but Charlotte had taken one step in the ways of imprudence;
and when that is once done, there are always
innumerable obstacles
to prevent the erring person returning to the path of rectitude:
yet these obstacles, however forcible they may appear in general,
exist
chiefly in imagination.
Charlotte feared the anger of her
governess: she loved her mother,
and the very idea of incurring her
displeasure, gave her
the greatest
uneasiness: but there was a more forcible reason
still remaining: should she show the letter to Madame Du Pont,
she must
confess the means by which it came into her possession;
and what would be the
consequence? Mademoiselle would be turned
out of doors.
"I must not be ungrateful," said she. "La Rue is very kind to me;
besides I can, when I see Montraville, inform him of the impropriety
of our continuing to see or
correspond with each other, and request
him to come no more to Chichester."
However
prudent Charlotte might be in these
resolutions, she certainly
did not take a proper method to
confirm herself in them. Several times
in the course of the day, she indulged herself in
reading over the letter,
and each time she read it, the
contents sunk deeper in her heart.
As evening drew near, she caught herself frequently consulting her watch.
"I wish this foolish meeting was over," said she, by way of apology
to her own heart, "I wish it was over; for when I have seen him,
and convinced him my
resolution is not to be
shaken, I shall feel
my mind much easier."
The appointed hour arrived. Charlotte and Mademoiselle eluded
the eye of
vigilance; and Montraville, who had waited their coming
with
impatience, received them with rapturous and unbounded
acknowledgments for their condescension: he had
wisely brought
Belcour with him to
entertain Mademoiselle, while he enjoyed
an uninterrupted conversation with Charlotte.
Belcour was a man whose
character might be comprised in a few words;
and as he will make some figure in the ensuing pages, I shall
here describe him. He possessed a
genteel fortune, and had a
liberal education; dissipated,
thoughtless, and capricious, he paid
little regard to the moral duties, and less to religious ones:
eager in the
pursuit of pleasure, he
minded not the miseries
he
inflicted on others, provided his own wishes, however extravagant,
were gratified. Self,
darling self, was the idol he worshipped,
and to that he would have sacrificed the interest and happiness
of all mankind. Such was the friend of Montraville:
will not the reader be ready to imagine, that the man who could
regard such a
character, must be actuated by the same feelings,
follow the same
pursuits, and be
equallyunworthy with the person
to whom he thus gave his confidence?
But Montraville was a different
character:
generous in his disposition,
liberal in his opinions, and
good-natured almost to a fault;
yet eager and
impetuous in the
pursuit of a favorite object,
he staid not to
reflect on the
consequence which might follow
the
attainment of his wishes; with a mind ever open to conviction,
had he been so
fortunate as to possess a friend who would have pointed
out the
cruelty of endeavouring to gain the heart of an innocent
artless girl, when he knew it was utterly impossible for him to marry her,
and when the
gratification of his
passion would be unavoidable infamy
and
misery to her, and a cause of never-ceasing
remorse to himself:
had these
dreadfulconsequences been placed before him in a proper light,
the
humanity of his nature would have urged him to give up the
pursuit:
but Belcour was not this friend; he rather encouraged the growing
passionof Montraville; and being pleased with the vivacity of Mademoiselle,
resolved to leave no
argument untried, which he thought might prevail
on her to be the
companion of their intended
voyage; and he made
no doubt but her example, added to the
rhetoric of Montraville,
would
persuade Charlotte to go with them.
Charlotte had, when she went out to meet Montraville,
flattered herself
that her
resolution was not to be
shaken, and that,
conscious of
the impropriety of her conduct in having a clandestine intercourse
with a stranger, she would never repeat the indiscretion.
But alas! poor Charlotte, she knew not the deceitfulness of her
own heart, or she would have avoided the trial of her stability.
Montraville was tender,
eloquent,
ardent, and yet respectful.
"Shall I not see you once more," said he, "before I leave England?
will you not bless me by an
assurance, that when we are divided
by a vast
expanse of sea I shall not be forgotten?"
Charlotte sighed.
"Why that sigh, my dear Charlotte? could I
flatter myself that
a fear for my safety, or a wish for my
welfare occasioned it,
how happy would it make me."
"I shall ever wish you well, Montraville," said she; "but we must meet
no more." "Oh say not so, my lovely girl:
reflect, that when I leave
my native land, perhaps a few short weeks may
terminate my existence;
the perils of the ocean--the dangers of war--"
"I can hear no more," said Charlotte in a
tremulous voice.
"I must leave you."
"Say you will see me once again."
"I dare not," said she.
"Only for one half hour to-morrow evening: 'tis my last request.
I shall never trouble you again, Charlotte."
"I know not what to say," cried Charlotte, struggling to draw her
hands from him: "let me leave you now. "
"And you will come to-morrow," said Montraville.
"Perhaps I may," said she.
"Adieu then. I will live upon that hope till we meet again."
He kissed her hand. She sighed an adieu, and catching hold
of Mademoiselle's arm,
hastily entered the garden gate.
CHAPTER X.
WHEN WE HAVE EXCITED
CURIOSITY, IT IS BUT AN ACT OF
GOOD NATURE TO GRATIFY IT.
MONTRAVILLE was the youngest son of a gentleman of fortune,
whose family being numerous, he was obliged to bring up his sons
to
genteelprofessions, by the exercise of which they might hope
to raise themselves into notice.
"My daughters," said he, "have been educated like gentlewomen;
and should I die before they are settled, they must have some
provision made, to place them above the snares and temptations
which vice ever holds out to the
elegant,
accomplished female,
when oppressed by the frowns of
poverty and the sting of dependance:
my boys, with only
moderateincomes, when placed in the church, at the bar,
or in the field, may exert their talents, make themselves friends,
and raise their fortunes on the basis of merit."
When Montraville chose the
profession of arms, his father
presented him with a
commission, and made him a handsome provision
for his private purse. "Now, my boy," said he, 'go! seek glory
in the field of battle. You have received from me all I shall
ever have it in my power to
bestow: it is certain I have interest
to gain you
promotion; but be
assured that interest shall
never be exerted, unless by your future conduct you
deserve it.
Remember,
therefore, your success in life depends entirely on yourself.
There is one thing I think it my duty to
caution you against;
the precipitancy with which young men frequently rush into
matrimonial engagements, and by their
thoughtlessness draw
many a deserving woman into scenes of
poverty and distress.
A soldier has no business to think of a wife till his rank is such
as to place him above the fear of bringing into the world a train
of
helpless innocents, heirs only to penury and affliction.
If, indeed, a woman, whose fortune is sufficient to preserve
you in that state of
independence I would teach you to prize,
should
generously
bestow herself on a young soldier, whose chief
hope of future
prosperity depended on his success in the field--
if such a woman should offer--every
barrier is removed, and I
should
rejoice in an union which would promise so much felicity.
But mark me, boy, if, on the
contrary, you rush into a precipitate
union with a girl of little or no fortune, take the poor creature from
a comfortable home and kind friends, and
plunge her into all the evils
a narrow
income and increasing family can
inflict, I will leave you
to enjoy the
blessed fruits of your rashness; for by all that is sacred,