never concern."
"You have a noble soul, Felix," said the count, slipping his arm, not
ungracefully, round his wife's waist and
drawing her towards him to
say: "Forgive a poor sick man, dear, who wants to be loved more than
he deserves."
"There are some hearts that are all generosity," she said, resting her
head upon his shoulder. The scene made her tremble to such a degree
that her comb fell, her hair rolled down, and she turned pale. The
count,
holding her up, gave a sort of groan as he felt her fainting;
he caught her in his arms as he might a child, and carried her to the
sofa in the salon, where we all surrounded her. Henriette held my hand
in hers as if to tell me that we two alone knew the secret of that
scene, so simple in itself, so heart-rending to her.
"I do wrong," she said to me in a low voice, when the count left the
room to fetch a glass of orange-flower water. "I have many wrongs to
repent of towards you; I wished to fill you with
despair when I ought
to have received you mercifully. Dear, you are kindness itself, and I
alone can
appreciate it. Yes, I know there is a kindness prompted by
passion. Men have various ways of being kind; some from contempt,
others from
impulse, from
calculation, through indolence of nature;
but you, my friend, you have been
absolutely kind."
"If that be so," I replied, "remember that all that is good or great
in me comes through you. You know well that I am of your making."
"That word is enough for any woman's happiness," she said, as the
count re-entered the room. "I feel better," she said, rising; "I want
air."
We went down to the
terrace,
fragrant with the acacias which were
still in bloom. She had taken my right arm, and pressed it against her
heart, thus expressing her sad thoughts; but they were, she said, of a
sadness dear to her. No doubt she would
gladly have been alone with
me; but her
imagination, inexpert in women's wiles, did not suggest to
her any way of sending her children and the count back to the house.
We
therefore talked on
indifferent subjects, while she pondered a
means of pouring a few last thoughts from her heart to mine.
"It is a long time since I have
driven out," she said, looking at the
beauty of the evening. "Monsieur, will you please order the carriage
that I may take a turn?"
She knew that after evening prayer she could not speak with me, for
the count was sure to want his backgammon. She might have returned to
the warm and
fragrantterrace after her husband had gone to bed, but
she feared, perhaps, to trust herself beneath those shadows, or to
walk by the balustrade where our eyes could see the course of the
Indre through the dear
valley. As the silent and sombre vaults of a
cathedral lift the soul to prayer, so leafy ways, lighted by the moon,
perfumed with penetrating odors, alive with the murmuring noises of
the spring-tide, stir the fibres and
weaken the resolves of those who
love. The country calms the old, but excites the young. We knew it
well. Two strokes of the bell announced the hour of prayer. The
countess shivered.
"Dear Henriette, are you ill?"
"There is no Henriette," she said. "Do not bring her back. She was
capricious and
exacting; now you have a friend whose courage has been
strengthened by the words which heaven itself dictated to you. We will
talk of this later. We must be
punctual at prayers, for it is my day
to lead them."
As Madame de Mortsauf said the words in which she begged the help of
God through all the adversities of life, a tone came into her voice
which struck all present. Did she use her gift of second sight to
foresee the terrible
emotion she was about to
endure through my
forgetfulness of an
engagement made with Arabella?
"We have time to make three kings before the horses are harnessed,"
said the count, dragging me back to the salon. "You can go and drive
with my wife, and I'll go to bed."
The game was stormy, like all others. The
countess heard the count's
voice either from her room or from Madeleine's.
"You show a strange hospitality," she said, re-entering the salon.
I looked at her with
amazement; I could not get accustomed to the
change in her;
formerly she would have been most careful not to
protect me against the count; then it gladdened her that I should
share her sufferings and bear them with
patience for love of her.
"I would give my life," I whispered in her ear, "if I could hear you
say again, as you once said, 'Poor dear, poor dear!'"
She lowered her eyes, remembering the moment to which I alluded, yet