not escape me without a
breach of
civility; but, like her mother, she
looked at no one, and kept silence without even once turning her eyes
in my direction.
"Dear Madeleine," I said in a low voice, "What have you against me?
Why do you show such
coldness in the presence of death, which ought to
reconcile us all?"
"I hear in my heart what my mother is
saying at this moment," she
replied, with a look which Ingres gave to his "Mother of God,"--that
virgin, already
sorrowful, preparing herself to protect the world for
which her son was about to die.
"And you
condemn me at the moment when your mother absolves me,--if
indeed I am
guilty."
"You, YOU," she said, "always YOUR SELF!"
The tones of her voice revealed the determined
hatred of a Corsican,
implacable as the judgments of those who, not having
studied life,
admit of no extenuation of faults committed against the laws of the
heart.
An hour went by in deepest silence. The Abbe Birotteau came to us
after receiving the
countess's general
confession, and we followed him
back to the room where Henriette, under one of those
impulses which
often come to noble minds, all sisters of one
intent, had made them
dress her in the long white
garment which was to be her
shroud. We
found her sitting up; beautiful from expiation, beautiful in hope. I
saw in the
fireplace the black ashes of my letters which had just been
burned, a sacrifice which, as her confessor afterwards told me, she
had not been
willing to make until the hour of her death. She smiled
upon us all with the smile of other days. Her eyes, moist with tears,
gave evidence of
inward lucidity; she saw the
celestial joys of the
promised land.
"Dear Felix," she said,
holding out her hand and pressing mine, "stay
with us. You must be present at the last scene of my life, not the
least
painful among many such, but one in which you are concerned."
She made a sign and the door was closed. At her request the count sat
down; the Abbe Birotteau and I remained
standing. Then with Manette's
help the
countess rose and knelt before the astonished count,
persisting in remaining there. A moment after, when Manette had left
the room, she raised her head which she had laid upon her husband's
knees.
"Though I have been a
faithful wife to you," she said, in a faint
voice, "I have sometimes failed in my duty. I have just prayed to God
to give me strength to ask your
pardon. I have given to a friendship
outside of my family more
affectionate care than I have shown to you.
Perhaps I have sometimes irritated you by the comparisons you may have
made between these cares, these thoughts, and those I gave to you. I
have had," she said, in a sinking voice, "a deep friendship, which no
one, not even he who has been its object, has fully known. Though I
have continued
virtuous according to all human laws, though I have
been a irreproachable wife to you, still other thoughts,
voluntary or
in
voluntary, have often crossed my mind and, in this hour, I fear I
have welcomed them too warmly. But as I have
tenderly loved you, and
continued to be your submissive wife, and as the clouds passing
beneath the sky do not alter its
purity, I now pray for your
blessingwith a clean heart. I shall die without one bitter thought if I can
hear from your lips a tender word for your Blanche, for the mother of
your children,--if I know that you
forgive her those things for which
she did not
forgive herself till reassured by the great
tribunal which
pardons all."
"Blanche, Blanche!" cried the broken man, shedding tears upon his
wife's head, "Would you kill me?" He raised her with a strength
unusual to him, kissed her
solemnly on the
forehead, and thus
holdingher continued: "Have I no
forgiveness to ask of you? Have I never been
harsh? Are you not making too much of your girlish scruples?"
"Perhaps," she said. "But, dear friend,
indulge the
weakness of a
dying woman; tranquillize my mind. When you reach this hour you will
remember that I left you with a
blessing. Will you grant me permission
to leave to our friend now here that
pledge of my affection?" she