his neck."
"Good God!" he uttered, impressively, fixing his smeary blue eyes
on me. "The sea! No man killed by the sea ever looked like that."
He seemed
positively scandalised at my
suggestion. And as I gazed
at him, certainly not prepared for anything original on his part,
he
advanced his head close to mine and
thrust his tongue out at me
so suddenly that I couldn't help starting back.
After scoring over my
calmness in this
graphic way he nodded
wisely. If I had seen the sight, he
assured me, I would never
forget it as long as I lived. The weather was too bad to give the
corpse a proper sea burial. So next day at dawn they took it up on
the poop, covering its face with a bit of
bunting; he read a short
prayer, and then, just as it was, in its oilskins and long boots,
they launched it
amongst those
mountainous seas that seemed ready
every moment to
swallow up the ship herself and the terrified lives
on board of her.
"That reefed foresail saved you," I threw in.
"Under God - it did," he exclaimed
fervently. "It was by a special
mercy, I
firmly believe, that it stood some of those hurricane
squalls."
"It was the
setting of that sail which - " I began.
"God's own hand in it," he interrupted me. "Nothing less could
have done it. I don't mind telling you that I hardly dared give
the order. It seemed impossible that we could touch anything
without losing it, and then our last hope would have been gone."
The
terror of that gale was on him yet. I let him go on for a bit,
then said, casually - as if returning to a minor subject:
"You were very
anxious to give up your mate to the shore people, I
believe?"
He was. To the law. His obscure tenacity on that point had in it
something incomprehensible and a little awful; something, as it
were, mystical, quite apart from his
anxiety that he should not be
suspected of "countenancing any
doings of that sort." Seven-and-
thirty
virtuous years at sea, of which over twenty of immaculate
command, and the last fifteen in the Sephora, seemed to have laid
him under some
pitiless obligation.
"And you know," he went on, groping shamefacedly
amongst his
feelings, "I did not engage that young fellow. His people had some
interest with my owners. I was in a way forced to take him on. He
looked very smart, very gentlemanly, and all that. But do you know
- I never liked him, somehow. I am a plain man. You see, he
wasn't exactly the sort for the chief mate of a ship like the
Sephora."
I had become so connected in thoughts and
impressions with the
secret sharer of my cabin that I felt as if I,
personally, were
being given to understand that I, too, was not the sort that would
have done for the chief mate of a ship like the Sephora. I had no
doubt of it in my mind.
"Not at all the style of man. You understand," he insisted,
superfluously, looking hard at me.
I smiled urbanely. He seemed at a loss for a while.
"I suppose I must report a suicide."
"Beg pardon?"
"Suicide! That's what I'll have to write to my owners directly I
get in."
"Unless you manage to recover him before to-morrow," I assented,
dispassionately. . . "I mean, alive."
He mumbled something which I really did not catch, and I turned my
ear to him in a puzzled manner. He fairly bawled:
"The land - I say, the
mainland is at least seven miles off my
anchorage."
"About that."
My lack of
excitement, of
curiosity, of surprise, of any sort of
pronounced interest, began to
arouse his
distrust. But except for
the felicitous
pretence of deafness I had not tried to pretend
anything. I had felt utterly
incapable of playing the part of
ignorance
properly, and
therefore was afraid to try. It is also
certain that he had brought some ready-made suspicions with him,
and that he viewed my
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politeness as a strange and unnatural
phenomenon. And yet how else could I have received him? Not
heartily! That was impossible for
psychological reasons, which I
need not state here. My only object was to keep off his inquiries.
Surlily? Yes, but surliness might have provoked a point-blank
question. From its
novelty to him and from its nature, punctilious
courtesy was the manner best calculated to
restrain the man. But
there was the danger of his breaking through my defence
bluntly. I
could not, I think, have met him by a direct lie, also for
psychological (not moral) reasons. If he had only known how afraid
I was of his putting my feeling of
identity with the other to the
test! But,
strangely enough - (I thought of it only afterward) - I
believe that he was not a little disconcerted by the
reverse side
of that weird situation, by something in me that reminded him of
the man he was seeking - suggested a
mysterious similitude to the
young fellow he had
distrusted and disliked from the first.
However that might have been, the silence was not very prolonged.
He took another
oblique step.
"I
reckon I had no more than a two-mile pull to your ship. Not a
bit more."
"And quite enough, too, in this awful heat," I said.
Another pause full of
mistrust followed. Necessity, they say, is
mother of
invention, but fear, too, is not
barren of ingenious
suggestions. And I was afraid he would ask me point-blank for news
of my other self.
"Nice little
saloon, isn't it?" I remarked, as if noticing for the
first time the way his eyes roamed from one closed door to the
other. "And very well fitted out too. Here, for instance," I
continued, reaching over the back of my seat negligently and
flinging the door open, "is my bath-room."
He made an eager
movement, but hardly gave it a glance. I got up,
shut the door of the bath-room, and invited him to have a look
round, as if I were very proud of my
accommodation. He had to rise
and be shown round, but he went through the business without any
raptures
whatever.
"And now we'll have a look at my stateroom," I declared, in a voice
as loud as I dared to make it, crossing the cabin to the starboard
side with purposely heavy steps.
He followed me in and gazed around. My
intelligent double had
vanished. I played my part.
"Very
convenient - isn't it?"
"Very nice. Very comf. . . " He didn't finish, and went out
brusquely as if to escape from some unrighteous wiles of mine. But
it was not to be. I had been too frightened not to feel vengeful;
I felt I had him on the run, and I meant to keep him on the run.
My
politeinsistence must have had something menacing in it,
because he gave in suddenly. And I did not let him off a single
item; mate's room,
pantry, storerooms, the very sail-locker which
was also under the poop - he had to look into them all. When at
last I showed him out on the quarter-deck he drew a long,
spiritless sigh, and mumbled dismally that he must really be going
back to his ship now. I desired my mate, who had joined us, to see
to the captain's boat.
The man of whiskers gave a blast on the
whistle which he used to
wear
hanging round his neck, and yelled, "Sephoras away!" My
double down there in my cabin must have heard, and certainly could
not feel more relieved than I. Four fellows came
running out from
somewhere forward and went over the side, while my own men,
appearing on deck too, lined the rail. I escorted my
visitor to
the gangway ceremoniously, and nearly overdid it. He was a
tenacious beast. On the very
ladder he lingered, and in that
unique, guiltily
conscientious manner of sticking to the point:
"I say . . . you . . . you don't think that - "