silent as we came through L'Houmeau. Do you know, I felt quite
uncomfortable----"
"You looked so beautiful, that I could not say anything," David
answered candidly.
"Then, just now I am not so beautiful?" inquired she.
"It is not that," he said; "but I was so happy to have this walk alone
with you, that----" he stopped short in
confusion, and looked at the
hillside and the road to Saintes.
"If the walk is any pleasure to you, I am
delighted; for I owe you an
evening, I think, when you have given up yours for me. When you
refused to go to Mme. de Bargeton's, you were quite as
generous as
Lucien when he made the demand at the risk of vexing her."
"No, not
generous, only wise," said David. "And now that we are quite
alone under the sky, with no listeners except the bushes and the reeds
by the edge of the Charente, let me tell you about my
anxiety as to
Lucien's present step, dear Eve. After all that I have just said, I
hope that you will look on my fears as a
refinement of friendship. You
and your mother have done all that you could to put him above his
social position; but when you
stimulated his
ambition, did you not
unthinkingly
condemn him to a hard struggle? How can he maintain
himself in the society to which his tastes
incline him? I know Lucien;
he likes to reap, he does not like toil; it is his nature. Social
claims will take up the whole of his time, and for a man who has
nothing but his brains, time is capital. He likes to shine; society
will
stimulate his desires until no money will satisfy them; instead
of earning money, he will spend it. You have accustomed him to believe
in his great powers, in fact, but the world at large declines to
believe in any man's superior
intellect until he has achieved some
signal success. Now success in
literature is only won in
solitude and
by dogged work. What will Mme. de Bargeton give your brother in return
for so many days spent at her feet? Lucien has too much spirit to
accept help from her; and he cannot afford, as we know, to cultivate
her society, twice ruinous as it is for him. Sooner or later that
woman will throw over this dear brother of ours, but not before she
has spoiled him for hard work, and given him a taste for
luxury and a
contempt for our humdrum life. She will develop his love of enjoyment,
his
inclination for
idleness, that debauches a
poetic soul. Yes, it
makes me tremble to think that this great lady may make a
plaything of
Lucien. If she cares for him
sincerely, he will forget everything else
for her; or if she does not love him, she will make him
unhappy, for
he is wild about her."
"You have sent a chill of dread through my heart," said Eve, stopping
as they reached the weir. "But so long as mother is strong enough for
her tiring life, so long as I live, we shall earn enough, perhaps,
between us to keep Lucien until success comes. My courage will never
fail," said Eve, brightening. "There is no
hardship in work when we
work for one we love; it is not
drudgery. It makes me happy to think
that I toil so much, if indeed it is toil, for him. Oh, do not be in
the least afraid, we will earn money enough to send Lucien into the
great world. There lies his road to success."
"And there lies his road to ruin," returned David. "Dear Eve, listen
to me. A man needs an independent fortune, or the
sublime cynicism of
poverty, for the slow
execution of great work. Believe me, Lucien's
horror of privation is so great, the savor of banquets, the
incense of
success is so sweet in his nostrils, his self-love has grown so much
in Mme. de Bargeton's boudoir, that he will do anything desperate
sooner than fall back, and you will never earn enough for his
requirements.
"Then you are only a false friend to him!" Eve cried in
despair, "or
you would not
discourage us in this way."
"Eve! Eve!" cried David, "if only I could be a brother to Lucien! You
alone can give me that title; he could accept anything from me then; I
should claim the right of devoting my life to him with the love that
hallows your self-sacrifice, but with some
worldlywisdom too. Eve, my
darling, give Lucien a store from which he need not blush to draw! His
brother's purse will be like his own, will it not? If you only knew
all my thoughts about Lucien's position! If he means to go to Mme. de