vainly tried to
pierce her heart, and now thought to find a rapid
death by strangling herself with her shawl.
"If I die, he will live," she said,
trying to
tighten the knot that
she had made.
In her struggle with death her hair hung loose, her shoulders were
bare, her clothing was disordered, her eyes were bathed in tears, her
face was flushed and drawn with the
horror of
despair; yet as her
exceeding beauty met Raphael's intoxicated eyes, his delirium grew. He
sprang towards her like a bird of prey, tore away the shawl, and tried
to take her in his arms.
The dying man sought for words to express the wish that was consuming
his strength; but no sounds would come except the choking death-rattle
in his chest. Each
breath he drew sounded hollower than the last, and
seemed to come from his very entrails. At the last moment, no longer
able to utter a sound, he set his teeth in Pauline's breast. Jonathan
appeared, terrified by the cries he had heard, and tried to tear away
the dead body from the grasp of the girl who was crouching with it in
a corner.
"What do you want?" she asked. "He is mine, I have killed him. Did I
not
foresee how it would be?"
EPILOGUE
"And what became of Pauline?"
"Pauline? Ah! Do you sometimes spend a pleasant winter evening by your
own
fireside, and give yourself up luxuriously to memories of love or
youth, while you watch the glow of the fire where the logs of oak are
burning? Here, the fire outlines a sort of chessboard in red squares,
there it has a sheen like
velvet; little blue flames start up and
flicker and play about in the glowing depths of the brasier. A
mysterious artist comes and adapts that flame to his own ends; by a
secret of his own he draws a
visionary face in the midst of those
flaming
violet and
crimson hues, a face with unimaginable delicate
outlines, a
fleetingapparition which no chance will ever bring back
again. It is a woman's face, her hair is blown back by the wind, her
features speak of a
rapture of delight; she
breathes fire in the midst
of the fire. She smiles, she dies, you will never see her any more.
Farewell, flower of the flame! Farewell,
essenceincomplete and
un
foreseen, come too early or too late to make the spark of some
glorious diamond."
"But, Pauline?"
"You do not see, then? I will begin again. Make way! make way! She
comes, she is here, the queen of illusions, a woman
fleeting as a
kiss, a woman bright as
lightning, issuing in a blaze like
lightningfrom the sky, a being uncreated, of spirit and love alone. She has
wrapped her
shadowy form in flame, or perhaps the flame betokens that
she exists but for a moment. The pure outlines of her shape tell you
that she comes from heaven. Is she not
radiant as an angel? Can you
not hear the
beating of her wings in space? She sinks down beside you
more
lightly than a bird, and you are entranced by her awful eyes;
there is a
magical power in her light
breathing that draws your lips
to hers; she flies and you follow; you feel the earth beneath you no
longer. If you could but once touch that form of snow with your eager,
deluded hands, once twine the golden hair round your fingers, place
one kiss on those shining eyes! There is an intoxicating vapor around,
and the spell of a siren music is upon you. Every nerve in you is
quivering; you are filled with pain and
longing. O joy for which there
is no name! You have touched the woman's lips, and you are awakened at
once by a
horrible pang. Oh! ah! yes, you have struck your head
against the corner of the bedpost, you have been clasping its brown
mahogany sides, and
chilly gilt ornaments; embracing a piece of metal,
a
brazen Cupid."
"But how about Pauline, sir?"
"What, again? Listen. One lovely morning at Tours a young man, who
held the hand of a pretty woman in his, went on board the Ville
d'Angers. Thus united they both looked and wondered long at a white
form that rose elusively out of the mists above the broad waters of
the Loire, like some child of the sun and the river, or some freak of
air and cloud. This translucent form was a sylph or a naiad by turns;
she hovered in the air like a word that haunts the memory, which seeks
in vain to grasp it; she glided among the islands, she nodded her head
here and there among the tall
poplar trees; then she grew to a giant's
height; she shook out the
countless folds of her
drapery to the light;
she shot light from the aureole that the sun had litten about her