religion alone can see; and since you have come perhaps you are led by
some
celestial star of the moral world which leads to the tomb as to
the manger--"
He then told me, with that tempered
eloquence which falls like dew
upon the heart, that for the last six months the
countess had suffered
daily more and more, in spite of Monsieur Origet's care. The doctor
had come to Clochegourde every evening for two months, striving to
rescue her from death; for her one cry had been, "Oh, save me!" "To
heal the body the heart must first be healed," the doctor had
exclaimed one day.
"As the
illness increased, the words of this poor woman, once so
gentle, have grown bitter," said the Abbe. "She calls on earth to keep
her, instead of asking God to take her; then she repents these murmurs
against the
divinedecree. Such alternations of feeling rend her heart
and make the struggle between body and soul most
horrible. Often the
body triumphs. 'You have cost me dear,' she said one day to Jacques
and Madeleine; but in a moment, recalled to God by the look on my
face, she turned to Madeleine with these
angelic words, 'The happiness
of others is the joy of those who cannot themselves be happy,'--and
the tone with which she said them brought tears to my eyes. She falls,
it is true, but each time that her feet
stumble she rises higher
towards heaven."
Struck by the tone of the
successive intimations chance had sent me,
and which in this great concert of misfortunes were like a prelude of
mournful modulations to a funereal theme, the
mighty cry of expiring
love, I cried out: "Surely you believe that this pure lily cut from
earth will flower in heaven?"
"You left her still a flower," he answered, "but you will find her
consumed, purified by the forces of
suffering, pure as a diamond
buried in the ashes. Yes, that shining soul,
angelic star, will issue
glorious from the clouds and pass into the kingdom of the Light."
As I pressed the hand of the good evangelist, my heart overflowing
with
gratitude, the count put his head, now entirely white, out of the
door and immediately
sprang towards me with signs of surprise.
"She was right! He is here! 'Felix, Felix, Felix has come!' she kept
crying. My dear friend," he continued, beside himself with terror,
"death is here. Why did it not take a poor
madman like me with one
foot in the grave?"
I walked towards the house summoning my courage, but on the threshold
of the long antechamber which crossed the house and led to the lawn,
the Abbe Birotteau stopped me.
"Madame la comtesse begs you will not enter at present," he said to
me.
Giving a glance within the house I saw the servants coming and going,
all busy, all dumb with grief, surprised perhaps by the orders Manette
gave them.
"What has happened?" cried the count, alarmed by the
commotion, as
much from fear of the coming event as from the natural
uneasiness of
his character.
"Only a sick woman's fancy," said the abbe. "Madame la comtesse does
not wish to receive
monsieur le vicomte as she now is. She talks of
dressing; why
thwart her?"
Manette came in search of Madeleine, whom I saw leave the house a few
moments after she had entered her mother's room. We were all, Jacques
and his father, the two abbes and I,
silently walking up and down the
lawn in front of the house. I looked first at Montbazon and then at
Azay, noticing the seared and yellow
valley which answered in its
mourning (as it ever did on all occasions) to the feelings of my
heart. Suddenly I
beheld the dear "mignonne"
gathering the autumn
flowers, no doubt to make a
bouquet at her mother's bidding. Thinking
of all which that signified, I was so convulsed within me that I
staggered, my sight was blurred, and the two abbes, between whom I
walked, led me to the wall of a
terrace, where I sat for some time
completely broken down but not unconscious.
"Poor Felix," said the count, "she
forbade me to write to you. She