grasping his
revolver, and at the very same
instant, as it seemed to
him, they came into
violentcollision. Both shouted with surprise. A
loud
explosion took place between them; a roar of red fire, thick
smoke; and Kayerts, deafened and blinded, rushed back thinking: "I am
hit--it's all over." He expected the other to come round--to gloat
over his agony. He caught hold of an
upright of the roof--"All over!"
Then he heard a crashing fall on the other side of the house, as if
somebody had tumbled
headlong over a chair--then silence. Nothing
more happened. He did not die. Only his shoulder felt as if it had
been badly wrenched, and he had lost his
revolver. He was disarmed and
helpless! He waited for his fate. The other man made no sound. It was
a
stratagem. He was stalking him now! Along what side? Perhaps he was
taking aim this very minute!
After a few moments of an agony
frightful and
absurd, he
decided to go
and meet his doom. He was prepared for every
surrender. He turned the
corner, steadying himself with one hand on the wall; made a few paces,
and nearly swooned. He had seen on the floor, protruding past the
other corner, a pair of turned-up feet. A pair of white naked feet in
red slippers. He felt
deadly sick, and stood for a time in profound
darkness. Then Makola appeared before him,
saying quietly: "Come
along, Mr. Kayerts. He is dead." He burst into tears of
gratitude; a
loud, sobbing fit of crying. After a time he found himself sitting in
a chair and looking at Carlier, who lay stretched on his back. Makola
was kneeling over the body.
"Is this your
revolver?" asked Makola, getting up.
"Yes," said Kayerts; then he added very quickly, "He ran after me to
shoot me--you saw!"
"Yes, I saw," said Makola. "There is only one
revolver; where's his?"
"Don't know," whispered Kayerts in a voice that had become suddenly
very faint.
"I will go and look for it," said the other,
gently. He made the round
along the verandah, while Kayerts sat still and looked at the
corpse.
Makola came back empty-handed, stood in deep thought, then stepped
quietly into the dead man's room, and came out directly with a
revolver, which he held up before Kayerts. Kayerts shut his eyes.
Everything was going round. He found life more terrible and difficult
than death. He had shot an unarmed man.
After meditating for a while, Makola said
softly, pointing at the dead
man who lay there with his right eye blown out--
"He died of fever." Kayerts looked at him with a stony stare. "Yes,"
repeated Makola,
thoughtfully, stepping over the
corpse, "I think he
died of fever. Bury him to-morrow."
And he went away slowly to his
expectant wife, leaving the two white
men alone on the verandah.
Night came, and Kayerts sat unmoving on his chair. He sat quiet as if
he had taken a dose of opium. The
violence of the emotions he had
passed through produced a feeling of exhausted serenity. He had
plumbed in one short afternoon the depths of
horror and
despair, and
now found
repose in the
conviction that life had no more secrets for
him: neither had death! He sat by the
corpse thinking; thinking very
actively, thinking very new thoughts. He seemed to have broken loose
from himself
altogether. His old thoughts,
convictions, likes and
dislikes, things he respected and things he abhorred, appeared in
their true light at last! Appeared
contemptible and
childish, false
and
ridiculous. He revelled in his new
wisdom while he sat by the man
he had killed. He argued with himself about all things under heaven
with that kind of wrong-headed lucidity which may be observed in some
lunatics. Incidentally he reflected that the fellow dead there had
been a noxious beast anyway; that men died every day in thousands;
perhaps in hundreds of thousands--who could tell?--and that in the
number, that one death could not possibly make any difference;
couldn't have any importance, at least to a thinking creature. He,
Kayerts, was a thinking creature. He had been all his life, till that
moment, a
believer in a lot of
nonsense like the rest of mankind--who
are fools; but now he thought! He knew! He was at peace; he was
familiar with the highest
wisdom! Then he tried to imagine himself
dead, and Carlier sitting in his chair watching him; and his attempt
met with such
unexpected success, that in a very few moments he became
not at all sure who was dead and who was alive. This extraordinary
achievement of his fancy startled him, however, and by a clever and
timely effort of mind he saved himself just in time from becoming
Carlier. His heart thumped, and he felt hot all over at the thought of
that danger. Carlier! What a
beastly thing! To
compose his now
disturbed nerves--and no wonder!--he tried to
whistle a little. Then,
suddenly, he fell asleep, or thought he had slept; but at any rate
there was a fog, and somebody had
whistled in the fog.
He stood up. The day had come, and a heavy mist had descended upon the
land: the mist penetrating, enveloping, and silent; the morning mist
of
tropical lands; the mist that clings and kills; the mist white and
deadly,
immaculate and
poisonous. He stood up, saw the body, and threw
his arms above his head with a cry like that of a man who, waking from
a
trance, finds himself immured forever in a tomb. "Help! . . . . My
God!"
A
shriek inhuman, vibrating and sudden, pierced like a sharp dart the
white
shroud of that land of sorrow. Three short,
impatient screeches
followed, and then, for a time, the fog-wreaths rolled on,
undisturbed, through a
formidable silence. Then many more
shrieks,
rapid and
piercing, like the yells of some exasperated and ruthless
creature, rent the air. Progress was
calling to Kayerts from the
river. Progress and
civilization and all the virtues. Society was
calling to its
accomplished child to come, to be taken care of, to be
instructed, to be judged, to be condemned; it called him to return to
that
rubbish heap from which he had wandered away, so that justice
could be done.
Kayerts heard and understood. He
stumbled out of the verandah, leaving
the other man quite alone for the first time since they had been
thrown there together. He groped his way through the fog,
calling in
his
ignorance upon the
invisible heaven to undo its work. Makola
flitted by in the mist, shouting as he ran--
"Steamer! Steamer! They can't see. They
whistle for the station. I go
ring the bell. Go down to the
landing, sir. I ring."
He disappeared. Kayerts stood still. He looked
upwards; the fog rolled
low over his head. He looked round like a man who has lost his way;
and he saw a dark smudge, a cross-shaped stain, upon the shifting
purity of the mist. As he began to
stumble towards it, the station
bell rang in a tumultuous peal its answer to the
impatient clamour of
the
steamer.
The Managing Director of the Great Civilizing Company (since we know
that
civilization follows trade) landed first, and incontinently lost
sight of the
steamer. The fog down by the river was
exceedingly dense;
above, at the station, the bell rang unceasing and brazen.
The Director shouted loudly to the
steamer:
"There is nobody down to meet us; there may be something wrong, though
they are ringing. You had better come, too!"
And he began to toil up the steep bank. The captain and the
engine-driver of the boat followed behind. As they scrambled up the
fog thinned, and they could see their Director a good way ahead.
Suddenly they saw him start forward,
calling to them over his
shoulder:--"Run! Run to the house! I've found one of them. Run, look
for the other!"
He had found one of them! And even he, the man of
varied and startling
experience, was somewhat dis
composed by the manner of this finding.
He stood and fumbled in his pockets (for a knife) while he faced
Kayerts, who was
hanging by a leather strap from the cross. He had
evidently climbed the grave, which was high and narrow, and after
tying the end of the strap to the arm, had swung himself off. His toes
were only a couple of inches above the ground; his arms hung stiffly
down; he seemed to be
standingrigidly at attention, but with one
purple cheek playfully posed on the shoulder. And, irreverently, he
was putting out a
swollen tongue at his Managing Director.
THE RETURN
The inner
circle train from the City rushed impetuously out of a
black hole and pulled up with a discordant, grinding
racket in the
smirched
twilight of a West-End station. A line of doors flew open and
a lot of men stepped out
headlong. They had high hats,
healthy pale
faces, dark overcoats and shiny boots; they held in their gloved hands
thin umbrellas and
hastily folded evening papers that resembled stiff,
dirty rags of
greenish, pinkish, or whitish colour. Alvan Hervey