the
esteem I have had for you; I beg you I may be
assured of this
further comfort, that my memory will be dear to you, and that if
it had been in your power you would have had for me the same
passion which you had for another." He would have gone on, but
was so weak that his speech failed him. Madam de Cleves sent for
the physicians, who found him almost
lifeless; yet he languished
some days, and died at last with
admirable constancy.
Madam de Cleves was afflicted to so
violent a degree, that she
lost in a manner the use of her reason; the Queen was so kind as
to come to see her, and carried her to a
convent without her
being
sensible whither she was conducted; her sisters-in-law
brought her back to Paris, before she was in a condition to feel
distinctly even her griefs: when she was restored to her faculty
of thinking, and reflected what a husband she had lost, and
considered that she had caused his death by the
passion which she
had for another, the
horror she had for herself and the Duke de
Nemours was not to be expressed.
The Duke in the
beginning of her
mourning durst pay her no other
respects but such as
decency required; he knew Madam de Cleves
enough to be
sensible that great importunities and eagerness
would be
disagreeable to her; but what he
learned afterwards
plainlyconvinced him that he ought to observe the same conduct a
great while longer.
A servant of the Duke's informed him that Monsieur de Cleves's
gentleman, who was his
intimate friend, had told him, in the
excess of his grief for the loss of his master, that Monsieur de
Nemours's journey to Colomiers was the occasion of his death.
The Duke was
extremely surprised to hear this; but after having
reflected upon it, he guessed the truth in part, and rightly
judged what Madam de Cleves's sentiments would be at first, and
what a distance it would throw him from her, if she thought her
husband's
illness was occasioned by his
jealousy; he was of
opinion that he ought not so much as to put her in mind of his
name very soon, and he abided by that conduct, however
severe it
appeared to him.
He took a journey to Paris, nor could he
forbearcalling at her
house to enquire how she did. He was told, that she saw nobody,
and that she had even given
strict orders that they should not
trouble her with an
account of any that might come to see her;
those very
strict orders, perhaps, were given with a view to the
Duke, and to prevent her
hearing him
spoken of; but he was too
much in love to be able to live so
absolutely deprived of the
sight of Madam de Cleves; he
resolved to find the means, let the
difficulty be what it would, to get out of a condition which was
so insupportable to him.
The grief of that Princess exceeded the bounds of reason; a
husband dying, and dying on her
account, and with so much
tenderness for her, never went out of her mind: she continually
revolved in her thoughts what she owed him, and she condemned
herself for not having had a
passion for him, as if that had been
a thing which depended on herself; she found no
consolation but
in the thought that she lamented him as he deserved to be
lamented, and that she would do nothing during the
remainder of
her life, but what he would have been glad she should have done,
had he lived.
She had often been thinking how he came to know, that the Duke de
Nemours had been at Colomiers; she could not
suspect that the
Duke himself had told it; though it was
indifferent to her
whether he had or no, she thought herself so
perfectly cured of
the
passion she had had for him; and yet she was grieved at the
heart to think that he was the cause of her husband's death; and
she remembered with pain the fear Monsieur de Cleves expressed,
when dying, lest she should marry the Duke; but all these griefs
were swallowed up in that for the loss of her husband, and she
thought she had no other but that one.
After several months the
violence of her grief abated, and she
fell into a
languishing kind of
melancholy. Madam de Martigues