dispatching it, which he did
apparently without compunction,
notwith
standing that the poor brute had served him well in its
way. He cut up and smoke-dried the flesh, and the intolerable
pangs of
hunger compelled me to share the
loathsome food with
him. We were not only indecent, it seemed to me, but cannibals
to feed on the
faithful servant that had been our
butcher. "But
what does it matter?" I argued with myself. "All flesh, clean
and
unclean, should be, and is,
equally abhorrent to me, and
killing animals a kind of murder. But now I find myself
constrained to do this evil thing that good may come. Only to
live I take it now--this
hateful strength-giver that will enable
me to reach Rima, and the purer, better life that is to be."
During all that time, when we toiled onwards
league after
leaguein silence, or sat silent by the
nightly fire, I thought of many
things; but the past, with which I had
definitely broken, was
little in my mind. Rima was still the source and centre of all
my thoughts; from her they rose, and to her returned. Thinking,
hoping, dreaming, sustained me in those dark days and nights of
pain and privation. Imagination was the bread that gave me
strength, the wine that exhilarated. What sustained old Nuflo's
mind I know not. Probably it was like a chrysalis, dormant,
independent of sustenance; the bright-winged image to be called
at some future time to life by a great shouting of
angelic hosts
and noises of
musical instruments slept secure, coffined in that
dull, gross nature.
The old
beloved wood once more! Never did his native village in
some mountain
valley seem more beautiful to the Switzer,
returning, war-worn, from long
voluntary exile, than did that
blue cloud on the horizon--the forest where Rima dwelt, my bride,
my beautiful--and
towering over it the dark cone of Ytaioa, now
seem to my hungry eyes! How near at last--how near! And yet the
two or three intervening
leagues to be traversed so slowly, step
by step--how vast the distance seemed! Even at far Riolama, when
I set out on my return, I scarcely seemed so far from my love.
This maddening
impatience told on my strength, which was small,
and hindered me. I could not run nor even walk fast; old Nuflo,
slow, and sober, with no flame consuming his heart, was more than
my equal in the end, and to keep up with him was all I could do.
At the finish he became silent and
cautious, first entering the
belt of trees leading away through the low range of hills at the
southern
extremity of the wood. For a mile or
upwards we trudged
on in the shade; then I began to recognize familiar ground, the
old trees under which I had walked or sat, and knew that a
hundred yards further on there would be a first
glimpse of the
palm-leaf
thatch. Then all
weaknessforsook me; with a low cry
of
passionatelonging and joy I rushed on ahead; but I strained
my eyes in vain for a sight of that sweet shelter; no patch of
pale yellow colour appeared
amidst the
universal verdure of
bushes, creepers, and trees--trees beyond trees, trees
toweringabove trees.
For some moments I could not realize it. No, I had surely made a
mistake, the house had not stood on that spot; it would appear in
sight a little further on. I took a few
uncertain steps onwards,
and then again stood still, my brain reeling, my heart swelling
nigh to bursting with
anguish. I was still
standingmotionless,
with hand pressed to my breast, when Nuflo
overtook me. "Where
is it--the house?" I stammered, pointing with my hand. All his
stolidity seemed gone now; he was trembling too, his lips
silently moving. At length he spoke: "They have come--the
children of hell have been here, and have destroyed everything!"
"Rima! What has become of Rima?" I cried; but without replying
he walked on, and I followed.
The house, we soon found, had been burnt down. Not a stick
remained. Where it had stood a heap of black ashes covered the
ground--nothing more. But on looking round we could discover no
sign of human beings having recently visited the spot. A rank
growth of grass and herbage now covered the once clear space
surrounding the site of the
dwelling, and the ash-heap looked as
if it had been lying there for a month at least. As to what had
become of Rima the old man could say no word. He sat down on the
ground overwhelmed at the
calamity: Runi's people had been there,
he could not doubt it, and they would come again, and he could
only look for death at their hands. The thought that Rima had
perished, that she was lost, was unendurable. It could not be!
No doubt the Indians tract come and destroyed the house during
our
absence; but she had returned, and they had gone away again
to come no more. She would be somewhere in the forest, perhaps
not far off,
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impatientlywaiting our return. The old man stared
at me while I spoke; he appeared to be in a kind of stupor, and
made no reply: and at last, leaving him still sitting on the
ground, I went into the wood to look for Rima.
As I walked there,
occasionally stopping to peer into some
shadowy glade or
opening, and to listen, I was tempted again and
again to call the name of her I sought aloud; and still the fear
that by so doing I might bring some
hidden danger on myself,
perhaps on her, made me silent. A strange
melancholy rested on
the forest, a quietude seldom broken by a distant bird's cry.
How, I asked myself, should I ever find her in that wide forest
while I moved about in that silent,
cautious way? My only hope
was that she would find me. It occurred to me that the most
likely place to seek her would be some of the old haunts known to
us both, where we had talked together. I thought first of the
mora tree, where she had
hidden herself from me, and
thither I
directed my steps. About this tree, and within its shade, I
lingered for
upwards of an hour; and, finally, casting my eyes up
into the great dim cloud of green and
purple leaves, I softly
called: "Rima, Rima, if you have seen me, and have concealed
yourself from me in your hiding-place, in mercy answer me--in
mercy come down to me now!" But Rima answered not, nor threw
down any red glowing leaves to mock me: only the wind, high up,
whispered something low and
sorrowful in the
foliage; and
turning, I wandered away at
random into the deeper shadows.
By and by I was startled by the long,
piercing cry of a wildfowl,
sounding
strangely loud in the silence; and no sooner was the air
still again than it struck me that no bird had uttered that cry.
The Indian is a good mimic of animal voices, but practice had
made me able to
distinguish the true from the false bird-note.
For a minute or so I stood still, at a loss what to do, then
moved on again with greater
caution, scarcely breathing,
straining my sight to
pierce the
shadowy depths. All at once I
gave a great start, for directly before me, on the projecting
root in the deeper shade of a tree, sat a dark,
motionless human
form. I stood still, watching it for some time, not yet knowing
that it had seen me, when all doubts were put to
flight by the
form rising and
deliberately advancing--a naked Indian with a
zabatana in his hand. As he came up out of the deeper shade I
recognized Piake, the surly elder brother of my friend Kua-ko.
It was a great shock to meet him in the wood, but I had no time
to
reflect just then. I only remembered that I had deeply
offended him and his people, that they probably looked on me as
an enemy, and would think little of
taking my life. It was too
late to attempt to escape by
flight; I was spent with my long
journey and the many privations I had suffered, while he stood
there in his full strength with a
deadlyweapon in his hand.
Nothing was left but to put a bold face on, greet him in a
friendly way, and
invent some plausible story to
account for my
action in
secretly leaving the village.
He was now
standing still,
silentlyregarding me, and glancing
round I saw that he was not alone: at a distance of about forty
yards on my right hand two other dusky forms appeared watching me
from the deep shade.
"Piake!" I cried, advancing three or four steps.