one! Like me, you are alone on earth."
She sighed and wept. The
graceful pose of her child lying on her knees
made her smile sadly. She looked at him long, tasting one of those
pleasures which are a secret between mothers and God. Etienne's
weakness was so great that until he was a year and a half old she had
never dared to take him out of doors; but now the faint color which
tinted the whiteness of his skin like the petals of a wild rose,
showed that life and health were already there.
One morning the
countess, giving herself up to the glad joy of all
mothers when their first child walks for the first time, was playing
with Etienne on the floor when suddenly she heard the heavy step of a
man upon the boards. Hardly had she risen with a
movement of
involuntary surprise, when the count stood before her. She gave a cry,
but endeavored
instantly to undo that
involuntary wrong by going up to
him and
offering her
forehead for a kiss.
"Why not have sent me notice of your return?" she said.
"My
reception would have been more
cordial, but less frank," he
answered bitterly.
Suddenly he saw the child. The
evident health in which he found it
wrung from him a
gesture of surprise mingled with fury. But he
repressed his anger, and began to smile.
"I bring good news," he said. "I have received the
governorship of
Champagne and the king's promise to be made duke and peer. Moreover,
we have inherited a
princely fortune from your cousin; that cursed
Huguenot, Georges de Chaverny is killed."
The
countess turned pale and dropped into a chair. She saw the secret
of the
devilish smile on her husband's face.
"Monsieur," she said in a voice of
emotion, "you know well that I
loved my cousin Chaverny. You will answer to God for the pain you
inflict upon me."
At these words the eye of the count glittered; his lips trembled, but
he could not utter a word, so
furious was he; he flung his
dagger on
the table with such
violence that the metal resounded like a thunder-
clap.
"Listen to me," he said in his strongest voice, "and remember my
words. I will never see or hear the little
monster you hold in your
arms. He is your child, and not mine; there is nothing of me in him.
Hide him, I say, hide him from my sight, or--"
"Just God!" cried the
countess, "protect us!"
"Silence!" said her husband. "If you do not wish me to throttle him,
see that I never find him in my way."
"Then," said the
countessgathering strength to oppose her tyrant,
"swear to me that if you never meet him you will do nothing to injure
him. Can I trust your word as a
nobleman for that?"
"What does all this mean?" said the count.
"If you will not swear, kill us now together!" cried the
countess,
falling on her knees and pressing her child to her breast.
"Rise, madame. I give you my word as a man of honor to do nothing
against the life of that cursed child, provided he lives among the
rocks between the sea and the house, and never crosses my path. I will
give him that fisherman's house down there for his
dwelling, and the
beach for a
domain. But woe betide him if I ever find him beyond those
limits."
The
countess began to weep.
"Look at him!" she said. "He is your son."
"Madame!"
At that word, the frightened mother carried away the child whose heart
was
beating like that of a bird caught in its nest. Whether innocence
has a power which the hardest men cannot escape, or whether the count
regretted his
violence and feared to
plunge into
despair a creature so
necessary to his pleasures and also to his
worldlyprosperity, it is
certain that his voice was as soft as it was possible to make it when
his wife returned.
"Jeanne, my dear," he said, "do not be angry with me; give me your
hand. One never knows how to trust you women. I return, bringing you
fresh honors and more
wealth, and yet, tete-Dieu! you receive me like
an enemy. My new
government will
oblige me to make long absences until
I can exchange it for that of Lower Normandy; and I request, my dear,
that you will show me a pleasant face while I am here."
The
countess understood the meaning of the words, the feigned softness
of which could no longer
deceive her.
"I know my duty," she replied in a tone of
sadness which the count
mistook for tenderness.
The timid creature had too much
purity and
dignity to try, as some
clever women would have done, to
govern the count by putting
calculation into her conduct,--a sort of prostitution by which noble
souls feel degraded. Silently she turned away, to
console her
despairwith Etienne.
"Tete-Dieu! shall I never be loved?" cried the count,
seeing the tears
in his wife's eyes as she left the room.
Thus
incessantly threatened, motherhood became to the poor woman a
passion which assumed the
intensity that women put into their guilty
affections. By a
species of occult
communion, the secret of which is
in the hearts of mothers, the child
comprehended the peril that
threatened him and dreaded the approach of his father. The terrible
scene of which he had been a
witness remained in his memory, and
affected him like an
illness; at the sound of the count's step his
features
contracted, and the mother's ear was not so alert as the
instinct of her child. As he grew older this
faculty created by
terrorincreased, until, like the
savages of America, Etienne could
distinguish his father's step and hear his voice at
immense distances.
To
witness the
terror with which the count inspired her thus shared by
her child made Etienne the more precious to the
countess; their union
was so strengthened that like two flowers on one twig they bent to the
same wind, and lifted their heads with the same hope. In short, they
were one life.
When the count again left home Jeanne was
pregnant. This time she gave
birth in due season, and not without great
suffering, to a stout boy,
who soon became the living image of his father, so that the
hatred of
the count for his first-born was increased by this event. To save her
cherished child the
countess agreed to all the plans which her husband
formed for the happiness and
wealth of his second son, whom he named
Maximilien. Etienne was to be made a
priest, in order to leave the
property and titles of the house of Herouville to his younger brother.
At that cost the poor mother believed she ensured the safety of her
hated child.
No two brothers were ever more
unlike than Etienne and Maximilien. The
younger's taste was all for noise,
violent exercises, and war, and the
count felt for him the same
excessive love that his wife felt for
Etienne. By a tacit
compact each parent took
charge of the child of
their heart. The duke (for about this time Henri IV.
rewarded the
services of the Seigneur d'Herouville with a dukedom), not wishing, he
said, to
fatigue his wife, gave the nursing of the youngest boy to a
stout peasant-woman chosen by Beauvouloir, and announced his
determination to bring up the child in his own manner. He gave him, as
time went on, a holy
horror of books and study; taught him the
mechanical knowledge required by a military
career, made him a good
rider, a good shot with an arquebuse, and skilful with his
dagger.
When the boy was big enough he took him to hunt, and let him acquire
the
savage language, the rough manners, the
bodily strength, and the
vivacity of look and speech which to his mind were the attributes of
an
accomplished man. The boy became, by the time he was twelve years
old, a lion-cub ill-trained, as
formidable in his way as the father
himself, having free rein to tyrannize over every one, and using the
privilege.
Etienne lived in the little house, or lodge, near the sea, given to
him by his father, and fitted up by the
duchess with some of the
comforts and enjoyments to which he had a right. She herself spent the
greater part of her time there. Together the mother and child roamed
over the rocks and the shore, keeping
strictly within the limits of
the boy's
domain of beach and shells, of moss and pebbles. The boy's
terror of his father was so great that, like the Lapp, who lives and
dies in his snow, he made a native land of his rocks and his cottage,
and was terrified and
uneasy if he passed his frontier.
The
duchess,
knowing her child was not fitted to find happiness except
in some
humble and
retiredsphere, did not regret the fate that was