"The
countess, in her blue cashmere gown, was reclining on a sofa,
with her feet on a
cushion. She wore an Oriental
turban such as
painters
assign to early Hebrews; its strangeness added an
indescribable coquettish grace to her attractions. A transitory charm
seemed to have laid its spell on her face; it might have furnished the
argument that at every
instant we become new and unparalleled beings,
without any re
semblance to the US of the future or of the past. I had
never yet seen her so radiant.
" 'Do you know that you have piqued my curiosity?' she said, laughing.
" 'I will not
disappoint it,' I said quietly, as I seated myself near
to her and took the hand that she surrendered to me. 'You have a very
beautiful voice!'
" 'You have never heard me sing!' she exclaimed, starting
involuntarily with surprise.
" 'I will prove that it is quite
otherwise,
whenever it is necessary.
Is your
delightful singing still to remain a
mystery? Have no fear, I
do not wish to
penetrate it.'
"We spent about an hour in familiar talk. While I adopted the attitude
and manner of a man to whom Foedora must refuse nothing, I showed her
all a lover's deference. Acting in this way, I received a favor--I was
allowed to kiss her hand. She daintily drew off the glove, and my
whole soul was dissolved and poured forth in that kiss. I was steeped
in the bliss of an
illusion in which I tried to believe.
"Foedora lent herself most
unexpectedly to my
caress and my
flatteries. Do not
accuse me of faint-heartedness; if I had gone a
step beyond these
fraternal compliments, the claws would have been out
of the
sheath and into me. We remained
perfectly silent for nearly ten
minutes. I was admiring her, investing her with the charms she had
not. She was mine just then, and mine only,--this enchanting being was
mine, as was permissible, in my
imagination; my
longing wrapped her
round and held her close; in my soul I
wedded her. The
countess was
subdued and fascinated by my
magnetic influence. Ever since I have
regretted that this subjugation was not
absolute; but just then I
yearned for her soul, her heart alone, and for nothing else. I longed
for an ideal and perfect happiness, a fair
illusion that cannot last
for very long. At last I spoke, feeling that the last hours of my
frenzy were at hand.
" 'Hear me, madame. I love you, and you know it; I have said so a
hundred times; you must have understood me. I would not take upon me
the airs of a coxcomb, nor would I
flatter you, nor urge myself upon
you like a fool; I would not owe your love to such arts as these! so I
have been misunderstood. What
sufferings have I not endured for your
sake! For these, however, you were not to blame; but in a few minutes
you shall decide for yourself. There are two kinds of
poverty, madame.
One kind
openly walks the street in rags, an
unconscious imitator of
Diogenes, on a
scanty diet, reducing life to its simplest terms; he is
happier, maybe, than the rich; he has fewer cares at any rate, and
accepts such portions of the world as stronger spirits refuse. Then
there is
poverty in
splendor, a Spanish pauper, concealing the life of
a
beggar by his title, his
bravery, and his pride;
poverty that wears
a white
waistcoat and yellow kid gloves, a
beggar with a carriage,
whose whole
career will be wrecked for lack of a halfpenny. Poverty of
the first kind belongs to the
populace; the second kind is that of
blacklegs, of kings, and of men of
talent. I am neither a man of the
people, nor a king, nor a swindler; possibly I have no
talent either,
I am an
exception. With the name I bear I must die sooner than beg.
Set your mind at rest, madame,' I said; 'to-day I have
abundance, I
possess sufficient of the clay for my needs'; for the hard look passed
over her face which we wear
whenever a well-dressed
beggar takes us by
surprise. 'Do you remember the day when you wished to go to the
Gymnase without me, never believing that I should be there?' I went
on.
"She nodded.
" 'I had laid out my last five-franc piece that I might see you there.