thus imposed upon him; she used this enforced
vocation to prepare him
for a noble life of study and science, and she brought to the chateau
Pierre de Sebonde as tutor to the future
priest. Nevertheless, in
spite of the tonsure imposed by the will of the father, she was
determined that Etienne's education should not be wholly
ecclesiastical, and took pains to secularize it. She employed
Beauvouloir to teach him the mysteries of natural science; she herself
superintended his studies, regulating them according to her child's
strength, and enlivening them by teaching him Italian, and revealing
to him little by little the
poetic beauties of that language. While
the duke rode off with Maximilien to the forest and the wild-boars at
the risk of his life, Jeanne wandered with Etienne in the milky way of
Petrarch's sonnets, or the
mightylabyrinth of the Divina Comedia.
Nature had endowed the youth, in
compensation for his infirmities,
with so melodious a voice that to hear him sing was a constant
delight; his mother taught him music, and their tender, melancholy
songs, accompanied by a mandolin, were the favorite recreation
promised as a
reward for some more
arduous study required by the Abbe
de Sebonde. Etienne listened to his mother with a passionate
admiration she had never seen except in the eyes of Georges de
Chaverny. The first time the poor woman found a memory of her girlhood
in the long, slow look of her child, she covered him with kisses; and
she blushed when Etienne asked her why she seemed to love him better
at that moment than ever before. She answered that every hour made him
dearer to her. She found in the training of his soul, and in the
culture of his mind, pleasures akin to those she had tasted in feeding
him with her milk. She put all her pride and self-love into making him
superior to herself, and not in ruling him. Hearts without tenderness
covet
dominion, but a true love treasures abnegation, that
virtue of
strength. When Etienne could not at first
comprehend a demonstration,
a theme, a theory, the poor mother, who was present at the lessons,
seemed to long to infuse knowledge, as
formerly she had given
nourishment at the child's least cry. And then, what joy suffused her
eyes when Etienne's mind seized the true sense of things and
appropriated it. She proved, as Pierre de Sebonde said, that a mother
is a dual being whose sensations cover two existences.
"Ah, if some woman as
loving as I could infuse into him
hereafter the
life of love, how happy he might be!" she often thought.
But the fatal interests which consigned Etienne to the
priesthood
returned to her mind, and she kissed the hair that the
scissors of the
Church were to shear, leaving her tears upon them. Still, in spite of
the
unjustcompact she had made with the duke, she could not see
Etienne in her visions of the future as
priest or
cardinal; and the
absolute
forgetfulness of the father as to his first-born, enabled her
to
postpone the moment of putting him into Holy Orders.
"There is time enough," she said to herself.
The day came when all her cares, inspired by a
sentiment which seemed
to enter into the flesh of her son and give it life, had their
reward.
Beauvouloir--that
blessed man whose teachings had proved so precious
to the child, and whose
anxious glance at that frail idol had so often
made the
duchess tremble--declared that Etienne was now in a condition
to live long years, provided no
violentemotion came to convulse his
delicate body. Etienne was then sixteen.
At that age he was just five feet, a
height he never passed. His skin,
as
transparent and satiny as that of a little girl, showed a delicate
tracery of blue veins; its whiteness was that of
porcelain. His eyes,
which were light blue and ineffably gentle, implored the
protection of
men and women; that beseeching look fascinated before the
melody of
his voice was heard to complete the charm. True
modesty was in every
feature. Long
chestnut hair, smooth and very fine, was parted in the
middle of his head into two bandeaus which curled at their extremity.
His pale and hollow cheeks, his pure brow, lined with a few furrows,
expressed a condition of
suffering which was
painful to
witness. His
mouth, always
gracious, and adorned with very white teeth, wore the
sort of fixed smile which we often see on the lips of the dying. His