
Low in himself, 'Ah simple heart and sweet,
Ye loved me,
damsel, surely with a love
Far tenderer than my Queen's. Pray for thy soul?
Ay, that will I. Farewell too--now at last--
Farewell, fair lily. "Jealousy in love?"
Not rather dead love's harsh heir,
jealous pride?
Queen, if I grant the
jealousy as of love,
May not your
crescent fear for name and fame
Speak, as it waxes, of a love that wanes?
Why did the King dwell on my name to me?
Mine own name shames me,
seeming a reproach,
Lancelot, whom the Lady of the Lake
Caught from his mother's arms--the
wondrous one
Who passes through the
vision of the night--
She chanted snatches of
mysterious hymns
Heard on the winding waters, eve and morn
She kissed me
saying, "Thou art fair, my child,
As a king's son," and often in her arms
She bare me, pacing on the dusky mere.
Would she had drowned me in it, where'er it be!
For what am I? what profits me my name
Of greatest
knight? I fought for it, and have it:
Pleasure to have it, none; to lose it, pain;
Now grown a part of me: but what use in it?
To make men worse by making my sin known?
Or sin seem less, the
sinnerseeming great?
Alas for Arthur's greatest
knight, a man
Not after Arthur's heart! I needs must break
These bonds that so defame me: not without
She wills it: would I, if she willed it? nay,
Who knows? but if I would not, then may God,
I pray him, send a sudden Angel down
To seize me by the hair and bear me far,
And fling me deep in that forgotten mere,
Among the tumbled fragments of the hills.'
So groaned Sir Lancelot in remorseful pain,
Not
knowing he should die a holy man.
The Holy Grail
From noiseful arms, and acts of
prowess done
In
tournament or tilt, Sir Percivale,
Whom Arthur and his
knighthood called The Pure,
Had passed into the silent life of prayer,
Praise, fast, and alms; and leaving for the cowl
The
helmet in an abbey far away
From Camelot, there, and not long after, died.
And one, a fellow-monk among the rest,
Ambrosius, loved him much beyond the rest,
And honoured him, and
wrought into his heart
A way by love that wakened love within,
To answer that which came: and as they sat
Beneath a world-old yew-tree, darkening half
The cloisters, on a gustful April morn
That puffed the swaying branches into smoke
Above them, ere the summer when he died
The monk Ambrosius questioned Percivale:
'O brother, I have seen this yew-tree smoke,
Spring after spring, for half a hundred years:
For never have I known the world without,
Nor ever strayed beyond the pale: but thee,
When first thou camest--such a courtesy
Spake through the limbs and in the voice--I knew
For one of those who eat in Arthur's hall;
For good ye are and bad, and like to coins,
Some true, some light, but every one of you
Stamped with the image of the King; and now
Tell me, what drove thee from the Table Round,
My brother? was it
earthlypassion crost?'
'Nay,' said the
knight; 'for no such
passion mine.
But the sweet
vision of the Holy Grail
Drove me from all vainglories, rivalries,
And
earthly heats that spring and
sparkle out
Among us in the jousts, while women watch
Who wins, who falls; and waste the
spiritual strength
Within us, better offered up to Heaven.'
To whom the monk: 'The Holy Grail!--I trust
We are green in Heaven's eyes; but here too much
We moulder--as to things without I mean--
Yet one of your own
knights, a guest of ours,
Told us of this in our refectory,
But spake with such a
sadness and so low
We heard not half of what he said. What is it?
The
phantom of a cup that comes and goes?'
'Nay, monk! what
phantom?' answered Percivale.
'The cup, the cup itself, from which our Lord
Drank at the last sad supper with his own.
This, from the
blessed land of Aromat--
After the day of darkness, when the dead
Went wandering o'er Moriah--the good saint
Arimathaean Joseph, journeying brought
To Glastonbury, where the winter thorn
Blossoms at Christmas, mindful of our Lord.
And there
awhile it bode; and if a man
Could touch or see it, he was healed at once,
By faith, of all his ills. But then the times
Grew to such evil that the holy cup
Was caught away to Heaven, and disappeared.'
To whom the monk: 'From our old books I know
That Joseph came of old to Glastonbury,
And there the
heathen Prince, Arviragus,
Gave him an isle of marsh
whereon to build;
And there he built with wattles from the marsh
A little
lonely church in days of yore,
For so they say, these books of ours, but seem
Mute of this
miracle, far as I have read.
But who first saw the holy thing today?'
'A woman,' answered Percivale, 'a nun,
And one no further off in blood from me
Than sister; and if ever holy maid
With knees of
adoration wore the stone,
A holy maid; though never
maiden glowed,
But that was in her earlier
maidenhood,
With such a
fervent flame of human love,
Which being
rudely blunted, glanced and shot
Only to holy things; to prayer and praise
She gave herself, to fast and alms. And yet,
Nun as she was, the
scandal of the Court,
Sin against Arthur and the Table Round,
And the strange sound of an adulterous race,
Across the iron
grating of her cell
Beat, and she prayed and fasted all the more.
'And he to whom she told her sins, or what
Her all but utter whiteness held for sin,
A man wellnigh a hundred winters old,
Spake often with her of the Holy Grail,
A legend handed down through five or six,
And each of these a hundred winters old,
From our Lord's time. And when King Arthur made
His Table Round, and all men's hearts became
Clean for a season, surely he had thought
That now the Holy Grail would come again;
But sin broke out. Ah, Christ, that it would come,
And heal the world of all their wickedness!
"O Father!" asked the
maiden, "might it come
To me by prayer and fasting?" "Nay," said he,
"I know not, for thy heart is pure as snow."
And so she prayed and fasted, till the sun
Shone, and the wind blew, through her, and I thought
She might have risen and floated when I saw her.
'For on a day she sent to speak with me.
And when she came to speak, behold her eyes
Beyond my
knowing of them, beautiful,
Beyond all
knowing of them, wonderful,
Beautiful in the light of holiness.
And "O my brother Percivale," she said,
"Sweet brother, I have seen the Holy Grail:
For, waked at dead of night, I heard a sound
As of a silver horn from o'er the hills
Blown, and I thought, 'It is not Arthur's use
To hunt by moonlight;' and the
slender sound
As from a distance beyond distance grew
Coming upon me--O never harp nor horn,
Nor aught we blow with
breath, or touch with hand,
Was like that music as it came; and then
Streamed through my cell a cold and silver beam,
And down the long beam stole the Holy Grail,
Rose-red with beatings in it, as if alive,
Till all the white walls of my cell were dyed
With rosy colours leaping on the wall;
And then the music faded, and the Grail
Past, and the beam decayed, and from the walls
The rosy quiverings died into the night.
So now the Holy Thing is here again
Among us, brother, fast thou too and pray,
And tell thy brother
knights to fast and pray,
That so
perchance the
vision may be seen
By thee and those, and all the world be healed."
'Then leaving the pale nun, I spake of this
To all men; and myself fasted and prayed
Always, and many among us many a week
Fasted and prayed even to the uttermost,
Expectant of the wonder that would be.
'And one there was among us, ever moved
Among us in white
armour, Galahad.
"God make thee good as thou art beautiful,"
Said Arthur, when he dubbed him
knight; and none,
In so young youth, was ever made a
knightTill Galahad; and this Galahad, when he heard
My sister's
vision, filled me with amaze;
His eyes became so like her own, they seemed
Hers, and himself her brother more than I.
'Sister or brother none had he; but some
Called him a son of Lancelot, and some said
Begotten by enchantment--chatterers they,
Like birds of passage piping up and down,
That gape for flies--we know not
whence they come;
For when was Lancelot wanderingly lewd?
'But she, the wan sweet
maiden, shore away
Clean from her
forehead all that
wealth of hair
Which made a
silken mat-work for her feet;
And out of this she plaited broad and long