turned into
commercial speculations, till the national
characterexhibited a
phenomenon in the history of the human mind--a head
enthusiastically
enterprising, with cold
selfishness of heart.
And woman, lovely woman!--they charm everywhere--still there is a
degree of prudery, and a want of taste and ease in the manners of
the American women, that renders them, in spite of their roses and
lilies, far
inferior to our European charmers. In the country,
they have often a bewitching
simplicity of
character; but, in the
cities, they have all the airs and
ignorance of the ladies who give
the tone to the circles of the large trading towns in England.
They are fond of their ornaments, merely because they are good,
and not because they embellish their persons; and are more gratified
to
inspire the women with
jealousy of these
exterior advantages,
than the men with love. All the frivolity which often (excuse me,
Madam) renders the society of
modest women so
stupid in England,
here seemed to throw still more leaden fetters on their charms.
Not being an adept in gallantry, I found that I could only keep
myself awake in their company by making
downright love to them.
"But, not to
intrude on your
patience, I
retired to the track
of land which I had purchased in the country, and my time passed
pleasantly enough while I cut down the trees, built my house, and
planted my different crops. But winter and
idleness came, and I
longed for more
elegant society, to hear what was passing in the
world, and to do something better than vegetate with the animals
that made a very
considerable part of my household. Consequently,
I determined to travel. Motion was a
substitute for
variety of
objects; and, passing over
immense tracks of country, I exhausted
my exuberant spirits, without obtaining much experience. I every
where saw industry the fore-runner and not the
consequence, of
luxury; but this country, everything being on an ample scale, did
not afford those
picturesque views, which a certain degree of
cultivation is necessary gradually to produce. The eye wandered
without an object to fix upon over immeasureable plains, and lakes
that seemed replenished by the ocean,
whilsteternal forests of
small clustering trees, obstructed the
circulation of air, and
embarrassed the path, without gratifying the eye of taste. No
cottage smiling in the waste, no travellers hailed us, to give life
to silent nature; or, if
perchance we saw the print of a
footstepin our path, it was a
dreadfulwarning to turn aside; and the head
ached as if assailed by the scalping knife. The Indians who hovered
on the skirts of the European settlements had only
learned of their
neighbours to
plunder, and they stole their guns from them to
do it with more safety.
"From the woods and back settlements, I returned to the towns,
and
learned to eat and drink most
valiantly; but without entering
into
commerce (and I detested
commerce) I found I could not live
there; and, growing
heartily weary of the land of liberty and vulgar
aristocracy, seated on her bags of dollars, I
resolved once more
to visit Europe. I wrote to a distant relation in England, with
whom I had been educated, mentioning the
vessel in which I intended
to sail. Arriving in London, my senses were intoxicated. I ran
from street to street, from theater to theater, and the women of
the town (again I must beg
pardon for my
habitual frankness)
appeared to me like angels.
"A week was spent in this
thoughtless manner, when, returning
very late to the hotel in which I had lodged ever since my arrival,
I was knocked down in a private street, and
hurried, in a state of
insensibility, into a coach, which brought me
hither, and I only
recovered my senses to be treated like one who had lost them. My
keepers are deaf to my remonstrances and enquiries, yet assure me
that my
confinement shall not last long. Still I cannot guess,
though I weary myself with conjectures, why I am confined, or in
what part of England this house is
situated. I imagine sometimes
that I hear the sea roar, and wished myself again on the Atlantic,
till I had a
glimpse of you."*
A few moments were only allowed to Maria to
comment on this
narrative, when Darnford left her to her own thoughts, to the "never
ending, still beginning," task of weighing his words, recollecting
his tones of voice, and feeling them reverberate on her heart.
* The
introduction of Darnford as the
deliverer of Maria
in a former
instance, appears to have been an after-thought
of the author. This has occasioned the
omission of any
allusion to that circumstance in the
preceding narration.
EDITOR. [Godwin's note]
CHAPTER 4
PITY, and the
forlornseriousness of
adversity, have both been
considered as dispositions favourable to love, while satirical
writers have attributed the propensity to the relaxing effect of
idleness; what chance then had Maria of escaping, when pity, sorrow,
and
solitude all conspired to
soften her mind, and
nourishromanticwishes, and, from a natural progress,
romantic expectations?
Maria was six-and-twenty. But, such was the native soundness
of her
constitution, that time had only given to her countenance
the
character of her mind. Revolving thought, and exercised
affections had banished some of the
playful graces of innocence,
producing insensibly that irregularity of features which the
struggles of the understanding to trace or
govern the strong e
motions
of the heart, are wont to imprint on the yielding mass. Grief and
care had mellowed, without obscuring, the bright tints of youth,
and the thoughtfulness which resided on her brow did not take from
the
femininesoftness of her features; nay, such was the sensibility
which often mantled over it, that she frequently appeared, like a
large
proportion of her sex, only born to feel; and the activity
of her well-
proportioned, and even almost voluptuous figure,
inspired
the idea of strength of mind, rather than of body. There was a
simplicity sometimes indeed in her manner, which bordered on
infantine ingenuousness, that led people of common discernment to
underrate her talents, and smile at the flights of her
imagination.
But those who could not
comprehend the
delicacy of her sentiments,
were attached by her unfailing
sympathy, so that she was very
generally
beloved by
characters of very different descriptions;
still, she was too much under the influence of an
ardentimaginationto
adhere to common rules.
There are mistakes of conduct which at five-and-twenty prove
the strength of the mind, that, ten or fifteen years after, would
demonstrate its
weakness, its incapacity to
acquire a sane judgment.
The youths who are satisfied with the ordinary pleasures of life,
and do not sigh after ideal phantoms of love and friendship, will
never arrive at great
maturity of understanding; but if these
reveries are cherished, as is too frequently the case with women,
when experience ought to have taught them in what human happiness
consists, they become as
useless as they are
wretched. Besides,
their pains and pleasures are so
dependent on
outward circumstances,
on the objects of their
affections, that they seldom act from the
impulse of a nerved mind, able to choose its own pursuit.
Having had to struggle
incessantly with the vices of mankind,
Maria's
imagination found
repose in pourtraying the possible virtues
the world might
contain. Pygmalion formed an ivory maid, and longed
for an informing soul. She, on the
contrary, combined all the
qualities of a hero's mind, and fate presented a
statue in which
she might enshrine them.
We mean not to trace the progress of this
passion, or recount
how often Darnford and Maria were obliged to part in the midst of
an interesting conversation. Jemima ever watched on the tip-toe
of fear, and frequently separated them on a false alarm, when they
would have given worlds to remain a little longer together.
A magic lamp now seemed to be suspended in Maria's prison,
and fairy landscapes flitted round the
gloomy walls, late so blank.
Rushing from the depth of
despair, on the seraph wing of hope,
she found herself happy.--She was
beloved, and every e
motionwas rapturous.
To Darnford she had not shown a
decidedaffection; the fear
of outrunning his, a sure proof of love, made her often assume a
coldness and
indifference foreign from her
character; and, even
when giving way to the
playful e
motions of a heart just loosened
from the
frozen bond of grief, there was a
delicacy in her manner
of expressing her sensibility, which made him doubt whether it was
the effect of love.
One evening, when Jemima left them, to listen to the sound of
a distant
footstep, which seemed
cautiously to approach, he seized
Maria's hand--it was not
withdrawn. They conversed with earnestness
of their situation; and, during the conversation, he once or twice
gently drew her towards him. He felt the
fragrance of her breath,
and longed, yet feared, to touch the lips from which it issued;
spirits of
purity seemed to guard them, while all the enchanting
graces of love sported on her cheeks, and languished in her eyes.