stepped out with the rest, a smouldering cigar between his teeth. A
disregarded little woman in rusty black, with both arms full of
parcels, ran along in
distress, bolted suddenly into a third-class
compartment and the train went on. The slamming of
carriage doors
burst out sharp and spiteful like a fusillade; an icy draught
mingled with acrid fumes swept the whole length of the
platform and
made a tottering old man, wrapped up to his ears in a woollen
comforter, stop short in the moving
throng to cough
violently over his
stick. No one spared him a glance.
Alvan Hervey passed through the ticket gate. Between the bare walls
of a
sordidstaircase men clambered rapidly; their backs appeared
alike--almost as if they had been wearing a uniform; their indifferent
faces were
varied but somehow suggested kinship, like the faces of a
band of brothers who through
prudence,
dignity,
disgust, or foresight
would
resolutelyignore each other; and their eyes, quick or slow;
their eyes gazing up the dusty steps; their eyes brown, black, gray,
blue, had all the same stare, concentrated and empty, satisfied and
unthinking.
Outside the big
doorway of the street they scattered in all
directions, walking away fast from one another with the
hurried air of
men fleeing from something compromising; from
familiarity or
confidences; from something suspected and
concealed--like truth or
pestilence. Alvan Hervey
hesitated,
standing alone in the
doorway for
a moment; then
decided to walk home.
He
strodefirmly. A misty rain settled like
silvery dust on clothes,
on moustaches; wetted the faces, varnished the flagstones, darkened
the walls, dripped from umbrellas. And he moved on in the rain with
careless serenity, with the
tranquil ease of someone successful and
disdainful, very sure of himself--a man with lots of money and
friends. He was tall, well set-up,
good-looking and
healthy; and his
clear pale face had under its
commonplacerefinement that slight tinge
of overbearing brutality which is given by the possession of only
partly difficult accomplishments; by excelling in games, or in the art
of making money; by the easy
mastery over animals and over needy men.
He was going home much earlier than usual, straight from the City and
without
calling at his club. He considered himself well connected,
well educated and
intelligent. Who doesn't? But his connections,
education and
intelligence were
strictly on a par with those of the
men with whom he did business or amused himself. He had married five
years ago. At the time all his
acquaintances had said he was very much
in love; and he had said so himself,
frankly, because it is very well
understood that every man falls in love once in his life--unless his
wife dies, when it may be quite praiseworthy to fall in love again.
The girl was
healthy, tall, fair, and in his opinion was well
connected, well educated and
intelligent. She was also
intensely bored
with her home where, as if packed in a tight box, her individuality--
of which she was very conscious--had no play. She
strode like a
grenadier, was strong and
upright like an obelisk, had a beautiful
face, a candid brow, pure eyes, and not a thought of her own in her
head. He
surrendered quickly to all those charms, and she appeared to
him so
unquestionably of the right sort that he did not
hesitate for a
moment to declare himself in love. Under the cover of that
sacred and
poetical
fiction he desired her masterfully, for various reasons; but
principally for the
satisfaction of having his own way. He was very
dull and
solemn about it--for no
earthly reason, unless to
conceal his
feelings--which is an eminently proper thing to do. Nobody, however,
would have been shocked had he neglected that duty, for the feeling he
experienced really was a
longing--a
longing stronger and a little more
complex no doubt, but no more reprehensible in its nature than a
hungry man's
appetite for his dinner.
After their marriage they busied themselves, with marked success, in
enlarging the
circle of their
acquaintance. Thirty people knew them
by sight; twenty more with smiling demonstrations tolerated their