but a threefold expression of the same fact, of that
craving for
expansion which stirs in every noble soul. And these three forms
of
poetryascend to God, in whom all
passion on earth finds its
end. Wherefore the holy human
trinity finds a place amid the
infinite glories of God; of God, whom we always represent
surrounded with the fires of love and seistrons of gold--music
and light and
harmony. Is not He the Cause and the End of all
our strivings?
The French General guessed
rightly that here in the desert, on
this bare rock in the sea, the nun had seized upon music as an
outpouring of the
passion that still consumed her. Was this her
manner of
offering up her love as a sacrifice to God? Or was it
Love exultant in
triumph over God? The questions were hard to
answer. But one thing at least the General could not mistake--in
this heart, dead to the world, the fire of
passion burned as
fiercely as in his own.
Vespers over, he went back to the alcalde with whom he was
staying. In the all-absorbing joy which comes in such full
measure when a
satisfaction sought long and
painfully is attained
at last, he could see nothing beyond this--he was still loved!
In her heart love had grown in
loneliness, even as his love had
grown stronger as he surmounted one
barrier after another which
this woman had set between them! The glow of soul came to its
natural end. There followed a
longing to see her again, to
contend with God for her, to
snatch her away--a rash scheme,
which appealed to a
daring nature. He went to bed, when the meal
was over, to avoid questions; to be alone and think at his ease;
and he lay absorbed by deep thought till day broke.
He rose only to go to mass. He went to the church and knelt
close to the
screen, with his
foreheadtouching the curtain; he
would have torn a hole in it if he had been alone, but his host
had come with him out of
politeness, and the least imprudence
might
compromise the whole future of his love, and ruin the new
hopes.
The organ sounded, but it was another
player, and not the nun of
the last two days whose hands touched the keys. It was all
colourless and cold for the General. Was the woman he loved
prostrated by
emotion which wellnigh
overcame a strong man's
heart? Had she so fully realised and shared an
unchanged,
longed-for love, that now she lay dying on her bed in her cell?
While
innumerable thoughts of this kind perplexed his mind, the
voice of the woman he worshipped rang out close beside him; he
knew its clear resonant soprano. It was her voice, with that
faint tremor in it which gave it all the charm that shyness and
diffidence gives to a young girl; her voice,
distinct from the
mass of singing as a prima donna's in the
chorus of a finale. It
was like a golden or silver thread in dark frieze.
It was she! There could be no mistake. Parisienne now as ever,
she had not laid coquetry aside when she threw off worldly
adornments for the veil and the Carmelite's
coarse serge. She
who had affirmed her love last evening in the praise sent up to
God, seemed now to say to her lover, "Yes, it is I. I am here.
My love is
unchanged, but I am beyond the reach of love. You
will hear my voice, my soul shall enfold you, and I shall abide
here under the brown
shroud in the choir from which no power on
earth can tear me. You shall never see me more!"
"It is she indeed!" the General said to himself, raising his