woman loved to
frenzy; a woman so carefully
hidden from the
world's eyes, so deeply buried in the bosom of the Church, that
hitherto the most
ingenious and
persistent efforts made by men
who brought great influence and
unusual powers to bear upon the
search had failed to find her. The
suspicion aroused in the
General's heart became all but a
certainty with the vague
reminiscence of a sad,
deliciousmelody, the air of Fleuve du
Tage. The woman he loved had played the prelude to the
ballad in
a boudoir in Paris, how often! and now this nun had chosen the
song to express an exile's
longing, amid the joy of those that
triumphed. Terrible sensation! To hope for the resurrection of
a lost love, to find her only to know that she was lost, to catch
a
mysteriousglimpse of her after five years--five years, in
which the pent-up
passion, chafing in an empty life, had grown
the mightier for every fruitless effort to satisfy it!
Who has not known, at least once in his life, what it is to lose
some precious thing; and after
hunting through his papers,
ransacking his memory, and turning his house
upside down; after
one or two days spent in vain search, and hope, and despair;
after a
prodigiousexpenditure of the liveliest
irritation of
soul, who has not known the ineffable pleasure of
finding that
all-important nothing which had come to be a king of monomania?
Very good. Now, spread that fury of search over five years; put
a woman, put a heart, put love in the place of the trifle;
transpose the monomania into the key of high
passion; and,
furthermore, let the seeker be a man of
ardenttemper, with a
lion's heart and a leonine head and mane, a man to
inspire awe
and fear in those who come in
contact with him--realise this, and
you may, perhaps, understand why the General walked
abruptly out
of the church when the first notes of a
ballad, which he used to
hear with a
rapture of delight in a gilt-panelled boudoir, began
to
vibrate along the aisles of the church in the sea.
The General walked away down the steep street which led to the
port, and only stopped when he could not hear the deep notes of
the organ. Unable to think of anything but the love which broke
out in
volcaniceruption, filling his heart with fire, he only
knew that the Te Deum was over when the Spanish
congregation came
pouring out of the church. Feeling that his behaviour and
attitude might seem
ridiculous, he went back to head the
procession, telling the alcalde and the
governor that, feeling
suddenly faint, he had gone out into the air. Casting about for
a plea for pro
longing his stay, it at once occurred to him to
make the most of this excuse, framed on the spur of the moment.
He declined, on a plea of increasing indisposition, to
preside at
the
banquet given by the town to the French officers, betook
himself to his bed, and sent a message to the Major-General, to
the effect that
temporaryillness obliged him to leave the
Colonel in command of the troops for the time being. This
commonplace but very plausible
stratagem relieved him of all
responsibility for the time necessary to carry out his plans.
The General, nothing if not "catholic and monarchical," took
occasion to inform himself of the hours of the services, and
manifested the greatest zeal for the
performance of his religious
duties, piety which caused no remark in Spain.
The very next day, while the di
vision was marching out of the
town, the General went to the
convent to be present at vespers.
He found an empty church. The townsfolk,
devout though they
were, had all gone down to the quay to watch the embarkation of
the troops. He felt glad to be the only man there. He tramped
noisily up the nave, clanking his spurs till the vaulted roof
rang with the sound; he coughed, he talked aloud to himself to
let the nuns know, and more particularly to let the
organist know
that if the troops were gone, one Frenchman was left behind. Was
this
singularwarning heard and understood? He thought so. It
seemed to him that in the Magnificat the organ made
responsewhich was borne to him on the vibrating air. The nun's spirit
found wings in music and fled towards him, throbbing with the
rhythmical pulse of the sounds. Then, in all its might, the
music burst forth and filled the church with
warmth. The Song of
Joy set apart in the
sublime liturgy of Latin Christianity to
express the exaltation of the soul in the presence of the glory
of the ever-living God, became the
utterance of a heart almost
terrified by its
gladness in the presence of the glory of a
mortal love; a love that yet lived, a love that had risen to
trouble her even beyond the grave in which the nun is laid, that
she may rise again as the bride of Christ.
The organ is in truth the grandest, the most
daring, the most
magnificent of all instruments invented by human
genius. It is a
whole
orchestra in itself. It can express anything in
responseto a
skilled touch. Surely it is in some sort a
pedestal on
which the soul poises for a
flight forth into space, essaying on
her course to draw picture after picture in an endless
series, to
paint human life, to cross the Infinite that separates heaven
from earth? And the longer a
dreamer listens to those giant
harmonies, the better he realises that nothing save this
hundred-voiced choir on earth can fill all the space between
kneeling men, and a God
hidden by the blinding light of the
Sanctuary. The music is the one
interpreter strong enough to
bear up the prayers of
humanity to heaven, prayer in its
omnipotent moods, prayer tinged by the
melancholy of many
different natures, coloured by meditative
ecstasy, upspringing
with the
impulse of repentance--blended with the
myriad fancies
of every creed. Yes. In those long vaulted aisles the melodies
inspired by the sense of things
divine are blent with a grandeur
unknown before, are decked with new glory and might. Out of the
dim
daylight, and the deep silence broken by the chanting of the
choir in
response to the
thunder of the organ, a veil is woven
for God, and the
brightness of His attributes shines through it.
And this
wealth of holy things seemed to be flung down like a
grain of
incense upon the
fragile altar raised to Love beneath
the
eternalthrone of a
jealous and avenging God. Indeed, in the
joy of the nun there was little of that awe and
gravity which
should harmonise with the
solemnities of the Magnificat. She had
enriched the music with
graceful variations,
earthlygladnessthrobbing through the
rhythm of each. In such brilliant
quivering notes some great
singer might
strive to find a voice
for her love, her melodies fluttered as a bird flutters about her
mate. There were moments when she seemed to leap back into the
past, to dally there now with
laughter, now with tears. Her
changing moods, as it were, ran riot. She was like a woman
excited and happy over her lover's return.
But at length, after the swaying fugues of delirium, after the
marvellous rendering of a
vision of the past, a revulsion swept
over the soul that thus found
utterance for itself. With a swift
transition from the major to the minor, the
organist told her
hearer of her present lot. She gave the story of long
melancholybroodings, of the slow course of her moral
malady. How day by
day she deadened the senses, how every night cut off one more
thought, how her heart was slowly reduced to ashes. The
sadnessdeepened shade after shade through
languid modulations, and in a
little while the echoes were pouring out a
torrent of grief.
Then on a sudden, high notes rang out like the voices of angels
singing together, as if to tell the lost but not forgotten lover
that their spirits now could only meet in heaven. Pathetic hope!
Then followed the Amen. No more Joy, no more tears in the air,
no
sadness, no regrets. The Amen was the return to God. The
final chord was deep,
solemn, even terrible; for the last
rumblings of the bass sent a
shiver through the
audience that
raised the hair on their heads; the nun shook out her veiling of
crepe, and seemed to sink again into the grave from which she had
risen for a moment. Slowly the reverberations died away; it
seemed as if the church, but now so full of light, had returned
to thick darkness.
The General had been caught up and borne
swiftly away by this
strong-winged spirit; he had followed the course of its
flightfrom
beginning to end. He understood to the fullest
extent the
imagery of that burning
symphony; for him the chords reached deep
and far. For him, as for the sister, the poem meant future,
present, and past. Is not music, and even opera music, a sort of
text, which a
susceptible or
poetictemper, or a sore and
stricken heart, may
expand as memories shall determine? If a
musician must needs have the heart of a poet, must not the
listener too be in a manner a poet and a lover to hear all that
lies in great music? Religion, love, and music--what are they