Almayer without changing his attitude and
speaking slowly, with
pauses, as if dropping his words on the floor. "As it is--what's
the use? You know where the gun is; you may take it or leave it.
Gun. Deer. Bosh! Hunt deer! Pah! It's a . . . gazelle you
are
after, my honoured guest. You want gold anklets and silk sarongs
for that game--my
mightyhunter. And you won't get those for the
asking, I promise you. All day
amongst the natives. A fine help
you are to me."
"You shouldn't drink so much, Almayer," said Willems, disguising
his fury under an
affected drawl. "You have no head. Never had,
as far as I can remember, in the old days in Macassar. You drink
too much."
"I drink my own," retorted Almayer, lifting his head quickly and
darting an angry glance at Willems.
Those two specimens of the superior race glared at each other
savagely for a minute, then turned away their heads at the same
moment as if by
previousarrangement, and both got up. Almayer
kicked off his slippers and scrambled into his
hammock, which
hung between two
wooden columns of the verandah so as to catch
every rare
breeze of the dry season, and Willems, after standing
irresolutely by the table for a short time, walked without a word
down the steps of the house and over the
courtyard towards the
little
wooden jetty, where several small canoes and a couple of
big white whale-boats were made fast, tugging at their short
painters and bumping together in the swift current of the river.
He jumped into the smallest canoe, balancing himself clumsily,
slipped the rattan
painter, and gave an unnecessary and violent
shove, which nearly sent him
headlongoverboard. By the time he
regained his balance the canoe had drifted some fifty yards down
the river. He knelt in the bottom of his little craft and fought
the current with long sweeps of the
paddle. Almayer sat up in
his
hammock, grasping his feet and peering over the river with
parted lips till he made out the
shadowy form of man and canoe as
they struggled past the jetty again.
"I thought you would go," he shouted. "Won't you take the gun?
Hey?" he yelled, straining his voice. Then he fell back in his
hammock and laughed to himself
feebly till he fell asleep. On
the river, Willems, his eyes fixed
intently ahead, swept his
paddle right and left, unheeding the words that reached him
faintly.
It was now three months since Lingard had landed Willems in
Sambir and had
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hurriedly, leaving him in Almayer's care.
The two white men did not get on well together. Almayer,
remembering the time when they both served Hudig, and when the
superior Willems treated him with
offensive condescension, felt a
great
dislike towards his guest. He was also
jealous of
Lingard's favour. Almayer had married a Malay girl whom the old
seaman had adopted in one of his accesses of unreasoning
benevolence, and as the marriage was not a happy one from a
domestic point of view, he looked to Lingard's fortune for
compensation in his matrimonial unhappiness. The appearance of
that man, who seemed to have a claim of some sort upon Lingard,
filled him with
considerableuneasiness, the more so because the
old
seaman did not choose to
acquaint the husband of his adopted
daughter with Willems' history, or to
confide to him his
intentions as to that individual's future fate. Suspicious from
the first, Almayer discouraged Willems' attempts to help him in
his trading, and then when Willems drew back, he made, with
characteristic perverseness, a
grievance of his unconcern. From
cold
civility in their relations, the two men drifted into silent
hostility, then into outspoken
enmity, and both wished ardently
for Lingard's return and the end of a situation that grew more
intolerable from day to day. The time dragged slowly. Willems
watched the succeeding sunrises wondering dismally whether before
the evening some change would occur in the
deadly dullness of his
life. He missed the
commercial activity of that
existence which
seemed to him far off, irreparably lost, buried out of sight
under the ruins of his past success--now gone from him beyond the
possibility of redemption. He mooned disconsolately about
Almayer's
courtyard, watching from afar, with uninterested eyes,
the up-country canoes discharging guttah or rattans, and loading
rice or European goods on the little wharf of Lingard & Co. Big
as was the
extent of ground owned by Almayer, Willems yet felt
that there was not enough room for him inside those neat fences.
The man who, during long years, became accustomed to think of
himself as
indispensable to others, felt a bitter and
savage rage
at the cruel
consciousness of his superfluity, of his
uselessness; at the cold
hostilityvisible in every look of the
only white man in this
barbarous corner of the world. He gnashed
his teeth when he thought of the wasted days, of the life thrown
away in the
unwilling company of that peevish and
suspiciousfool. He heard the
reproach of his
idleness in the murmurs of
the river, in the unceasing
whisper of the great forests. Round
him everything stirred, moved, swept by in a rush; the earth
under his feet and the heavens above his head. The very
savages
around him
strove, struggled, fought, worked--if only to prolong
a
miserableexistence; but they lived, they lived! And it was
only himself that seemed to be left outside the
scheme of
creation in a
hopeless immobility filled with tormenting anger
and with ever-stinging regret.
He took to wandering about the settlement. The afterwards
flourishing Sambir was born in a swamp and passed its youth in
malodorous mud. The houses
crowded the bank, and, as if to get
away from the unhealthy shore, stepped
boldly into the river,
shooting over it in a close row of
bamboo platforms elevated on
high piles,
amongst which the current below spoke in a soft and
unceasing plaint of murmuring eddies. There was only one path in
the whole town and it ran at the back of the houses along the
succession of blackened
circular patches that marked the place of
the household fires. On the other side the
virgin forest
bordered the path, coming close to it, as if to provoke
impudently any passer-by to the
solution of the
gloomy problem of
its depths. Nobody would accept the deceptive
challenge. There
were only a few
feeble attempts at a
clearing here and there, but
the ground was low and the river, retiring after its yearly
floods, left on each a gradually diminishing mudhole, where the
imported buffaloes of the Bugis settlers wallowed happily during
the heat of the day. When Willems walked on the path, the
indolent men stretched on the shady side of the houses looked at
him with calm
curiosity, the women busy round the cooking fires
would send after him wondering and timid glances, while the
children would only look once, and then run away yelling with
fright at the
horrible appearance of the man with a red and white
face. These manifestations of
childishdisgust and fear stung
Willems with a sense of
absurdhumiliation; he sought in his
walks the
comparativesolitude of the rudimentary
clearings, but
the very buffaloes snorted with alarm at his sight, scrambled
lumberingly out of the cool mud and stared wildly in a compact
herd at him as he tried to slink unperceived along the edge of
the forest. One day, at some
unguarded and sudden
movement of
his, the whole herd stampeded down the path, scattered the fires,
sent the women flying with
shrill cries, and left behind a track
of smashed pots, trampled rice, overturned children, and a crowd
of angry men brandishing sticks in loud-voiced
pursuit. The
innocent cause of that
disturbance ran shamefacedly the gauntlet
of black looks and unfriendly remarks, and
hastily sought
refugein Almayer's campong. After that he left the settlement alone.
Later, when the enforced
confinement grew irksome, Willems took
one of Almayer's many canoes and crossed the main branch of the
Pantai in search of some
solitary spot where he could hide his
discouragement and his
weariness. He skirted in his little craft
the wall of tangled verdure, keeping in the dead water close to
the bank where the spreading nipa palms nodded their broad leaves
over his head as if in
contemptuous pity of the wandering
outcast. Here and there he could see the beginnings of
chopped-out
pathways, and, with the fixed idea of getting out of
sight of the busy river, he would land and follow the narrow and
winding path, only to find that it led
nowhere,
ending abruptly
in the
discouragement of
thornythickets. He would go back