indispensabletrifle for her education.
In 1802 the Abbe died, before the marriage of his dear child, a
marriage which he,
doubtless, would never have advised. The old father
found his daughter a great care now that the Abbe was gone. The high-
spirited girl, with nothing else to do, was sure to break into
rebellion against his niggardliness, and he felt quite
unequal to the
struggle. Like all young women who leave the appointed track of
woman's life, Nais had her own opinions about marriage, and had no
great
inclinationthereto. She
shrank from submitting herself, body
and soul, to the
feeble, undignified specimens of mankind whom she had
chanced to meet. She wished to rule, marriage meant
obedience; and
between
obedience to
coarse caprices and a mind without
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indulgence for
her tastes, and
flight with a lover who should please her, she would
not have hesitated for a moment.
M. de Negrepelisse maintained sufficient of the
tradition of birth to
dread a mesalliance. Like many another parent, he
resolved to marry
his daughter, not so much on her
account as for his own peace of mind.
A noble or a country gentleman was the man for him, somebody not too
clever,
incapable of haggling over the
account of the trust; stupid
enough and easy enough to allow Nais to have her own way, and
disinterested enough to take her without a dowry. But where to look
for a son-in-law to suit father and daughter
equally well, was the
problem. Such a man would be the phoenix of sons-in-law.
To M. de Negrepelisse pondering over the eligible bachelors of the
province with these double requirements in his mind. M. de Bargeton
seemed to be the only one who answered to this
description. M. de
Bargeton, aged forty,
considerably shattered by the amorous
dissipations of his youth, was generally held to be a man of
remarkably
feebleintellect; but he had just the exact
amount of
commonsense required for the
management of his fortune, and breeding
sufficient to
enable him to avoid blunders or blatant follies in
society in Angouleme. In the bluntest manner M. de Negrepelisse
pointed out the
negativevirtues of the model husband designed for his
daughter, and made her see the way to manage him so as to secure her
own happiness. So Nais married the
bearer of arms, two hundred years
old already, for the Bargeton arms are blazoned thus: the first or,
three attires gules; the second, three ox's heads cabossed, two and
one, sable; the third, barry of six, azure and argent, in the first,
six shells or, three, two, and one. Provided with a chaperon, Nais
could steer her fortunes as she chose under the style of the firm, and
with the help of such connections as her wit and beauty would obtain
for her in Paris. Nais was enchanted by the
prospect of such liberty.
M. de Bargeton was of the opinion that he was making a
brilliantmarriage, for he expected that in no long while M. de Negrepelisse
would leave him the estates which he was rounding out so lovingly; but
to an unprejudiced
spectator it certainly seemed as though the duty of
writing the bridegroom's
epitaph might devolve upon his father-in-law.
By this time Mme. de Bargeton was thirty-six years old and her husband
fifty-eight. The disparity in age was the more
startling since M. de
Bargeton looked like a man of seventy,
whereas his wife looked
scarcely half her age. She could still wear rose-color, and her hair
hanging loose upon her shoulders. Although their
income did not exceed
twelve thousand francs, they ranked among the half-dozen largest
fortunes in the old city, merchants and officials excepted; for M. and
Mme. de Bargeton were obliged to live in Angouleme until such time as
Mme. de Bargeton's
inheritance should fall in and they could go to
Paris. Meanwhile they were bound to be
attentive to old M. de
Negrepelisse (who kept them
waiting so long that his son-in-law in
fact predeceased him), and Nais'
brilliantintellectual gifts, and the
wealth that lay like undiscovered ore in her nature, profited her
nothing, underwent the transforming operation of Time and changed to
absurdities. For our absurdities spring, in fact, for the most part,
from the good in us, from some
faculty or quality abnormally
developed. Pride, untempered by
intercourse with the great world
becomes stiff and starched by
contact with petty things; in a loftier
moral
atmosphere it would have grown to noble magnanimity. Enthusiasm,
that
virtue within a
virtue, forming the saint, inspiring the
devotionhidden from all eyes and glowing out upon the world in verse, turns to
exaggeration, with the
trifles of a narrow
existence for its object.
Far away from the centres of light shed by great minds, where the air
is quick with thought, knowledge stands still, taste is corrupted like
stagnant water, and
passion dwindles, frittered away upon the
infinitely small objects which it strives to exalt. Herein lies the
secret of the
avarice and tittle-tattle that
poisonprovincial life.
The contagion of narrow-mindedness and meanness affects the noblest
natures; and in such ways as these, men born to be great, and women
who would have been
charming if they had fallen under the forming
influence of greater minds, are balked of their lives.
Here was Mme. de Bargeton, for
instance, smiting the lyre for every
trifle, and publishing her emotions indiscriminately to her
circle. As
a matter of fact, when sensations
appeal to an
audience of one, it is
better to keep them to ourselves. A
sunset certainly is a glorious
poem; but if a woman describes it, in high-sounding words, for the
benefit of
matter-of-fact people, is she not
ridiculous? There are
pleasures which can only be felt to the full when two souls meet, poet
and poet, heart and heart. She had a trick of using high-sounding
phrases, interlarded with exaggerated expressions, the kind of stuff
ingeniously nicknamed tartines by the French journalist, who furnishes
a daily supply of the
commodity for a public that daily performs the
difficult feat of swallowing it. She squandered superlatives
recklessly in her talk, and the smallest things took giant
proportions. It was at this period of her
career that she began to
type-ize, individualize, synthesize, dramatize, superiorize, analyze,
poetize, angelize, neologize, tragedify, prosify, and colossify--you
must
violate the laws of language to find words to express the new-
fangled whimsies in which even women here and there
indulge. The heat
of her language communicated itself to the brain, and the dithyrambs
on her lips were
spoken out of the
abundance of her heart. She
palpitated, swooned, and went into ecstasies over anything and
everything, over the
devotion of a sister of Charity, and the
execution of the brothers Fauchet, over M. d'Arlincourt's Ipsiboe,
Lewis' Anaconda, or the escape of La Valette, or the presence of mind
of a lady friend who put burglars to
flight by imitating a man's
voice. Everything was
heroic,
extraordinary, strange, wonderful, and
divine. She would work herself into a state of excitement,
indignation, or
depression; she soared to heaven, and sank again,
gazed at the sky, or looked to earth; her eyes were always filled with
tears. She wore herself out with
chronicadmiration, and wasted her
strength on curious dislikes. Her mind ran on the Pasha of Janina; she
would have liked to try conclusions with him in his seraglio, and had
a great notion of being sewn in a sack and thrown into the water. She
envied that blue-stocking of the desert, Lady Hester Stanhope; she
longed to be a sister of Saint Camilla and tend the sick and die of
yellow fever in a hospital at Barcelona; 'twas a high, a noble
destiny! In short, she thirsted for any
draught but the clear spring
water of her own life, flowing
hidden among green pastures. She adored
Byron and Jean-Jacques Rousseau, or anybody else with a
picturesque or
dramatic
career. Her tears were ready to flow for every misfortune;
she sang paeans for every
victory. She sympathized with the fallen
Napoleon, and with Mehemet Ali, massacring the foreign usurpers of
Egypt. In short, any kind of
genius was accommodated with an aureole,
and she was fully persuaded that
gifted immortals lived on
incense and
light.
A good many people looked upon her as a
harmlesslunatic, but in these
extravagances of hers a keener
observer surely would have seen the
broken fragments of a
magnificentedifice that had crumbled into ruin
before it was completed, the stones of a
heavenly Jerusalem--love, in
short, without a lover. And this was indeed the fact.
The story of the first eighteen years of Mme. de Bargeton's married
life can be summed up in a few words. For a long while she lived upon
herself and distant hopes. Then, when she began to see that their
narrow
income put the longed-for life in Paris quite out of the
question, she looked about her at the people with whom her life must
be spent, and shuddered at her
loneliness. There was not a single man
who could
inspire the
madness to which women are prone when they
despair of a life become stale and
unprofitable in the present, and
with no
outlook for the future. She had nothing to look for, nothing
to expect from chance, for there are lives in which chance plays no
part. But when the Empire was in the full
noonday of glory, and
Napoleon was sending the flower of his troops to the Peninsula, her
disappointed hopes revived. Natural
curiosity prompted her to make an
effort to see the heroes who were conquering Europe in
obedience to a
word from the Emperor in the order of the day; the heroes of a modern
time who outdid the mythical feats of paladins of old. The cities of
France, however avaricious or refractory, must perforce do honor to
the Imperial Guard, and mayors and prefects went out to meet them with
set speeches as if the conquerors had been crowned kings. Mme. de