fingers. He surrounded the head with a perfect halo of
knives,
and the neck with a
collar from which nobody could have
extricated himself without cutting his carotid
artery, while, to
increase the difficulty, the old fellow went through the
performance without
seeing, his whole face being covered with a
close mask of thick oilcloth.
Naturally, like other great artists, he was not understood by the
crowd, who confounded him with
vulgar tricksters, and his mask
only appeared to them a trick the more, and a very common trick
into the bargain.
"He must think us very stupid," they said. "How could he possibly
aim without having his eyes open?"
And they thought there must be imperceptible holes in the
oilcloth, a sort of latticework concealed in the material. It was
useless for him to allow the public to examine the mask for
themselves before the
exhibition began. It was all very well that
they could not discover any trick, but they were only all the
more convinced that they were being tricked. Did not the people
know that they ought to be tricked?
I had recognized a great artist in the old mountebank, and I was
quite sure that he was
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incapable of any trickery. I
told him so, while expressing my
admiration to him; and he had
been touched by my open
admiration and above all by the justice I
had done him. Thus we became good friends, and he explained to
me, very
modestly, the real trick which the crowd do not
understand, the
eternal trick contained in these simple words:
"To be
gifted by nature and to practice every day for long, long
years."
He had been especially struck by the
certainty which I expressed
that any trickery must become impossible to him. "Yes," he said
to me; "quite impossible! Impossible to a degree which you cannot
imagine. If I were to tell you! But where would be the use?"
His face clouded over, and his eyes filled with tears. I did not
venture to force myself into his confidence. My looks, however,
were not so
discreet as my silence, and begged him to speak; so
he responded to their mute appeal.
"After all," he said; "why should I not tell you about it? You
will understand me." And he added, with a look of sudden
ferocity: "She understood it, at any rate!"
"Who?" I asked.
"My strumpet of a wife," he replied. "Ah! Monsieur, what an
abominable creature she was--if you only knew! Yes, she
understood it too well, too well, and that is why I hate her so;
even more on that
account, than for having
deceived me. For that
is a natural fault, is it not, and may be pardoned? But the other
thing was a crime, a
horrible crime."
The woman, who stood against the
wooden target every night with
her arms stretched out and her finger
extended, and whom the old
mountebank fitted with gloves and with a halo formed of his
knives, which were as sharp as razors and which he planted close
to her, was his wife. She might have been a woman of forty, and
must have been fairly pretty, but with a perverse prettiness; she
had an impudent mouth, a mouth that was at the same time sensual
and bad, with the lower lip too thick for the thin, dry upper
lip.
I had several times noticed that every time he planted a knife in
the board, she uttered a laugh, so low as scarcely to be heard,
but which was very
significant when one heard it, for it was a
hard and very mocking laugh. I had always attributed that sort of
reply to an artifice which the occasion required. It was
intended, I thought, to accentuate the danger she incurred and
the
contempt that she felt for it, thanks to the sureness of the
thrower's hands, and so I was very much surprised when the
mountebank said to me:
"Have you observed her laugh, I say? Her evil laugh which makes
fun of me, and her
cowardly laugh which defies me? Yes,
cowardly,
because she knows that nothing can happen to her, nothing, in
spite of all she deserves, in spite of all that I ought to do to
her, in spite of all that I WANT to do to her."
"What do you want to do?"
"Confound it! Cannot you guess? I want to kill her."
"To kill her, because she has--"
"Because she has
deceived me? No, no, not that, I tell you again.
I have
forgiven her for that a long time ago, and I am too much
accustomed to it! But the worst of it is that the first time I
forgave her, when I told her that all the same I might some day
have my
revenge by cutting her
throat, if I chose, without
seeming to do it on purpose, as if it were an accident, mere
awkwardness--"
"Oh! So you said that to her?"
"Of course I did, and I meant it. I thought I might be able to do
it, for you see I had the perfect right to do so. It was so
simple, so easy, so tempting! Just think! A mistake of less than
half an inch, and her skin would be cut at the neck where the
jugular vein is, and the jugular would be severed. My
knives cut
very well! And when once the jugular is cut--good-bye. The blood
would spurt out, and one, two, three red jets, and all would be
over; she would be dead, and I should have had my
revenge!"
"That is true, certainly,
horribly true!"
"And without any risk to me, eh? An accident, that is all; bad
luck, one of those mistakes which happen every day in our
business. What could they
accuse me of? Whoever would think of
accusing me, even? Homicide through imprudence, that would be
all! They would even pity me, rather than
accuse me. 'My wife! My
poor wife!' I should say, sobbing. 'My wife, who is so necessary
to me, who is half the breadwinner, who takes part in my
performance!' You must
acknowledge that I should be pitied!"
"Certainly; there is not the least doubt about that."
"And you must allow that such a
revenge would he a very nice
revenge, the best possible
revenge which I could have with
assured impunity."
"Evidently that is so."
"Very well! But when I told her so, as I have told you, and more
forcibly still; threatening her as I was mad with rage and ready
to do the deed that I had dreamed of on the spot, what do you
think she said?"
"That you were a good fellow, and would certainly not have the
atrocious courage to--"
"Tut! tut! tut! I am not such a good fellow as you think. I am
not frightened of blood, and that I have proved already, though
it would be
useless to tell you how and where. But I had no
necessity to prove it to her, for she knows that I am
capable of
a good many things; even of crime; especially of one crime."
"And she was not frightened?"
"No. She merely replied that I could not do what I said; you
understand. That I could not do it!"
"Why not?"
"Ah! Monsieur, so you do not understand? Why do you not? I have I
not explained to you by what
constant, long, daily practice I
have
learned to plant my
knives without
seeing what I am doing?"
"Yes, well, what then?"
"Well! Cannot you understand what she has understood with such
terrible results, that now my hand would no longer obey me if I
wished to make a mistake as I threw?"
"Is it possible?"