hand to him to
withdraw; "Go," says he, "I see what you have
to say to me, but I have not the power to hear it." "I can
acquaint you with nothing," said the gentleman, "upon which one
can form any certain judgment; it is true, the Duke de Nemours
went two nights successively into the garden in the forest, and
the day after he was at Colomiers with the Duchess of Mercoeur."
"'Tis enough," replied Monsieur de Cleves, still making signs
to him to
withdraw, "'tis enough; I want no further
information." The gentleman was forced to leave his master,
abandoned to his
despair; nor ever was
despair more
violent. Few
men of so high a spirit, and so
passionately" target="_blank" title="ad.多情地;热烈地">
passionately in love, as the
Prince of Cleves, have
experienced at the same time the grief
arising from the
falsehood of a
mistress, and the shame of being
deceived by a wife.
Monsieur de Cleves could set no bounds to his
affliction; he felt
ill of a fever that very night, and his
temper" target="_blank" title="n.犬热病;色粉颜料">
distemper was accompanied
with such ill symptoms that it was thought very dangerous. Madam
de Cleves was informed of it, and came in all haste to him; when
she arrived, he was still worse; besides, she observed something
in him so cold and chilling with respect to her, that she was
equally surprised and grieved at it; he even seemed to receive
with pain the services she did him in his
sickness, but at last
she imagined it was perhaps only the effect of his
temper" target="_blank" title="n.犬热病;色粉颜料">
distemper.
When she was come to Blois where the Court then was, the Duke de
Nemours was overjoyed to think she was at the same place where he
was; he endeavoured to see her, and went every day to the Prince
of Cleves's under
pretence of enquiring how he did, but it was to
no purpose; she did not stir out of her husband's room, and was
grieved at heart for the condition he was in. It vexed Monsieur
de Nemours to see her under such
affliction, an
affliction which
he
plainly saw revived the friendship she had for Monsieur de
Cleves, and diverted the
passion that lay kindling in her heart.
The thought of this shocked him
severely" target="_blank" title="ad.剧烈地;严格地">
severely for some time; but the
extremity, to which Monsieur de Cleves's
sickness was grown,
opened to him a scene of new hopes; he saw it was
probable that
Madam de Cleves would be at liberty to follow her own
inclinations, and that he might expect for the future a
series of
happiness and
lasting pleasures; he could not support the ecstasy
of that thought, a thought so full of transport! he banished it
out of his mind for fear of becoming
doublywretched, if he
happened to be disappointed in his hopes.
In the
meantime Monsieur de Cleves was almost given over by his
physicians. One of the last days of his
illness, after having
had a very bad night, he said in the morning, he had a desire to
sleep; but Madam de Cleves, who remained alone in his chamber,
found that instead of
takingrepose he was
extremely restless;
she came to him, and fell on her knees by his
bedside, her face
all covered with tears; and though Monsieur de Cleves had taken a
resolution not to show her the
violentdispleasure he had
conceived against her, yet the care she took of him, and the
sorrow she expressed, which sometimes he thought
sincere, and at
other times the effect of her dissimulation and perfidiousness,
distracted him so
violently with opposite sentiments full of woe,
that he could not
forbear giving them vent.
"You shed plenty of tears, Madam," said he, "for a death which
you are the cause of, and which cannot give you the trouble you
pretend to be in; I am no longer in a condition to reproach
you," added he with a voice weakened by
sickness and grief; "I
die through the
dreadful grief and
discontent you have given me;
ought so
extraordinary an action, as that of your
speaking to me
at Colomiers, to have had so little consequences? Why did you
inform me of your
passion for the Duke de Nemours, if your
virtuewas no longer able to oppose it? I loved you to that extremity,
I would have been glad to have been deceived, I
confess it to my
shame; I have regretted that
pleasing false
security out of which
you drew me; why did not you leave me in that blind tranquillity
which so many husbands enjoy? I should perhaps have been
ignorant all my life, that you was in love with Monsieur de
Nemours; I shall die," added he, "but know that you make death
pleasing to me, and that, after you have taken from me the
esteemand
affection I had for you, life would be
odious to me. What
should I live for? to spend my days with a person whom I have
loved so much, and by whom I have been so
cruelly deceived; or to
live apart from her and break out
openly into
violences so
opposite to my
temper, and the love I had for you? That love,
Madam, was far greater than it appeared to you; I concealed the
greatest part of it from you, for fear of being importunate, or
of losing somewhat in your
esteem by a behaviour not becoming a
husband: in a word, I deserved your
affection more than once, and
I die without regret, since I have not been able to
obtain it,
and since I can no longer desire it. Adieu, Madam; you will one
day regret a man who loved you with a
sincere and virtuous
passion; you will feel the
anxiety which
reasonable persons meet
with in intrigue and gallantry, and you will know the difference
between such a love as I had for you, and the love of people who
only
professadmiration for you to
gratify their
vanity in
seducing you; but my death will leave you at liberty, and you may
make the Duke de Nemours happy without guilt: what signifies
anything that can happen when I am no more, and why should I have
the
weakness to trouble myself about it?
Madam de Cleves was so far from imagining that her husband
suspected her
virtue, that she heard all this
discourse without
comprehending the meaning of it, and without having any other
notion about it, except that he reproached her for her
inclination for the Duke de Nemours; at last, starting all of a
sudden out of her
blindness, "I guilty!" cried she, "I am a
stranger to the very thought of guilt; the
severest
virtue could
not have inspired any other conduct than that which I have
followed, and I never acted anything but what I could have wished
you to have been
witness to." "Could you have wished,"
replied Monsieur de Cleves, looking on her with
disdain, "I had
been a
witness of those nights you passed with Monsieur de
Nemours? Ah! Madam; is it you I speak of, when I speak of a lady
that has passed nights with a man, not her husband?" "No,
sir," replied she, "it is not me you speak of; I never spent a
night nor a moment with the Duke de Nemours; he never saw me in
private, I never suffered him to do it, nor would give him a
hearing. I'll take all the oaths . . ." "Speak no more of
it," said he interrupting her, "false oaths or a
confession
would perhaps give me equal pain."
Madam de Cleves could not answer him; her tears and her grief
took away her speech; at last, struggling for
utterance, "Look
on me at least, hear me," said she; "if my interest only were
concerned I would suffer these reproaches, but your life is at
stake; hear me for your own sake; I am so
innocent, truth pleads
so
strongly for me, it is impossible but I must
convince you."
"Would to God you could!" cried he; "but what can you say? the
Duke de Nemours, has not he been at Colomiers with his sister?
And did not he pass the two
foregoing nights with you in the
garden in the forest?" "If that be my crime," replied she,
"it is easy to justify myself; I do not desire you to believe
me, believe your servants and domestics; ask them if I went into
the garden the evening before Monsieur de Nemours came to
Colomiers, and if I did not go out, of it the night before two
hours sooner than I used to do." After this she told him how
she imagined she had seen somebody in the garden, and
acknowledged that she believed it to be the Duke de Nemours; she
spoke to him with so much confidence, and truth so naturally
persuades, even where it is not
probable, that Monsieur de Cleves
was almost
convinced of her
innocence. "I don't know," said
he, "whether I ought to believe you; I am so near death, that I
would not know anything that might make me die with reluctance;
you have cleared your
innocence too late; however it will be a
comfort to me to go away with the thought that you are
worthy of