bear
standing with him."
"I saw that you couldn't, and that's the reason
I told you to take your seat, and left him in the
corner. Remember that you are a stranger in the
place, and they take more notice of what you do,
so you must be careful. Now let's have our
conjugations. Give me the verb `to be,'
potential mood,
past perfect tense."
"I might have been "We might have been
Thou mightst have been You might have been
He might have been They might have been."
"Give me an example, please."
"I might have been glad
Thou mightst have been glad
He, she, or it might have been glad."
"`He' or `she' might have been glad because
they are
masculine and
feminine, but could `it'
have been glad?" asked Miss Dearborn, who was
very fond of splitting hairs.
"Why not?" asked Rebecca
"Because `it' is neuter gender."
"Couldn't we say, `The
kitten might have
been glad if it had known it was not going to be
drowned'?"
"Ye--es," Miss Dearborn answered hesitatingly,
never very sure of herself under Rebecca's fire;
"but though we often speak of a baby, a chicken, or
a
kitten as `it,' they are really
masculine or
femininegender, not neuter."
Rebecca reflected a long moment and then asked,
"Is a hollyhock neuter?"
"Oh yes, of course it is, Rebecca"
"Well, couldn't we say, `The hollyhock might
have been glad to see the rain, but there was a weak
little hollyhock bud growing out of its stalk and it
was afraid that that might be hurt by the storm;
so the big hollyhock was kind of afraid, instead of
being real glad'?"
Miss Dearborn looked puzzled as she answered,
"Of course, Rebecca, hollyhocks could not be
sorry, or glad, or afraid, really."
"We can't tell, I s'pose," replied the child; "but
_I_ think they are, anyway. Now what shall I say?"
"The subjunctive mood, past perfect tense of
the verb `to know.'"
"If I had known "If we had known
If thou hadst known If you had known
If he had known If they had known.
"Oh, it is the saddest tense," sighed Rebecca
with a little break in her voice; "nothing but IFS,
IFS, IFS! And it makes you feel that if they only
HAD known, things might have been better!"
Miss Dearborn had not thought of it before,
but on
reflection she believed the subjunctive mood
was a "sad" one and "if" rather a sorry "part of
speech."
"Give me some more examples of the subjunctive,
Rebecca, and that will do for this afternoon," she
said.
"If I had not loved mackerel I should not have
been thirsty;" said Rebecca with an April smile,
as she closed her grammar. "If thou hadst loved
me truly thou wouldst not have stood me up in the
corner. If Samuel had not loved wickedness he
would not have followed me to the water pail."
"And if Rebecca had loved the rules of the
school she would have controlled her thirst," finished
Miss Dearborn with a kiss, and the two parted
friends.
VI
SUNSHINE IN A SHADY PLACE
The little
schoolhouse on the hill had its
moments of
triumph as well as its scenes
of tribulation, but it was
fortunate that
Rebecca had her books and her new acquaintances
to keep her interested and occupied, or life would
have gone heavily with her that first summer in
Riverboro. She tried to like her aunt Miranda (the
idea of
loving her had been given up at the moment
of meeting), but failed ignominiously in the attempt.
She was a very
faulty and
passionately human child,
with no aspirations towards being an angel of the
house, but she had a sense of duty and a desire to
be good,--respectably, decently good. Whenever
she fell below this self-imposed standard she was
miserable. She did not like to be under her aunt's
roof, eating bread, wearing clothes, and studying
books provided by her, and
dislike her so heartily
all the time. She felt
instinctively that this was
wrong and mean, and
whenever the feeling of remorse
was strong within her she made a desperate
effort to please her grim and difficult
relative. But
how could she succeed when she was never herself in
her aunt Miranda's presence? The searching look
of the eyes, the sharp voice, the hard knotty fingers,
the thin straight lips, the long silences, the "front-
piece" that didn't match her hair, the very obvious
"parting" that seemed sewed in with linen thread on
black net,--there was not a single item that appealed
to Rebecca. There are certain narrow, unimaginative,
and autocratic old people who seem to call out
the most
mischievous, and sometimes the worst
traits in children. Miss Miranda, had she lived in a
populous
neighborhood, would have had her doorbell
pulled, her gate tied up, or "dirt traps" set in her
garden paths. The Simpson twins stood in such
awe of her that they could not be persuaded to come
to the side door even when Miss Jane held gingerbread
cookies in her
outstretched hands.
It is
needless to say that Rebecca irritated her
aunt with every
breath she drew. She continually
forgot and started up the front stairs because it was
the shortest route to her bedroom; she left the
dipper on the kitchen shelf instead of
hanging it up
over the pail; she sat in the chair the cat liked best;
she was
willing to go on errands, but often forgot
what she was sent for; she left the
screen doors
ajar, so that flies came in; her tongue was ever in
motion; she sang or whistled when she was picking
up chips; she was always messing with flowers,
putting them in vases, pinning them on her dress,
and sticking them in her hat; finally she was an
everlasting
reminder of her foolish,
worthless father,
whose handsome face and engaging manner had
so deceived Aurelia, and perhaps, if the facts were
known, others besides Aurelia. The Randalls were
aliens. They had not been born in Riverboro nor
even in York County. Miranda would have allowed,
on
compulsion, that in the nature of things a large
number of persons must
necessarily be born outside
this
sacredprecinct; but she had her opinion of
them, and it was not a
flattering one. Now if Hannah
had come--Hannah took after the other side of the
house; she was "all Sawyer." (Poor Hannah! that
was true!) Hannah spoke only when
spoken to,
instead of first, last, and all the time; Hannah at
fourteen was a member of the church; Hannah liked to
knit; Hannah was, probably, or would have been, a
pattern of all the smaller virtues; instead of which
here was this black-haired gypsy, with eyes as big
as cartwheels, installed as a member of the household.
What
sunshine in a shady place was aunt Jane
to Rebecca! Aunt Jane with her quiet voice, her
under
standing eyes, her ready excuses, in these first
difficult weeks, when the
impulsive little stranger
was
trying to settle down into the "brick house
ways." She did learn them, in part, and by degrees,
and the
constantfitting of herself to these new and
difficult standards of conduct seemed to make her
older than ever for her years.
The child took her
sewing and sat beside aunt
Jane in the kitchen while aunt Miranda had the post
of
observation at the sitting-room window. Sometimes
they would work on the side porch where the
clematis and woodbine shaded them from the hot
sun. To Rebecca the lengths of brown
ginghamwere
interminable. She made hard work of
sewing,
broke the thread, dropped her
thimble into the
syringa bushes, pricked her finger, wiped the
perspiration from her
forehead, could not match the
checks, puckered the seams. She polished her needles
to nothing, pushing them in and out of the emery
strawberry, but they always squeaked. Still aunt
Jane's
patience held good, and some small measure
of skill was creeping into Rebecca's fingers, fingers
that held pencil, paint brush, and pen so cleverly and
were so
clumsy with the
dainty little needle.
When the first brown
gingham frock was
completed, the child seized what she thought an
opportune moment and asked her aunt Miranda if she
might have another color for the next one.
"I bought a whole piece of the brown," said
Miranda laconically. "That'll give you two more
dresses, with plenty for new sleeves, and to patch
and let down with, an' be more economical."
"I know. But Mr. Watson says he'll take back
part of it, and let us have pink and blue for the
same price."
"Did you ask him?"
"Yes'm."
"It was none o' your business."
"I was helping Emma Jane choose aprons, and
didn't think you'd mind which color I had. Pink
keeps clean just as nice as brown, and Mr. Watson
says it'll boil without fading."
"Mr. Watson 's a splendid judge of washing, I
guess. I don't
approve of children being rigged
out in fancy colors, but I'll see what your aunt
Jane thinks."
"I think it would be all right to let Rebecca
have one pink and one blue
gingham," said Jane.
"A child gets tired of
sewing on one color. It's
only natural she should long for a change; besides
she'd look like a
charity child always wearing the
same brown with a white apron. And it's dreadful
unbecoming to her!"
"`Handsome is as handsome does,' say I.
Rebecca never'll come to grief along of her beauty,
that's certain, and there's no use in humoring her
to think about her looks. I believe she's vain as a
peacock now, without anything to be vain of."