without passing any one who recognized me.
"Jacques is better," were the first words he said to me.
I explained to him my position of
diplomatic postman, hunted like a
wild beast, and the brave gentleman in his quality of
royalist claimed
the danger over Chessel of receiving me. As we came in sight of
Clochegourde the past eight months rolled away like a dream. When we
entered the salon the count said: "Guess whom I bring you?--Felix!"
"Is it possible!" she said, with pendant arms and a bewildered face.
I showed myself and we both remained
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motionless; she in her armchair,
I on the
threshold of the door; looking at each other with that
hungerof the soul which endeavors to make up in a single glance for the lost
months. Then, recovering from a surprise which left her heart
unveiled, she rose and I went up to her.
"I have prayed for your safety," she said, giving me her hand to kiss.
She asked news of her father; then she guessed my
weariness and went
to prepare my room, while the count gave me something to eat, for I
was dying of
hunger. My room was the one above hers, her aunt's room;
she requested the count to take me there, after
setting her foot on
the first step of the
staircase, deliberating no doubt whether to
accompany me; I turned my head, she blushed, bade me sleep well, and
went away. When I came down to dinner I heard for the first time of
the disasters at Waterloo, the
flight of Napoleon, the march of the
Allies to Paris, and the
probable return of the Bourbons. These events
were all in all to the count; to us they were nothing. What think you
was the great event I was to learn, after kissing the children?--for I
will not dwell on the alarm I felt at
seeing the
countess pale and
shrunken; I knew the
injury I might do by showing it and was careful
to express only joy at
seeing her. But the great event for us was told
in the words, "You shall have ice to-day!" She had often fretted the
year before that the water was not cold enough for me, who, never
drinking anything else, liked it iced. God knows how many entreaties
it had cost her to get an ice-house built. You know better than any
one that a word, a look, an inflection of the voice, a trifling
attention, suffices for love; love's noblest
privilege is to prove
itself by love. Well, her words, her look, her pleasure, showed me her
feelings, as I had
formerly shown her mine by that first game of
backgammon. These ingenuous proofs of her
affection were many; on the
seventh day after my
arrival she recovered her
freshness, she sparkled
with health and youth and happiness; my lily expanded in beauty just
as the treasures of my heart increased. Only in petty minds or in
common hearts can
absencelessen love or efface the features or
diminish the beauty of our dear one. To
ardent imaginations, to all
beings through whose veins
enthusiasm passes like a
crimson tide, and
in whom
passion takes the form of
constancy,
absence has the same
effect as the sufferings of the early Christians, which strengthened
their faith and made God
visible to them. In hearts that
abound in
love are there not
incessant longings for a desired object, to which
the glowing fire of our dreams gives higher value and a deeper tint?
Are we not
conscious of instigations which give to the
belovedfeatures the beauty of the ideal by inspiring them with thought? The
past, dwelt on in all its details becomes magnified; the future teems
with hope. When two hearts filled with these electric clouds meet each
other, their
interview is like the
welcome storm which revives the
earth and stimulates it with the swift lightnings of the thunderbolt.
How many tender pleasures came to me when I found these thoughts and
these sensations reciprocal! With what glad eyes I followed the
development of happiness in Henriette! A woman who renews her life
from that of her
beloved gives, perhaps, a greater proof of feeling
than she who dies killed by a doubt, withered on her stock for want of
sap; I know not which of the two is the more touching.
The
revival of Madame de Mortsauf was
wholly natural, like the effects
of the month of May upon the meadows, or those of the sun and of the
brook upon the drooping flowers. Henriette, like our dear
valley of
love, had had her winter; she revived like the
valley in the
springtime. Before dinner we went down to the
belovedterrace. There,
with one hand stroking the head of her son, who walked
feebly beside
her, silent, as though he were
breeding an
illness, she told me of her
nights beside his pillow.
For three months, she said, she had lived
wholly within herself,
inhabiting, as it were, a dark palace; afraid to enter
sumptuous rooms
where the light shone, where festivals were given, to her denied, at
the door of which she stood, one glance turned upon her child, another
to a dim and distant figure; one ear listening for moans, another for
a voice. She told me poems, born of
solitude, such as no poet ever
sang; but all ingenuously, without one
vestige of love, one trace of
voluptuous thought, one echo of a poesy orientally soothing as the
rose of Frangistan. When the count joined us she continued in the same
tone, like a woman secure within herself, able to look
proudly at her
husband and kiss the
forehead of her son without a blush. She had
prayed much; she had clasped her hands for nights together over her
child, refusing to let him die.
"I went," she said, "to the gate of the
sanctuary and asked his life
of God."
She had had visions, and she told them to me; but when she said, in
that
angelic voice of hers, these
exquisite words, "While I slept my
heart watched," the count
harshly interrupted her.
"That is to say, you were half crazy," he cried.
She was silent, as deeply hurt as though it were a first wound;
forgetting that for thirteen years this man had lost no chance to
shoot his arrows into her heart. Like a soaring bird struck on the
wing by
vulgar shot, she sank into a dull
depression; then she roused
herself.
"How is it,
monsieur," she said, "that no word of mine ever finds
favor in your sight? Have you no
indulgence for my weakness,--no
comprehension of me as a woman?"
She stopped short. Already she regretted the murmur, and measured the
future by the past; how could she expect
comprehension? Had she not
drawn upon herself some virulent attack? The blue veins of her temples
throbbed; she shed no tears, but the color of her eyes faded. Then she
looked down, that she might not see her pain reflected on my face, her
feelings guessed, her soul wooed by my soul; above all, not see the
sympathy of young love, ready like a
faithful dog to spring at the
throat of
whoever threatened his
mistress, without regard to the
assailant's strength or quality. At such cruel moments the count's air
of
superiority was
supreme. He thought he had triumphed over his wife,
and he pursued her with a hail of phrases which
repeated the one idea,
and were like the blows of an axe which fell with unvarying sound.
"Always the same?" I said, when the count left us to follow the
huntsman who came to speak to him.
"Always," answered Jacques.
"Always excellent, my son," she said, endeavoring to
withdraw Monsieur
de Mortsauf from the judgment of his children. "You see only the
present, you know nothing of the past;
therefore you cannot criticise
your father without doing him
injustice. But even if you had the pain
of
seeing that your father was to blame, family honor requires you to
bury such secrets in silence."
"How have the changes at the Cassine and the Rhetoriere answered?" I
asked, to
divert her mind from bitter thoughts.
"Beyond my expectations," she replied. "As soon as the buildings were
finished we found two excellent farmers ready to hire them; one at
four thousand five hundred francs, taxes paid; the other at five
thousand; both leases for fifteen years. We have already planted three
thousand young trees on the new farms. Manette's cousin is delighted
to get the Rabelaye; Martineau has taken the Baude. All OUR efforts
have been crowned with success. Clochegourde, without the reserved
land which we call the home-farm, and without the
timber and
vineyards, brings in nineteen thousand francs a year, and the
plantations are becoming
valuable. I am battling to let the home-farm
to Martineau, the
keeper, whose
eldest son can now take his place. He
offers three thousand francs if Monsieur de Mortsauf will build him a
farm-house at the Commanderie. We might then clear the approach to
Clochegourde, finish the proposed avenue to the main road, and have
only the
woodland and the vineyards to take care of ourselves. If the
king returns, OUR
pension will be restored; WE shall consent after
clashing a little with OUR wife's common-sense. Jacques' fortune will
then be
permanently secured. That result obtained, I shall leave
monsieur to lay by as much as he likes for Madeleine, though the king