weather, and my wish to go to the gaming-table. She did not read my
poverty in my embarrassed attitude, or in my forced jests. My eyes
would
redden, but she did not understand a look. A young man's life is
at the mercy of the strangest whims! At every revolution of the wheels
during the journey, thoughts that burned stirred in my heart. I tried
to pull up a plank from the bottom of the
vehicle, hoping to slip
through the hole into the street; but
finding insuperable obstacles, I
burst into a fit of
laughter, and then sat stupefied in calm
dejection, like a man in a pillory. When I reached my
lodging, Pauline
broke in through my first stammering words with:
" 'If you haven't any money----?'
"Ah, the music of Rossini was as nothing compared with those words.
But to return to the
performance at the Funambules.
"I thought of pawning the circlet of gold round my mother's
portraitin order to
escort the
countess. Although the pawnbroker loomed in my
thoughts as one of the doors of a convict's prison, I would rather
myself have carried my bed
thither than have begged for alms. There is
something so
painful in the expression of a man who asks money of you!
There are loans that mulct us of our self-respect, just as some
rebuffs from a friend's lips sweep away our last illusion.
"Pauline was
working; her mother had gone to bed. I flung a stealthy
glance over the bed; the curtains were drawn back a little; Madame
Gaudin was in a deep sleep, I thought, when I saw her quiet, sallow
profile outlined against the pillow.
" 'You are in trouble?' Pauline said, dipping her brush into the
coloring.
" 'It is in your power to do me a great service, my dear child,' I
answered.
"The
gladness in her eyes frightened me.
" 'Is it possible that she loves me?' I thought. 'Pauline,' I began. I
went and sat near to her, so as to study her. My tones had been so
searching that she read my thought; her eyes fell, and I scrutinized
her face. It was so pure and frank that I fancied I could see as
clearly into her heart as into my own.
" 'Do you love me?' I asked.
" 'A little,--
passionately--not a bit!' she cried.
"Then she did not love me. Her jesting tones, and a little gleeful
movement that escaped her, expressed nothing beyond a girlish, blithe
goodwill. I told her about my
distress and the predicament in which I
found myself, and asked her to help me.
" 'You do not wish to go to the pawnbroker's yourself, M. Raphael,'
she answered, 'and yet you would send me!'
"I blushed in
confusion at the child's
reasoning. She took my hand in
hers as if she wanted to
compensate for this home-truth by her light
touch upon it.
" 'Oh, I would
willingly go,' she said, 'but it is not necessary. I
found two five-franc pieces at the back of the piano, that had slipped
without your knowledge between the frame and the keyboard, and I laid
them on your table.'
" 'You will soon be coming into some money, M. Raphael,' said the kind
mother, showing her face between the curtains, 'and I can easily lend
you a few crowns meanwhile.'
" 'Oh, Pauline!' I cried, as I pressed her hand, 'how I wish that I
were rich!'
" 'Bah! why should you?' she said petulantly. Her hand shook in mine
with the throbbing of her pulse; she snatched it away, and looked at
both of mine.
" 'You will marry a rich wife,' she said, 'but she will give you a
great deal of trouble. Ah, Dieu! she will be your death,--I am sure of
it.'
"In her
exclamation there was something like
belief in her mother's
- poverty [´pɔvəti] n.贫穷(乏,瘠);不足 (初中英语单词)
- attractive [ə´træktiv] a.有吸引力;诱人的 (初中英语单词)
- luxury [´lʌkʃəri] n.奢侈(品);享受 (初中英语单词)
- gallant [´gælənt, gə´lænt] a.英勇的;华丽的 (初中英语单词)
- sharply [´ʃɑ:pli] ad.锋利地;剧烈地 (初中英语单词)
- sustain [sə´stein] vt.支撑;蒙受;确认 (初中英语单词)
- character [´kæriktə] n.特性;性质;人物;字 (初中英语单词)
- despair [di´speə] vi.&n.绝望 (初中英语单词)
- horrible [´hɔrəbəl] a.可怕的;恐怖的 (初中英语单词)
- conflict [´kɔnflikt, kən´flikt] n.&vi.战斗;抵触 (初中英语单词)
- selfish [´selfiʃ] a.自私的,利己的 (初中英语单词)
- ashamed [ə´ʃeimd] a.惭愧;不好意思 (初中英语单词)
- polite [pə´lait] a.有礼貌的;温和的 (初中英语单词)
- coldness [´kəuldnis] n.寒冷;冷淡 (初中英语单词)
- gesture [´dʒestʃə] n.手势 v.打手势 (初中英语单词)
- insult [in´sʌlt, ´insʌlt] n.&vt.侮辱;损害 (初中英语单词)
- mysterious [mi´stiəriəs] a.神秘的;难以理解的 (初中英语单词)
- existence [ig´zistəns] n.存在;生存;生活 (初中英语单词)
- useless [´ju:sləs] a.无用的,无价值的 (初中英语单词)
- emotion [i´məuʃən] n.感情;情绪;激动 (初中英语单词)
- musical [´mju:zikəl] a.音乐的;悦耳的 (初中英语单词)
- passion [´pæʃən] n.激情;激怒;恋爱 (初中英语单词)
- mistress [´mistris] n.女主人;情妇;女能手 (初中英语单词)
- indication [,indi´keiʃən] n.指示;征兆,迹象 (初中英语单词)
- harmony [´hɑ:məni] n.调合,协调,和谐 (初中英语单词)
- fiercely [´fiəsli] ad.凶猛地,残忍地 (初中英语单词)
- divine [di´vain] a.神圣的 v.预言 (初中英语单词)
- poetry [´pəuitri] n.诗;诗意 (初中英语单词)
- restless [´restləs] a.没有休息的 (初中英语单词)
- personality [,pə:sə´næliti] n.人;个性;人品;人物 (初中英语单词)
- thoroughly [´θʌrəli] ad.完全地,彻底地 (初中英语单词)
- consideration [kən,sidə´reiʃən] n.考虑;原因;体谅 (初中英语单词)
- origin [´ɔridʒin] n.起源;由来;出身 (初中英语单词)
- enthusiasm [in´θju:ziæzəm] n.热心;狂热;爱好 (初中英语单词)
- conceal [kən´si:l] vt.藏;隐瞒 (初中英语单词)
- warmth [wɔ:mθ] n.温暖;热情;激动 (初中英语单词)
- devotion [di´vəuʃən] n.献身;忠诚;热爱 (初中英语单词)
- advantage [əd´vɑ:ntidʒ] n.优势;利益 (初中英语单词)
- vanity [´væniti] n.虚荣;自负;空虚 (初中英语单词)
- absolute [´æbsəlu:t] a.绝对的 n.绝对 (初中英语单词)
- lonely [´ləunli] a.孤独的;无人烟的 (初中英语单词)
- prospect [´prɔspekt, prəs´pekt] n.景色;境界 v.勘察 (初中英语单词)
- revenge [ri´vendʒ] vt.报复 n.报仇;报复 (初中英语单词)
- wealthy [´welθi] a.富有的;丰富的 (初中英语单词)
- remote [ri´məut] a.遥远的;偏僻的 (初中英语单词)
- humanity [hju:´mæniti] n.人类;人性;仁慈 (初中英语单词)
- ambition [æm´biʃən] n.雄心,野心;企图 (初中英语单词)
- wretched [´retʃid] a.可怜的;倒霉的 (初中英语单词)
- volume [´vɔlju:m, ´vɑljəm] n.卷;书籍;体积;容量 (初中英语单词)
- assistance [ə´sistəns] n.协作;援助;帮助 (初中英语单词)
- laughter [´lɑ:ftə] n.笑,笑声 (初中英语单词)
- performance [pə´fɔ:məns] n.履行;行为;工作 (初中英语单词)
- thither [´ðiðə] ad.到那里 a.那边的 (初中英语单词)
- working [´wə:kiŋ] a.工人的;劳动的 (初中英语单词)
- distress [di´stres] n.痛苦 vt.使苦恼 (初中英语单词)
- confusion [kən´fju:ʒən] n.混乱(状态);骚乱 (初中英语单词)
- belief [bi´li:f] n.相信;信仰,信条 (初中英语单词)
- indispensable [,indi´spensəbəl] a.绝对必要的 (高中英语单词)
- painful [´peinfəl] a.痛(苦)的;费力的 (高中英语单词)
- crisis [´kraisis] n.转折点;危机 (高中英语单词)
- penetrate [´penitreit] v.贯穿;穿透;渗透 (高中英语单词)
- sadness [´sædnis] n.悲哀;悲痛;凄惨 (高中英语单词)
- hitherto [,hiðə´tu:] ad.至今,迄今 (高中英语单词)
- affectionate [ə´fekʃənit] a.亲爱的 (高中英语单词)
- vengeance [´vendʒəns] n.报复,复仇 (高中英语单词)
- hearing [´hiəriŋ] n.听力;听证会;审讯 (高中英语单词)
- studied [´stʌdid] a.故意的;有计划的 (高中英语单词)
- portrait [´pɔ:trit] n.肖像;相片;雕像 (高中英语单词)
- exhibition [eksi´biʃ(ə)n] n.展览;显示;表演 (高中英语单词)
- bonnet [´bɔnit] n.无边女帽;童帽 (高中英语单词)
- bearing [´beəriŋ] n.举止;忍耐;关系 (高中英语单词)
- donkey [´dɔŋki] n.驴子;蠢人;顽固的人 (高中英语单词)
- greatness [´greitnis] n.巨大;高尚;卓越 (高中英语单词)
- appeal [ə´pi:l] vi.&n.请求;呼吁;上诉 (高中英语单词)
- stifle [´staifəl] vt.(使)窒息,闷死 (高中英语单词)
- sphere [sfiə] n.圆体;天体;范围 (高中英语单词)
- finding [´faindiŋ] n.发现物;判断;结果 (高中英语单词)
- lodging [´lɔdʒiŋ] n.寄宿,住宿 (高中英语单词)
- escort [´eskɔ:t] n.伴随者;警卫(队) (高中英语单词)
- reasoning [´ri:zəniŋ] n.推理,评理 a.推理的 (高中英语单词)
- irresistible [,iri´zistəbəl] a.不可抵抗的 (英语四级单词)
- plaything [´plei,θiŋ] n.玩具;玩物 (英语四级单词)
- precarious [pri´keəriəs] a.不安定的;危险的 (英语四级单词)
- warning [´wɔ:niŋ] n.警告;前兆 a.预告的 (英语四级单词)
- grandeur [´grændʒə] n.伟大;富丽;壮观 (英语四级单词)
- cordially [´kɔ:djəli] ad.热诚地;亲切地 (英语四级单词)
- triumphant [trai´ʌmfənt] a.胜利的;洋洋得意的 (英语四级单词)
- vibrate [´vaibreit, vai´breit] v.(使)振动;发抖 (英语四级单词)
- gentleness [´dʒentlnis] n.温和,温柔 (英语四级单词)
- painfully [´peinfuli] ad.痛苦地;费力地 (英语四级单词)
- repulse [ri´pʌls] vt.拒绝;排斥 n.击退 (英语四级单词)
- virtuous [´və:tjuəs] a.道德的;善良的 (英语四级单词)
- presentation [,prezən´teiʃən] n.介绍;赠送;提出 (英语四级单词)
- providence [´prɔvidəns] n.天意,天命,上帝 (英语四级单词)
- vehicle [´vi:ikəl] n.车辆;媒介物 (英语四级单词)
- gladness [´glædnis] n.愉快,高兴,喜悦 (英语四级单词)
- compensate [´kɔmpenseit] v.赔偿;补偿;酬报 (英语四级单词)
- willingly [´wiliŋli] ad.情愿地,乐意地 (英语四级单词)
- exclamation [,eksklə´meiʃən] n.喊(惊)叫;感叹词 (英语四级单词)
- affected [ə´fektid] a.做作的;假装的 (英语六级单词)
- gaiety [´geəti] n.欢乐;乐事;华丽 (英语六级单词)
- nameless [´neimlis] a.无名字的;无名声的 (英语六级单词)
- countess [´kauntis] n.伯爵夫人;女伯爵 (英语六级单词)
- unmoved [ʌn´mu:vd] a.无动于衷的;坚定的 (英语六级单词)
- mortify [´mɔ:tifai] v.克制;禁欲;使受辱 (英语六级单词)
- unison [´ju:nisən] n.协调,一致;齐唱 (英语六级单词)
- restlessly [´restlisli] ad.不安定地;烦躁地 (英语六级单词)
- politeness [pə´laitnis] n.礼貌;文雅;温和 (英语六级单词)
- exaggeration [ig,zædʒə´reiʃən] n.夸张,夸大 (英语六级单词)
- idolatry [ai´dɔlətri] n.偶像崇拜;过度崇信 (英语六级单词)
- taking [´teikiŋ] a.迷人的 n.捕获物 (英语六级单词)
- farthing [´fɑ:ðiŋ] n.法新 (英语六级单词)
- liking [´laikiŋ] n.爱好;嗜好;喜欢 (英语六级单词)
- redden [´redn] v.(使)变红;脸红 (英语六级单词)