head. He had leant his face on his hands,
unable at first to
bear the
intolerableemotion that surged like a whirlpool in his
heart, when that
well-known voice vibrated under the arcading,
with the sound of the sea for accompaniment.
Storm was without, and calm within the
sanctuary. Still that
rich voice poured out all its caressing notes; it fell like balm
on the lover's burning heart; it blossomed upon the air--the air
that a man would fain breathe more deeply to receive the
effluence of a soul breathed forth with love in the words of the
prayer. The alcalde coming to join his guest found him in tears
during the
elevation, while the nun was singing, and brought him
back to his house. Surprised to find so much piety in a French
military man, the
worthy magistrate invited the confessor of the
convent to meet his guest. Never had news given the General more
pleasure; he paid the ecclesiastic a good deal of attention at
supper, and confirmed his Spanish hosts in the high opinion they
had formed of his piety by a not
wholly disinterested respect.
He enquired with
gravity how many sisters there were in the
convent, and asked for particulars of its
endowment and revenues,
as if from
courtesy he wished to hear the good
priest discourse
on the subject most interesting to him. He informed himself as
to the manner of life led by the holy women. Were they allowed
to go out of the
convent, or to see
visitors?
"Senor," replied the
venerablechurchman, "the rule is strict.
A woman cannot enter a
monastery of the order of St. Bruno
without a special
permission from His Holiness, and the rule here
is
equally stringent. No man may enter a
convent of Barefoot
Carmelites unless he is a
priestspecially attached to the
services of the house by the Archbishop. None of the nuns may
leave the
convent; though the great Saint, St. Theresa, often
left her cell. The Visitor or the Mothers Superior can alone
give
permission, subject to an authorisation from the Archbishop,
for a nun to see a
visitor, and then e
specially in a case of
illness. Now we are one of the
principal houses, and
consequently we have a Mother Superior here. Among other foreign
sisters there is one Frenchwoman, Sister Theresa; she it is who
directs the music in the chapel."
"Oh!" said the General, with feigned surprise. "She must have
rejoiced over the
victory of the House of Bourbon."
"I told them the reason of the mass; they are always a little
bit inquisitive."
"But Sister Theresa may have interests in France. Perhaps she
would like to send some message or to hear news."
"I do not think so. She would have come to ask me."
"As a fellow-countryman, I should be quite curious to see her,"
said the General. "If it is possible, if the Lady Superior
consents, if----"
"Even at the
grating and in the Reverend Mother's presence, an
interview would be quite impossible for anybody
whatsoever; but,
strict as the Mother is, for a
deliverer of our holy religion and
the
throne of his Catholic Majesty, the rule might be relaxed for
a moment," said the confessor, blinking. "I will speak about
it."
"How old is Sister Theresa?" enquired the lover. He dared not
ask any questions of the
priest as to the nun's beauty.
"She does not
reckon years now," the good man answered, with a
simplicity that made the General shudder.
Next day before siesta, the confessor came to inform the French
General that Sister Theresa and the Mother consented to receive
him at the
grating in the parlour before vespers. The General
spent the siesta in pacing to and fro along the quay in the
noonday heat. Thither the
priest came to find him, and brought
him to the
convent by way of the
gallery round the cemetery.
Fountains, green trees, and rows of arcading maintained a cool
freshness in keeping with the place.
At the further end of the long
gallery the
priest led the way
into a large room divided in two by a
grating covered with a
brown curtain. In the first, and in some sort of public half of
the
apartment, where the confessor left the
newcomer, a wooden
bench ran round the wall, and two or three chairs, also of wood,
were placed near the
grating. The ceiling consisted of bare
un
ornamented joists and cross-beams of ilex wood. As the two
windows were both on the inner side of the
grating, and the dark
surface of the wood was a bad reflector, the light in the place
was so dim that you could scarcely see the great black crucifix,
the
portrait of Saint Theresa, and a picture of the Madonna which
adorned the grey parlour walls. Tumultuous as the General's
feelings were, they took something of the
melancholy of the
place. He grew calm in that
homely quiet. A sense of something
vast as the tomb took possession of him beneath the chill
unceiled roof. Here, as in the grave, was there not eternal
silence, deep peace--the sense of the Infinite? And besides this
there was the quiet and the fixed thought of the
cloister--a
thought which you felt like a subtle presence in the air, and in
the dim dusk of the room; an all-pervasive thought nowhere
definitely expressed, and looming the larger in the imagination;
for in the
cloister the great
saying, "Peace in the Lord,"
enters the least religious soul as a living force.
The monk's life is scarcely comprehensible. A man seems
confessed a weakling in a
monastery; he was born to act, to live
out a life of work; he is evading a man's
destiny in his cell.
But what man's strength, blended with
patheticweakness, is
implied by a woman's choice of the
convent life! A man may have
any number of motives for burying himself in a
monastery; for him
it is the leap over the
precipice. A woman has but one
motive--she is a woman still; she betrothes herself to a Heavenly
Bridegroom. Of the monk you may ask, "Why did you not fight
your battle?" But if a woman immures herself in the
cloister,
is there not always a
sublime battle fought first?
At length it seemed to the General that that still room, and the
lonely
convent in the sea, were full of thoughts of him. Love
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solemnity; yet surely a love still
faithful in
the breast of God was something
solemn, something more than a man
had a right to look for as things are in this nineteenth century?
The
infinitegrandeur of the situation might well produce an
effect upon the General's mind; he had
precisely enough
elevationof soul to forget
politics, honours, Spain, and society in Paris,
and to rise to the
height of this lofty
climax. And what in
truth could be more
tragic? How much must pass in the souls of
these two lovers, brought together in a place of strangers, on a
ledge of
granite in the sea; yet held apart by an intangible,
unsurmountable barrier! Try to imagine the man
saying within
himself, "Shall I
triumph over God in her heart?" when a faint
rustling sound made him
quiver, and the curtain was drawn aside.
Between him and the light stood a woman. Her face was
hidden by
the veil that drooped from the folds upon her head; she was
dressed according to the rule of the order in a gown of the
colour become proverbial. Her bare feet were
hidden; if the
General could have seen them, he would have known how appallingly
thin she had grown; and yet in spite of the thick folds of her
coarse gown, a mere covering and no
ornament, he could guess how
tears, and prayer, and
passion, and
loneliness had wasted the
woman before him.
An ice-cold hand, belonging, no doubt, to the Mother Superior,
held back the curtain. The General gave the enforced
witness of
their
interview a searching glance, and met the dark, inscrutable
gaze of an aged recluse. The Mother might have been a century
old, but the bright,
youthful eyes belied the wrinkles that
furrowed her pale face.
"Mme la Duchesse," he began, his voice
shaken with
emotion,
"does your
companion understand French?" The veiled figure
bowed her head at the sound of his voice.
"There is no
duchess here," she replied. "It is Sister
Theresa whom you see before you. She whom you call my
companionis my mother in God, my superior here on earth."
The words were so
meeklyspoken by the voice that sounded in