had excellent food,
lodging, women, and society; and I had fame,which showed that what I taught was very good.
this faith in the meaning of
poetry and in the development oflife was a religion, and I was one of its priests. To be its
priest was very pleasant and
profitable. And I lived aconsiderable time in this faith without doubting its validity. But
in the second and still more in the third year of this life I beganto doubt the infallibility of this religion and to examine it. My
first cause of doubt was that I began to notice that the priests ofthis religion were not all in
accord among themselves. Some said:
We are the best and most useful teachers; we teach what is needed,but the others teach wrongly. Others said: No! we are the real
teachers, and you teach wrongly. and they disputed, quarrelled,abused, cheated, and tricked one another. There were also many
among us who did not care who was right and who was wrong, but weresimply bent on attaining their covetous aims by means of this
activity of ours. All this obliged me to doubt the validity of ourcreed.