own campfire. In the field he
pointed out game that I did not
see, and waited imperturbably the result of my shot.
As I before stated, the result of that shot for the first five
days was very apt to be nil. This, at the time, puzzled and
grieved me a lot. Occasionally I looked at Memba Sasa to catch
some sign of
sympathy,
disgust,
contempt, or-
rarely-triumph at a
lucky shot. Nothing. He
gently but
firmly took away my rifle,
reloaded it, and handed it back; then waited
respectfully for my
next move. He knew no English, and I no Swahili.
But as time went on this attitude changed. I was armed with the
new Springfield rifle, a
weapon with 2,700 feet
velocity, and
with a marvellously flat trajectory. This commanding advantage,
combined with a very long
familiarity with firearms, enabled me
to do some fairish shooting, after the strangeness of these new
conditions had been mastered. Memba Sasa began to take a dawning
interest in me as a possible source of pride. We began to develop
between us a means of
communication. I set myself
deliberately to
learn his language, and after he had
cautiously determined that I
really meant it, he took the greatest pains-always gravely-to
teach me. A more human feeling
sprang up between us.
But we had still the final test to undergo-that of danger and
the tight corner.
In close quarters the gunbearer has the hardest job in the world.
I have the most
profound respect for his
absolute courage. Even
to a man armed and
privileged to shoot and defend himself, a
charging lion is an awesome thing, requiring a certain
amount of
coolness and
resolution to face
effectively. Think of the
gunbearer at his elbow, depending not on himself but on the
courage and
coolness of another. He cannot do one
solitary thing
to defend himself. To bolt for the safety of a tree is to beg the
question completely, to brand himself as a shenzi forever; to
fire a gun in any circumstances is to beg the question also, for
the white man must be able to depend
absolutely on his second gun
in an
emergency. Those things are outside
consideration, even,
of any
respectable gunbearer. In
addition, he must keep cool. He
must see clearly in the thickest
excitement; must be ready
unobtrusively to pass up the second gun in the position most
convenient for immediate use, to seize the other and to perform
the finicky task of reloading
correctly while some rampageous
beast is raising particular
thunder a few yards away. All this in
absolutedependence on the
ability of his bwana to deal with the
situation. I can
confess very truly that once or twice that
little unobtrusive touch of Memba Sasa crouched close to my elbow
steadied me with the thought of how little right I-with a rifle
in my hand-had to be scared. And the best
compliment I ever
received I overheard by chance. I had wounded a lion when out by
myself, and had returned to camp for a heavier rifle and for
Memba Sasa to do the trailing. From my tent I overheard the
following conversation between Memba Sasa and the cook:
"The grass is high," said the cook. "Are you not afraid to go
after a wounded lion with only one white man?"
"My one white man is enough," replied Memba Sasa.
It is a quality of courage that I must
confess would be quite
beyond me-to depend entirely on the other fellow, and not at all
on myself. This courage is always
remarkable to me, even in the
case of the gunbearer who knows all about the man whose heels he
follows. But consider that of the gunbearer's first experience
with a stranger. The former has no idea of how the white man will
act; whether he will get
nervous, get
actually panicky, lose his
shooting
ability, and generally mess things up. Nevertheless, he
follows his master in, and he stands by. If the
hunter fails, the
gunbearer will probably die. To me it is rather fine: for he does
it, not from the personal
affection and
loyalty which will carry
men far, but from a sheer sense of duty and pride of caste. The
quiet pride of the really good men, like Memba Sasa, is easy to
understand.