calamity; when the town had come to an end, it inaugurated the
hamlet.'
'I, too, am glad of that,' said Jean-Marie.
'It should be the
temple of the humbler virtues,' responded the
Doctor with a savoury gusto. 'Perhaps one of the reasons why I
love my little
hamlet as I do, is that we have a similar history,
she and I. Have I told you that I was once rich?'
'I do not think so,' answered Jean-Marie. 'I do not think I should
have forgotten. I am sorry you should have lost your fortune.'
'Sorry?' cried the Doctor. 'Why, I find I have
scarce begun your
education after all. Listen to me! Would you rather live in the
old Gretz or in the new, free from the alarms of war, with the
green country at the door, without noise, passports, the exactions
of the soldiery, or the jangle of the curfew-bell to send us off to
bed by sundown?'
'I suppose I should prefer the new,' replied the boy.
'Precisely,' returned the Doctor; 'so do I. And, in the same way,
I prefer my present
moderate fortune to my former
wealth. Golden
mediocrity! cried the adorable ancients; and I
subscribe to their
enthusiasm. Have I not good wine, good food, good air, the fields
and the forest for my walk, a house, an
admirable wife, a boy whom
I protest I
cherish like a son? Now, if I were still rich, I
should indubitably make my
residence in Paris - you know Paris -
Paris and Paradise are not convertible terms. This pleasant noise
of the wind streaming among leaves changed into the grinding Babel
of the street, the
stupid glare of
plaster substituted for this
quiet pattern of greens and greys, the nerves shattered, the
digestion falsified - picture the fall! Already you
perceive the
consequences; the mind is stimulated, the heart steps to a
different
measure, and the man is himself no longer. I have
passionately
studied myself - the true business of
philosophy. I
know my
character as the
musician knows the ventages of his flute.
Should I return to Paris, I should ruin myself gambling; nay, I go
further - I should break the heart of my Anastasie with
infidelities.'
This was too much for Jean-Marie. That a place should so transform
the most excellent of men transcended his
belief. Paris, he
protested, was even an
agreeable place of
residence. 'Nor when I
lived in that city did I feel much difference,' he pleaded.
'What!' cried the Doctor. 'Did you not steal when you were there?'
But the boy could never be brought to see that he had done anything
wrong when he stole. Nor, indeed, did the Doctor think he had; but
that gentleman was never very scrupulous when in want of a retort.
'And now,' he concluded, 'do you begin to understand? My only
friends were those who ruined me. Gretz has been my
academy, my
sanatorium, my heaven of
innocent pleasures. If millions are
offered me, I wave them back: RETRO, SATHANAS! - Evil one, begone!
Fix your mind on my example;
despiseriches, avoid the debasing
influence of cities. Hygiene -
hygiene and mediocrity of fortune -
these be your watchwords during life!'
The Doctor's
system of
hygiene strikingly coincided with his
tastes; and his picture of the perfect life was a faithful
description of the one he was leading at the time. But it is easy
to
convince a boy, whom you supply with all the facts for the
discussion. And besides, there was one thing
admirable in the
philosophy, and that was the
enthusiasm of the
philosopher. There
was never any one more
vigorously determined to be pleased; and if
he was not a great logician, and so had no right to
convince the
intellect, he was certainly something of a poet, and had a
fascination to seduce the heart. What he could not
achieve in his
customary
humour of a
radiantadmiration of himself and his
circumstances, he sometimes effected in his fits of gloom.
'Boy,' he would say, 'avoid me to-day. If I were
superstitious, I
should even beg for an interest in your prayers. I am in the black
fit; the evil spirit of King Saul, the hag of the merchant Abudah,
the personal devil of the mediaeval monk, is with me - is in me,'
tapping on his breast. 'The vices of my nature are now uppermost;
innocent pleasures woo me in vain; I long for Paris, for my
wallowing in the mire. See,' he would continue, producing a
handful of silver, 'I denude myself, I am not to be trusted with
the price of a fare. Take it, keep it for me, squander it on
deleterious candy, throw it in the deepest of the river - I will
homologate your action. Save me from that part of myself which I
disown. If you see me
falter, do not
hesitate; if necessary, wreck
the train! I speak, of course, by a parable. Any
extremity were
better than for me to reach Paris alive.'
Doubtless the Doctor enjoyed these little scenes, as a
variation in
his part; they represented the Byronic element in the somewhat
artificial
poetry of his
existence; but to the boy, though he was
dimly aware of their theatricality, they represented more. The
Doctor made perhaps too little, the boy possibly too much, of the
reality and
gravity of these temptations.
One day a great light shone for Jean-Marie. 'Could not
riches be
used well?' he asked.
'In theory, yes,' replied the Doctor. 'But it is found in
experience that no one does so. All the world imagine they will be
exceptional when they grow
wealthy; but possession is debasing, new
desires spring up; and the silly taste for ostentation eats out the
heart of pleasure.'
'Then you might be better if you had less,' said the boy.
'Certainly not,' replied the Doctor; but his voice quavered as he
spoke.
'Why?' demanded
pitiless innocence.
Doctor Desprez saw all the colours of the
rainbow in a moment; the
stable
universe appeared to be about capsizing with him.
'Because,' said he - affecting
deliberation after an
obvious pause
- 'because I have formed my life for my present
income. It is not
good for men of my years to be
violently dissevered from their
habits.'
That was a sharp brush. The Doctor breathed hard, and fell into
taciturnity for the afternoon. As for the boy, he was delighted
with the
resolution of his doubts; even wondered that he had not
foreseen the
obvious and conclusive answer. His faith in the
Doctor was a stout piece of goods. Desprez was inclined to be a
sheet in the wind's eye after dinner, especially after Rhone wine,
his favourite
weakness. He would then remark on the
warmth of his
feeling for Anastasie, and with inflamed cheeks and a loose,
flustered smile,
debate upon all sorts of topics, and be
feebly and
indiscreetly witty. But the adopted stable-boy would not permit
himself to
entertain a doubt that savoured of
ingratitude. It is
quite true that a man may be a second father to you, and yet take
too much to drink; but the best natures are ever slow to accept
such truths.
The Doctor
thoroughly possessed his heart, but perhaps he
exaggerated his influence over his mind. Certainly Jean-Marie
adopted some of his master's opinions, but I have yet to learn that
he ever surrendered one of his own. Convictions existed in him by
divine right; they were
virgin, unwrought, the brute metal of
decision. He could add others indeed, but he could not put away;
neither did he care if they were
perfectly agreed among themselves;
and his
spiritual pleasures had nothing to do with turning them
over or justifying them in words. Words were with him a mere
accomplishment, like dancing. When he was by himself, his
pleasures were almost
vegetable. He would slip into the woods
towards Acheres, and sit in the mouth of a cave among grey birches.
His soul stared straight out of his eyes; he did not move or think;
sunlight, thin shadows moving in the wind, the edge of firs against
the sky, occupied and bound his faculties. He was pure unity, a
spirit
wholly abstracted. A single mood filled him, to which all
the objects of sense contributed, as the colours of the spectrum
merge and disappear in white light.
So while the Doctor made himself drunk with words, the adopted
stable-boy bemused himself with silence.
CHAPTER V. TREASURE TROVE.