a
pleasinglively girl, with a large fortune."
"She may be richer, may be handsomer," cried Charlotte, "but cannot
love him so well. Oh may she
beware of his art, and not trust him
too far as I have done."
"He addresses her publicly," said he, "and it was rumoured they
were to be married before he sailed for Eustatia, whither his
company is ordered."
"Belcour," said Charlotte, seizing his hand, and gazing at him
earnestly,
while her pale lips trembled with convulsive agony, "tell me,
and tell me truly, I
beseech you, do you think he can be such
a
villain as to marry another woman, and leave me to die with want
and
misery in a strange land: tell me what you think; I can bear
it very well; I will not
shrink from this heaviest stroke of fate;
I have
deserved my
afflictions, and I will
endeavour to bear them
as I ought."
"I fear," said Belcour, "he can be that
villain."
"Perhaps," cried she,
eagerly interrupting him, "perhaps he is
married already: come, let me know the worst," continued she
with an
affected look of
composure: "you need not be afraid,
I shall not send the
fortunate lady a bowl of poison."
"Well then, my dear girl," said he, deceived by her appearance,
"they were married on Thursday, and
yesterday morning they
sailed for Eustatia."
"Married--gone--say you?" cried she in a distracted
accent, "what without
a last
farewell, without one thought on my
unhappy situation!
Oh Montraville, may God
forgive your perfidy." She shrieked,
and Belcour
sprang forward just in time to prevent her falling
to the floor.
Alarming faintings now succeeded each other, and she was conveyed to
her bed, from
whence she
earnestly prayed she might never more arise.
Belcour staid with her that night, and in the morning found her in a
high fever. The fits she had been seized with had greatly terrified him;
and
confined as she now was to a bed of
sickness, she was no longer
an object of desire: it is true for several days he went
constantlyto see her, but her pale, emaciated appearance
disgusted him:
his visits became less
frequent; he forgot the
solemncharge given
him by Montraville; he even forgot the money entrusted to his care;
and, the burning blush of
indignation and shame tinges my cheek
while I write it, this
disgrace to
humanity and
manhood at length
forgot even the injured Charlotte; and, attracted by the blooming
health of a farmer's daughter, whom he had seen in his
frequentexcursions to the country, he left the
unhappy girl to sink
unnoticed to the grave, a prey to
sickness, grief, and penury;
while he, having
triumphed over the
virtue of the artless cottager,
rioted in all the intemperance of
luxury and
lawless pleasure.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
A TRIFLING RETROSPECT.
"BLESS my heart," cries my young, volatile reader, "I shall never have
patience to get through these volumes, there are so many ahs! and ohs!
so much fainting, tears, and
distress, I am sick to death of the subject."
My dear, chearful,
innocent girl, for
innocent I will suppose you to be,
or you would acutely feel the woes of Charlotte, did
conscience say,
thus might it have been with me, had not Providence interposed
to
snatch me from
destruction:
therefore, my
lively,
innocent girl,
I must request your
patience: I am
writing a tale of truth:
I mean to write it to the heart: but if
perchance the heart is
rendered impenetrable by unbounded
prosperity, or a continuance
in vice, I expect not my tale to please, nay, I even expect it
will be thrown by with
disgust. But
softly, gentle fair one;
I pray you throw it not aside till you have perused the whole;
mayhap you may find something
therein to repay you for the trouble.
Methinks I see a sarcastic smile sit on your countenance.--"And what,"
cry you, "does the
conceited author suppose we can glean from these pages,
if Charlotte is held up as an object of
terror, to prevent us from
falling into
guilty errors? does not La Rue
triumph in her shame,
and by adding art to guilt,
obtain the
affection of a
worthy man,
and rise to a station where she is
beheld with respect, and chearfully
received into all companies. What then is the moral you would inculcate?
Would you wish us to think that a deviation from
virtue, if covered
by art and
hypocrisy, is not an object of detestation, but on
the
contrary shall raise us to fame and honour? while the hapless
girl who falls a
victim to her too great sensibility, shall be loaded
with ignominy and shame?" No, my fair querist, I mean no such thing.
Remember the
endeavours of the
wicked are often suffered to prosper,
that in the end their fall may be attended with more
bitterness of heart;
while the cup of
affliction is poured out for wise and salutary ends,
and they who are compelled to drain it even to the bitter dregs,
often find comfort at the bottom; the tear of penitence blots
their offences from the book of fate, and they rise from the heavy,
painful trial, purified and fit for a
mansion in the kingdom of eternity.
Yes, my young friends, the tear of
compassion shall fall for the fate
of Charlotte, while the name of La Rue shall be detested and despised.
For Charlotte, the soul melts with
sympathy; for La Rue, it feels
nothing but
horror and
contempt. But perhaps your gay hearts
would rather follow the
fortunate Mrs. Crayton through the scenes
of pleasure and dissipation in which she was engaged, than listen to
the complaints and miseries of Charlotte. I will for once
oblige you;
I will for once follow her to
midnight revels, balls, and scenes
of
gaiety, for in such was she
constantly engaged.
I have said her person was lovely; let us add that she was
surrounded by
splendor and affluence, and he must know but little
of the world who can wonder, (however
faulty such a woman's conduct,)
at her being followed by the men, and her company courted by
the women: in short Mrs. Crayton was the
universal favourite:
she set the fashions, she was toasted by all the gentlemen,
and copied by all the ladies.
Colonel Crayton was a
domestic man. Could he be happy with such
a woman? impossible! Remonstrance was vain: he might as well
have preached to the winds, as
endeavour to
persuade her from
any action, however
ridiculous, on which she had set her mind:
in short, after a little ineffectual struggle, he gave up the attempt,
and left her to follow the bent of her own inclinations:
what those were, I think the reader must have seen enough
of her
character to form a just idea. Among the number who paid
their devotions at her
shrine, she singled one, a young Ensign
of mean birth,
indifferent education, and weak intellects.
How such a man came into the army, we hardly know to
account for,
and how he afterwards rose to posts of honour is likewise
strange and wonderful. But fortune is blind, and so are those
too
frequently who have the power of dispensing her favours:
else why do we see fools and knaves at the very top of the wheel,
while patient merit sinks to the
extreme of the opposite abyss.
But we may form a thousand conjectures on this subject, and yet never
hit on the right. Let us
thereforeendeavour to
deserve her smiles,
and whether we succeed or not, we shall feel more innate satisfaction,
than thousands of those who bask in the
sunshine of her favour unworthily.
But to return to Mrs. Crayton: this young man, whom I shall distinguish
by the name of Corydon, was the reigning favourite of her heart.
He escorted her to the play, danced with her at every ball,
and when in
disposition prevented her going out, it was he alone
who was permitted to chear the
gloomysolitude to which she was
obliged to
confine herself. Did she ever think of poor Charlotte?--
if she did, my dear Miss, it was only to laugh at the poor girl's want
of spirit in consenting to be moped up in the country, while Montraville
was enjoying all the pleasures of a gay, dissipated city.
When she heard of his marriage, she smiling said, so there's an end
of Madam Charlotte's hopes. I wonder who will take her now,
or what will become of the little
affected prude?
But as you have lead to the subject, I think we may as well return
to the
distressed Charlotte, and not, like the unfeeling Mrs. Crayton,
shut our hearts to the call of
humanity.
CHAPTER XXIX.
WE GO FORWARD AGAIN.
THE strength of Charlotte's
constitution combatted against her disorder,
and she began slowly to recover, though she still laboured
under a
violentdepression of spirits: how must that
depressionbe encreased, when, upon examining her little store, she found
herself reduced to one
solitaryguinea, and that during her illness
the attendance of an apothecary and nurse, together with many other
unavoidable expences, had involved her in debt, from which she saw
no method of extricating herself. As to the faint hope which she
had entertained of
hearing from and being
relieved by her parents;
it now entirely
forsook her, for it was above four months